◥ A memory of someone they love: for Bonto?
(adultBonto)
(“Love? A strong word with so many different interpretations. Im familiar with some of them, though not all.
The first person that comes to my mind at this question is the one I first met. She gave me my little friend here. I called her NANA. She was my caretaker and very old. Every Shinjin kid has a personal caretaker before we enter our educational route. NANA was mine and was so nice and lovely. Whenever I was sad, she knew exactly how to cheer me up. Her smile is what I remember the most of her and associate the most with the word “family”
… I ran away a lot when I was little. At a certain age we Shinjin have to move away from our caretaker to a dorm of the school. I missed her so much and felt so lonely. The teachers didn’t like it and after a while even NANA got mad at me for coming back. One day she was so angry at me, I got terrified and cried. After that I stayed put in the dorm. I didn’t want to disappoint her more. It took me so long to ever visit her again. I think I was a teenager when I finally decided to pay a visit. But she wasn’t there anymore. NANA was gone.
I still have the books she wrote. Little journals about taking care of a Shinjin kid with a disability. And this little guy here…
After her I found new people to love. A different kind of love, of course. Deep friendship, like with MINA, MUSHU, HUSHEN or Sureme Kai ROH. Some of these friends became more over time, but … they helped me to realize that romantic love isn’t really what fits me. Or that I would miss it. And Im really grateful for my friends and their support in my life.
Because in the end, they also helped me to find more important love. The love for myself.”)











