#bounceme

Hah, you of all people should now. 

 At first you crave Lia, but you cannot have her, so you tell yourself to focus on the icon, and you worship that, but still she doesn't come to you. 

Then you realize it was just about the girl and never the icon all along and you fall into a void (all this not unlike eternal life or other promised benefits, worship of the icon christ, blind submission to the cross hoping it will still give you eternal bliss). 

The void will drive you insane, 

it will posess you and you will be mentally fighting with water until you're empty. Some will be destroyed by the void and will go on with their lives. They'll start dating some girls they meet at some bar, and sooner or later they will hook up, get a nice morguage, some kids, be a generic sort of happy and sometimes think back on that juvenile silliness. Some however will have a catharsis in the void and emerge with new insight. The collective of these insights is what constitutes the skyqueen.