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Alexander [ @bowstrung ]

Alec rolled his eyes and shook his head, not all at the same time. “I don’t need you to curse them for me, Magnus. I’m fine.” It was a small injury anyway, he’d had much worse. “It’ll heal in no time, so I don’t need you enacting revenge for me. Okay? No curses.” He appreciated that Magnus cared, but he would really prefer not making them even more angry at them. “Besides, I’ve had worse than this. And I’ll let you heal me this time if it will make you feel better.”

   Alec hadn’t been feeling well for the past week or so and now that Sebastian had given him a solution to his sickness, he couldn’t believe him. “No,” he told him. “No no no, that’s not possible.” And if it was, it was probably only because of Sebastian.

   The archer paled and leaned back against the nearest wall. “I can’t be.” Until he had a test or some sort of proof…., “How do you know? Can you sense it or are you just guessing?” And did it have something to do with Sebastian’s demon blood? Did that mean his baby would be part demon? Alec swallowed and tried his hardest not to faint. He really felt like he could faint right now. “I need to see Izzy. She knows how to do one of those scan things. She’ll be able to deny or confirm it.” And if he trusted anyone with this knowledge, it would be his sister. He still didn’t believe it, but the test would help. He probably just had a virus that was lasting a little long since he was working so much. Yeah, that was it. There was no way that he was having a baby.

   Alec’s gaze drifted to the floor. Between being busy with work and dealing with everything there, he hadn’t had much time to go to the loft. Now on the day that he was there he was being questioned about his loyalty to Magnus. It stung a lot more than it probably should.

   “You’re not losing me,” he murmured back. “I’m here, aren’t I?” There was a distance between them now that he didn’t like, but what could he do about that? “I’ve been busy at the Institute, you should know that.” He spoke in quiet tones, too afraid to raise his voice even though he was upset that Magnus thought he was pulling away from him. “We both knew that me being a Shadowhunter would often come first and I can’t apologize for that. It’s my job, it’s how I was raised. I can’t do any differently.” And neither did he want to. Alec finally had the job that his parents had raised him to do. He took care of the Institute far better than they ever had. And he wasn’t being smug saying that, it was the truth.

   “I don’t know what else you want from me, Magnus. I can’t leave all the time like I used to with you when we first started seeing each other. I wish that I could but…,” he trailed off and shook his head. “If things ever slow down then I’ll come here more often.”

a soft furrow creases his brow, almost hurt that that’s what alexander thinks he means. that he thinks he’s anything but PROUD and happy for him in this position he’s in. in a way, it almost feels like a testament to the point he’d been trying to make. how distant alec has seemed, how angry and aloof. every since he’d seen that stupid box. but magnus is not in the mood for a fight. not when it feels like that’s all they’ve been doing lately. so he smiles, a small conciliatory thing. 

   “Why me?” Alec asked. He didn’t know much of Alexander, other than the fact that perhaps they had once been the same. And what did that mean for him? Or did it mean nothing at all? He fumbled with his fingers and looked down at his hands.

   “I’m not worth the wait. I never have been.” That was why he kept to himself, kept to his own duties and focused solely on his family. There wasn’t time for much else, but maybe there was. “You’re better off waiting for someone else.” And there was no way he’d end up being immortal too, at least he didn’t think it would happen to him, so Alexander didn’t need to stick around waiting.

     there’s a soft pause for a moment as he turns to fully study the other. he sees hesitation, confusion... it’s heartbreaking but he understands. quietly, Alexander reaches out & cups his cheek, coaxing the other to look at him before he closes his eyes. the runes flicker & settle on his skin, many of them similar to Alec’s own though much older, & a marred red to Alec’s faded black. 

He got called away for some emergency. 

That was what Isabelle and Luke had said. But Alec wasn’t at the Institute. And no one knew about any emergency. Magnus had tried to swallow down the fear that something had happened to him. 

He checked the roof of the Institute, knowing how well Alec could slip up there with no one noticing. But... nothing.

The next logical place was the penthouse but somehow he didn’t think Alec would be there. Would want to be there. Not the way the morning had gone. But he portalled home... hoping. Hoping.

And came home to Alec sitting on the couch, looking as if he were trying hard to sit as still and straight as he could.

“Alexander?” The portal closed and Magnus approached him slowly. “Are you alright?”

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    “Then don’t,” Alec murmured back. Seeing each other in secret had been stressful on them both. Stressful because they both knew that they could get caught at any moment. “Stay here with me. I’ll lock the door. No one will know that you’re here.” And if they questioned where Jace was, well…he’d make up something for him. “When was the last time we had a sleepover? I think it’d do us both some good.” And it’d give him more time with him, something that he hadn’t had a lot of lately.