#borderlandsfictive

I don't want to ask for forgiveness when I don't deserve it and have done nothing to repair the things I broke. I can do better, and that's it. Forgiveness is for her to give. I'm not going to pretend to be entitled to it just because it's a new turn around the sun for the both of us.

Even with all that in mind, I just miss my baby girl. My little Angel. Best thing to ever happen to me. If I could do right by her, if I had that chance, I would take it in a heartbeat. I'd take any chance to do it again. This time around I can do everything a kid wants from a dad. I could make pancakes with little animal faces, I could sing lullabies and tell stories, I can paint her nails or help her make paper dolls. I'd spoil the everloving shit out of that kid. I'd listen to her problems, I'd give her whatever advice she needs. I'd love her in a way that wouldn't kill her to receive.

Again, I hope she's thriving where she is. I love her enough to know that's the best I could do for her anymore. If she ever chose to forgive me, I'd take it. In the meantime, I hope anyone who's ever wronged her [insert graphic threats of violence that my system says isn't appropriate for a fictionkinfessions ask]. I really hope she's doing well. And I miss her every day.

-Handsome Jack (fictive)

-Tyreen Calypso fictive, Borderlands

YOU KNEW I WOULD DO THAT.

were you just trying to push my buttons??? WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT?

— Handsome Jack (fictive)

i’m sorry you were someone i couldn’t save. i still remember you. i always will.

-nick valentine 💘 (fictive)

So, we've been going through our trauma in therapy and took a big step away from a lot of plural and kin communities as part of that and. Yeah it turns out most the characters we thought we were kin with are fictives, and additionally, we assumed we had just 5 of us, but at least 4 of us were multiple alters in a trenchcoat pretending to be one alter, which makes sense to an extent. But like... I'm scared to even try to talk about it outside of my therapist's office. At least one person accused us as system-faking to our face when she got mad at us before trying to backtrack and apologize, and I'm scared it'll happen more and more if I open up. I'm not even open about being a system, it's just the fact that she tried to use our trauma to wound us over something petty. (It's worth noting that the "something petty" was us winning a game of 100% Orange Juice.)

Anyways, finished Borderlands 2 and still missing Jack. I'm tempted to skip straight to Tales instead of Pre-Sequel, but I'm not sure yet.

- noncanon Hyperion Janitor, fictive from Borderlands

Rhys told me you are probably still out there so maybe I’ll see you again. I should have listened to you when you saw I was slipping. Instead I let Pandora’s madness and my own fears and gathered to those who betrayed me get in the way. You never lied to me, not once. Why did I stop trusting you? I can’t say I’m sorry enough.

I miss you like I miss a limb. You were my family. You were my twin. I’m so sorry I didn’t treat you better. But I have changed I’m here still hoping you will some how forgive me like my lover has. I found my baby girl! You would love her! She’s just as sweet and sassy and bright as before, she ain’t afraid to point and call me out when I’m being dumb. Hell I even found Athena and she doesn’t hate me. Well she tolerates me but I mean I’m also sharing the body of her husband so… she kind of has to deal with me. But she nice to me!! So I call that a win.

I do hope you’re out there Tim. Cause fuck if I don’t want to joke with you again like we used to. I miss telling you about my dad or the craziness that went on. I miss your nagging when you let me know I’m letting my paranoia get the better of me. I miss your dorky smile when you talk about nerd things.

You’re dumbest regretful handsome twin a Handsome Jack fictive who missed his twin Timothy.