the popcorn incident (r.r.)
synopsis : You hate Bob Reynolds. Or at least, thatâs what you keep telling yourself â ever since he pulled away and got closer to Yelena. Now you spend most of your time ranting about him to BuckyâŠ
Meanwhile, Bob spends most of his time avoiding you. (Because heâs pretty sure you like Bucky. And heâs very sure heâs in love with you.)
pairing : robert 'bob' reynolds x reader / sentry x reader
content : pure fluff (again lol don't hate me on this), slight enemiestolovers!au , friendstolovers!au , jealous!bobreynolds
warning/s : kinda cheesy idk
word count : 4.6k
You hate Bob Reynolds.
You hate the way he walks into a room and wonât look at you. You hate the way his eyes flicker toward you when he thinks youâre not watching. You hate how he always chooses the furthest seat from yours now, even though (once) you were the person he chose first.
And worst of all?
You hate how much you still want him to come sit next to you.
The common room smells like popcorn and vaguely burnt pizza. Avaâs cracked the windows again, letting in the cool night air from the New York sky outside. Dim overhead bulbs cast the room in warm yellow light that barely competes with the flickering horror movie on screen.
Yelena is curled on a beanbag chair with her legs tucked under her like a smug cat, hoodie two sizes too big. Johnâs hogging the recliner, a beer in one hand and his dumb Stars-and-Stripes socks visible from where his boots sit discarded nearby. Avaâs lounging in the corner with a bowl of gummy worms and a knowing smirk.
You walk in behind Bucky, both of you still talking about a mission briefing that had somehow turned into a discussion about raccoons with knives.
âDo not pretend a raccoon could take you down,â you mutter as Bucky snorts.
âIâm just saying, itâs more dangerous than you think,â Bucky deadpans. âEspecially with a butter knife.â
âYouâre ridiculous.â
He shrugs. âIâm not the one who got chased through a compound last week by a genetically engineered goose.â
âThat goose had rage in its soul,â you hiss, before realizing the entire room is listening. Yelena snorts into her sleeve. Ava just shakes her head.
You clear your throat, cheeks warm. Your eyes instinctively scan the roomâand stop.
There. Couch. Right side.
Bob.
Heâs sitting low, one leg crossed over the other knee, navy-blue sweater sleeves bunched up his forearms. His posture is slouched, but his eyes are sharp, focused on the screen, until you catch the briefest glance your way.
Your stomach tightens.
He looks back at the screen before you can even smile.
You hesitate, then move toward the couch. The big popcorn bowl is balanced between him and Bucky. You think about sitting next to Bob, think about all the nights you used to sit shoulder to shoulder, knees brushing, fingers grazing accidentally over the same handful of popcorn.
Maybe you can fix this. Maybe heâll say something. Maybe this silence heâs been giving you for weeks will finally end.
You hover by the bowl. âHey,â you say, careful and light. âCan I grab some?â
Bob doesnât look at you. His hand tenses slightly on the bowlâs rim. He shifts it toward you in silence.
Your fingers brush his.
He pulls back like heâs touched a hot stove.
You feel it like a slap.
You grab the popcorn, mutter a stiff, âThanks,â and move to sit next to Bucky instead.
Bucky shifts slightly to give you room. You slump beside him, chewing angrily.
âWell that was painful,â Bucky mutters under his breath.
You donât respond.
âHe flinched,â Bucky continues, almost in awe. âLike your fingers were poison.â
You keep your eyes on the screen. âMaybe they are.â
âStrike four,â he whispers.
You glance at him. âYouâve been keeping count?â
âOf every tragic interaction, yes.â
You throw a kernel of popcorn at him. He catches it mid-air.
You lean in slightly, voice low. âDo you think heâs mad at me?â
âI think heâs a dumbass.â
You smile, but itâs hollow.
âI justâdonât get it. We used to talk. Like⊠a lot. He used to laugh at my dumb jokes. Now he acts like I stole his dog.â
âMaybe you did.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âMaybe you stole his metaphorical dog.â
You stare at him. âThatâs the worst theory Iâve ever heard.â
âItâs still better than yours,â Bucky mutters.
From across the couch, you feel Bob shift. You glanceâheâs still watching the screen, but his fingers have stopped moving. The popcorn bowl rests untouched now, perfectly still in his lap.
The movie flickers into a tense silence.
Then John, voice flat, says, âCan the lovebirds quiet down?â
Your entire spine stiffens.
âExcuse me?â you hiss.
âShh,â John says, not even turning.
You stare ahead, cheeks burning. Bucky looks halfway between smug and offended.
âLovebirds,â he whispers, amused.
âDonât evenââ
âI mean, if the shoe fitsâŠâ
You elbow him sharply. âI hate you.â
âYou donât,â he says, still smiling.
You risk another glance toward Bob.
His jaw is tight. His eyes are still on the screen. But thereâs a twitch in his cheek. The kind he gets when somethingâs bothering him.
He doesnât look at you.
You look away first.
The meeting room is too cold.
The A/Câs on full blast, humming above the fluorescent lights. You swear Val keeps it that way just to remind you sheâs in charge of everythingâincluding your blood circulation.
Youâre running late.
You shove the door open with a muttered apology, the metal creaking slightly, and step insideâboots still muddy from training. Your hairâs barely dry from your post-mission shower, damp strands sticking to your neck. You tug at the collar of your jacket, feeling both underdressed and overstimulated.
Everyoneâs already seated.
Yelenaâs halfway through a protein bar and somehow still managing to lounge in a government-grade steel chair like itâs a beanbag. Avaâs scrolling her tablet, boots on the table despite multiple prior threats from Val. Walkerâs twirling a pen and looking like heâs about to make a comment no one asked for.
Then your eyes land on him.
Bob.
Second from the right. Notebook closed in front of him. Shoulders hunched slightly like heâs trying to make himself smaller, or maybe disappear altogether.
Two empty chairs beside him.
You hesitate.
The little voice in your headâthe one thatâs gotten crueler latelyâsays, Donât bother. But you ignore it.
You step around the table, slow but deliberate.
Your pulse kicks up as you approach. You wonderâstupidly, hopefullyâif maybe this is the moment. Maybe today, heâll look up. Maybe heâll say âHey,â like he used to, voice low and warm. Maybe youâll sit beside him and feel something like before.
You stop beside the chair next to him.
Bob looks up.
Your breath catches.
And thenâ
He blinks. His mouth twitches. Not a smile. Not even close.
He closes his notebook.
And he stands.
Your eyes widen. He murmurs something to Yelenaâtoo low for you to hearâbut she raises one eyebrow and gives him a look that says Seriously? Bob says nothing else. He walks around the back of the table, silent and swift, and drops into a chair across the room.
Your throat tightens.
You sit down heavily in the now-empty chair next to Bucky.
âWow,â Bucky mutters, barely audible. âThat was⊠something.â
You just shake your head, biting the inside of your cheek. âWhat the hell was that?â
Bucky leans in. âHe looked like you were holding a knife.â
âMaybe I should start holding one.â
Val walks in, clapping her hands once. âAlright, Thunderbolts. Everyone awake? Good. Letâs make this quick. Iâve got meetings stacked higher than Walkerâs ego.â
Walker scoffs. âHilarious.â
âQuiet, star-spangled disaster,â Val says dryly.
You try to focus. Val drones on about the last missionâerrors, improvements, recon notes. Words blur into static.
Bob doesnât look at you. Not once.
You glance at himâheâs leaning back, hands clasped in his lap, eyes fixed on the slide deck like it owes him something. Heâs not scribbling notes like he usually does. Heâs not twirling his pen. Heâs not moving.
You grit your teeth and turn to Bucky.
âHeâs ignoring me again.â
Bucky side-eyes you. âWeâre mid-briefing.â
âIâm going to strangle him with his own hoodie.â
âThatâs dramatic. Effective, though.â
Val clicks to the next slide.
You whisper, âWhy is he like this? He used to talk to me.â
âUsed to eat lunch with you too,â Bucky murmurs. âUsed to laugh.â
âI know that.â
âAnd now heâs pretending you donât exist.â
âExactly!â
âYou think maybe⊠thatâs the opposite of whatâs happening?â
You blink. âWhat?â
Bucky just smirks.
Thenâ
Val slaps a hand on the table. âHey. Lovebirds. Try keeping the domestic bickering to a whisper?â
Your soul leaves your body.
You blink. âIâm sorryâwhat?â
Walker snorts. Ava doesnât even look up from her tablet.
Val waves a hand. âWhatever. Just pay attention. Iâm not repeating myself for your unresolved sexual tension.â
The room falls quiet.
Bucky leans into his hand, elbow on the table. âI think weâve just been outed.â
You bury your face in your hands. âThis is a nightmare.â
You chance a glance at Bob.
He hasnât moved.
Heâs staring at the table. Not at you. But his knuckles are white where they rest on his knee.
Youâre too stunned to say anything.
The rest of the debrief is a blur.
The training room smells like rubber mats and frustration.
Sweat beads at the back of your neck as you pace toward the punching dummies, your left ankle throbbing with every step. You rolled it badâstupidlyâduring a dodging drill with Ava and Walker. Youâd laughed it off at the time, brushing dirt off your shoulder like it was nothing.
But now that the adrenalineâs fading, it hurts.
The sunâs just beginning to dip behind the compoundâs reinforced windows, casting the entire gym in a low, orange haze. Yelena is by the far wall, throwing knives at a wooden dummyâs face like sheâs flirting with murder. Avaâs perched on a bench with her headphones in, scrolling through footage on her tablet. Walkerâs long gone, probably off to inflate his ego somewhere else.
And thereâs Bob. Across the room.
Heâs standing by the free weights, curling a bar like it weighs nothing. His hairâs damp at the edges, sticking slightly to his temples. Heâs in his navy long-sleeve againâhis favorite, the one thatâs worn thin at the elbows. His eyes flick toward you as you limp slightly past.
Your breath catches.
Itâs the first time heâs looked at you today.
You feel it. That familiar flutter in your chest that you keep trying to kill.
You open your mouthâto say anythingâbut hesitate. He looks like he might say something, too. Like heâs going to take a step forward. His fingers twitch slightly against the bar.
And then you hear it:
âYou alright?â
You turn.
Buckyâs walking over from the hallway, towel slung around his shoulders, brow furrowed as he catches your limp.
âOh. Yeah. Just twisted it earlier. Itâs not bad.â You wave a hand like that makes it true.
âLet me see,â he says, already crouching down beside the bench. âSit.â
You hesitate. âI was gonnaââ You glance back toward Bob.
But heâs still standing there. Still watching. Frozen in place.
Whatever he was going to sayâif he was going to say itâdies.
He takes one slow step back.
You sigh, quietly, and sit down beside Bucky instead.
He pulls your boot off gently, inspecting the swollen ankle.
You wince. âIâve had worse.â
âDoesnât mean you should ignore it.â Bucky digs in a nearby locker for an ice pack. âYou planning on training through this like a moron, or letting me tape it?â
You roll your eyes, but smile. âFine. Doctor Barnes.â
âIâll add that to the list of titles I never asked for.â
Across the room, Bob hasnât moved.
His jawâs tight. His hands open and close once, then again. He watches the two of you quietly, unreadable.
He takes a breath, like heâs about to come over anyway.
But Yelena appears behind him without warning. âYouâre glaring again,â she mutters.
Bob startles, just barely. âIâm not.â
âYou are.â
âI wasnâtââ He glances over at you and Bucky. Buckyâs crouched now, wrapping your ankle in gauze, your hand on his shoulder to keep balance. You laugh at something he says.
Bob turns away.
Yelena raises an eyebrow. âYou gonna keep lying or just explode already?â
âShut up,â Bob mutters.
âSure,â she says, biting into an energy bar. âJust let me know when youâre done pining like a 17-year-old Victorian widow.â
He shoots her a look, but sheâs already walking away.
He turns back toward you, just in time to see you toss Bucky an appreciative smile and say, âThanks, Buck.â
And then youâre goneâhobbling off toward the lockers with Bucky trailing beside you.
Bob stares at the door long after youâve disappeared.
Bobâs hands have been sitting still for too long.
One of them rests on the disassembled sidearm laid out in front of him, the other curled tight against his jaw as he leans on the table. His brow is furrowed. His brain hasnât registered a single thing in the last fifteen minutes. The room is quiet, except for the distant hum of the overhead lights and the occasional thud of Yelena dropping gear somewhere behind him.
He stares at the gun like itâll reassemble his thoughts for him.
âYouâre sulking again,â comes her voice, sharp and dry as vodka.
He doesnât look up. âIâm not.â
âYouâre brooding in the dark, surrounded by dangerous objects,â she replies, stepping closer and leaning against the metal counter with a crunch of her granola bar. âThatâs called sulking, Bob.â
âIâm fine.â
âYouâre lying.â
He exhales, long and slow. âIâm just⊠thinking.â
âAbout her?â Yelena chews. âOr are we pretending you donât do that every three hours?â
He doesnât answer. Just picks up a screwdriver, flips it once in his palm, then puts it back down like itâs too heavy to hold.
She softens a little. âWhat happened this time?â
He doesnât know where to start. He could say, I saw her ankle give out and didnât move fast enough. Or maybe, I saw her smile at Bucky again and it felt like a kick to the ribs. But none of that explains how badly he wants to rewind everything. Go back to when you used to wait for him after missions. When youâd lean on his shoulder while teasing Walker or smirking at Yelena like you were in on some inside joke Bob would never understand.
He remembers the sound of your laugh. That full-bodied, uncaring laugh that only came out when you felt safe. You used to laugh like that around him.
âI think she hates me,â he says eventually, voice low.
âShe doesnât,â Yelena says without hesitation.
âShe used to talk to me,â he mutters, running a hand through his hair. âEvery day. About random stuffâTV shows, your neighborâs dog, the vending machine being rigged. And I was stupid enough to think it would last.â
Yelena quirks an eyebrow. âWhat changed?â
âI did.â
And he did. Somewhere in the space between trusting you and falling for you, he got weird. He started pulling back, dodging eye contact, brushing off conversations before they could start. He didnât know how to handle itâhow to want you without scaring you away.
So instead, he scared himself into silence.
Youâd walked into the common room that night with Bucky at your side, your laugh trailing behind you like perfume. You were trying to get popcornâjust a normal thingâbut then your hand brushed his and his whole body tensed like heâd touched fire. He pulled back before he even thought about it.
Your smile faded so fast it made his stomach turn.
He shouldâve said something. Sorry. I didnât mean toâ
But instead, he just froze, watching you walk away, bowl in hand, settling on the couch next to Bucky like that was where you belonged now.
He couldnât focus on the movie. He couldnât even hear it over the pounding in his ears. Every time you leaned into Buckyâs side, something bitter tightened in his throat. You didnât even look his way after that. Why would you?
He hadnât just pulled away. Heâd disappeared.
Yelena watches him quietly now, like she knows where his mind is drifting. âDid something else happen?â
He nods. âDebrief, a few days ago.â
She waits.
âI walked in and saw her scanning the room,â he says. âShe looked like she was gonna sit next to me. She almost did. But I⊠I moved.â
âYou ran.â
He winces. âWalked. Quickly. To the other side of the table.â
âCoward.â
âI know.â He leans back, eyes flicking to the ceiling. âI couldnât do it. I was going to say hi. Ask about her shoulderâshe took a hit on the last missionâbut I panicked.â
Yelena hums in that way she does when sheâs judging him quietly.
âShe sat next to Bucky instead. Again,â Bob adds, bitterness creeping into his voice. âThey were whispering to each other, laughing during Valâs rundown, and then Val saysââ His voice shifts, mocking: ââCan the lovebirds pay attention?ââ
Yelena snorts.
âShe didnât deny it,â Bob says quickly, like he needs her to know this part. âDidnât laugh, didnât say, weâre not a thing. Just turned red and glared at Val, like it was a thing and she was embarrassed about it.â
Yelena doesnât answer right away.
Bob lets his head drop forward into his hands. âI know it sounds stupid. It is stupid. But I keep seeing them together, and itâs not just the proximity. Itâs the way she looks at him. Talks to him.â
âYou mean the way she used to talk to you?"
He goes still.
Yelena softens, voice less teasing. âBob⊠maybe sheâs just trying to fill the space you left.â
He doesnât know what to say to that.
Then yesterday happened.
He saw you limp into the gym and his entire nervous system lit up. You were trying to play it cool, but he knew that lookâyou were in pain and trying not to show it.
He took one step forward, almost called your name.
But Bucky beat him to it.
Hey, you alright?
Bob watched, rooted in place, as you let Bucky guide you to the bench. Watched you let him take off your boot. Wrap your ankle. You laughed at something he said again, that same sound Bob used to hear on accidentâwhen you were scrolling your phone on the couch beside him, or teasing him over his âweird cult-leaderâ handwriting.
Bobâs hands had clenched. His chest felt hollow.
And still, he hadnât moved.
âEvery time I try to fix it, I mess it up more,â he says now, his voice ragged with frustration. âAnd every time I donât fix it, I lose her a little more.â
Yelena tosses her granola wrapper in the bin. âSo what, youâre just going to keep watching her from across the room like some tragic Regency novel?â
Bob glares weakly. âI just⊠I donât know what she wants anymore.â
âWell,â Yelena stands, dusting off her pants. âMaybe she doesnât either. Youâve given her nothing to work with.â
He swallows.
Sheâs right.
He remembers the way you used to look at himâeyes full of challenge, of trust. You donât look at him like that anymore.
Now, when you glance his way, thereâs hurt in your eyes. And confusion. And maybeâjust maybeâa little hope you havenât managed to kill off completely.
Bob wants to believe it isnât too late.
But he also knows heâs running out of chances to find out.
The med bay is quiet except for the gentle whir of the portable stim unit on your ankle. You should be focusing on your recovery, on resting, but your mindâs pacing in circles. Restless. Itâs been days since the last mission. Days since you sprained your ankle and Bob almost helped you.
Almost.
The sound of that one step he took toward you is burned into your skull. You heard it. Saw the flicker of concern in his expression. The way he looked like he might finally say something. But he didnât. Again.
Instead, Bucky helped you. Like he always does.
And maybe youâre just exhaustedâmentally, emotionally, physicallyâbut tonight, as the pain pulses dully through your foot and frustration simmers in your chest, you decide youâve had enough.
Youâre done letting Bob hide behind silence.
You leave the med bay the moment your foot can bear weight and stalk the halls with too much purpose for someone supposed to be recovering. You know exactly where heâll be. The observation deck. He always retreats there after missions, like heâs hoping the stars will answer something the rest of you canât.
Sure enough, you spot him through the glass, silhouetted in the cool blue glow of the night sky beyond. Hood up. Shoulders hunched. Like the worldâs sitting on his back.
He doesnât hear you enter. Or maybe he does and chooses not to turn.
You stop a few feet behind him.
âWhy do you keep avoiding me?â
His shoulders stiffen.
No greeting. No pleasantries. You donât have the patience for any of it.
He doesnât turn.
You take another step closer. âSeriously, Bob. What the hell did I do to make you act like Iâm some kind of ghost?â
Nothing.
You force a breath. Your voice cracks. âYou used to be my best friend.â
That finally gets him. Slowly, he turns, the hood dropping back just enough to let you see the guilt carved into his features. He looks tired. Paler than usual. And yet somehow still impossible to read.
âIâm not avoiding you,â he says, too quiet to be convincing.
You scoff. âBullshit. You canât even look me in the eye anymore. I try to talk to you, you bolt. I reach for the popcorn and you practically teleport away. You leave the room when I sit down. You change training shifts to avoid me.â
âI didnât mean toââ
âYou didnât mean to, or you didnât want to be around me?â
He winces. His mouth opens like he wants to explain. But nothing comes out.
You hate how much it hurts.
âDo you hate me now?â you ask, voice barely above a whisper.
He jolts. âWhat?â
âJust tell me,â you snap, covering your pain with anger. âIf I did something wrongâif I messed this up somehowâjust say it.â
âYou didnât,â he says, fast, desperate. âYou didnât mess anything up.â
âThen why?â Youâre breathing harder now. âWhy did you just⊠drop me? You let me think I was crazy for feeling the distance when you were the one building it!â
âI had to,â he mutters.
You step closer. âWhy?â
He shakes his head. âItâs complicated.â
âNo, itâs not. You either care or you donât.â
âI do care,â he blurts, suddenly louder, voice cracking like thunder off the glass.
Silence falls between you. Heavy. Fragile.
You blink. âThen why do you treat me like I donât exist?â
Bob runs both hands through his hair, pacing away from you, then back, like heâs coming apart.
âBecause itâs easier than wanting something I canât have,â he finally breathes.
You stare.
He exhales like heâs been holding that in for months. âYou and Bucky⊠I see the way you look at him. I hear the way you talk to him. I thought maybe if I backed off, I could deal with it. But every time I see you with him, itâs like my ribs are caving in.â
Youâre stunned.
âBobââ
âAnd then Val calls you âlovebirds,â and you donât deny it. You blushed. I thoughtâŠâ He trails off, swallowing hard. âI thought I missed my chance. That Iâd already messed it up. And if I couldnât be what you wanted, the least I could do was get out of your way.â
Your voice comes out gentler. âYou thought I was with Bucky?â
âArenât you?â
You stare at him. âNo. Of course not.â
He blinks. âBut youâre always with him. Laughing. Whispering. You lean on him.â
âBecause he listens. Because you wouldnât.â
âI was trying to protect myself.â
âAnd I was trying to understand why the person I care about most started treating me like a stranger!â
That lands like a punch. Bobâs shoulders sag. He looks like heâs about to fold in on himself.
You step forward. Hesitate. Then place a hand on his chestâjust over his heart.
âYou idiot,â you whisper. âYou really thought I wanted Bucky?â
Bob doesnât answer. His eyes are wide, vulnerable. Your touch stills him completely.
âI wanted you.â You say it quietly. Gently. Like itâs the simplest truth in the world.
He exhales shakily. His hands twitch at his sides, then liftâhesitant, slowâas if heâs terrified touching you might break the moment.
But when he finally presses his palm over yours, the tension breaks.
Neither of you says a word for a long time.
Then, finally, he leans forward, forehead resting against yours, breath shallow.
âIâm sorry,â he murmurs.
You close your eyes.
âI missed you,â you whisper.
His breath hitches. âI never stopped.â
You werenât planning on sitting next to him. Not really. You told yourself youâd play it cool. Casual. Normal. You were going to walk in, nod politely, and take your usual spot next to Bucky like the last three weeks.
But tonight⊠you hesitate at the door.
Bobâs already there. Hood down, for once. Jacket draped over the back of the couch. Heâs wearing that old faded band tee you once teased him aboutâthe one you said made him look like a roadie, not a superhero. And heâs looking around the room like heâs searching for something.
For someone.
Your pulse kicks up.
Yelenaâs on the far couch, legs tucked under her, already spoon-deep into a pint of ice cream. Johnâs half asleep in the armchair with a beer balanced precariously on his thigh. Ava is floating just above the beanbag pile, watching the screen like sheâs trying to decipher code. Buckyâs leaning against the back wall with crossed arms, waiting to see where you sit before he picks a seat.
And Bob⊠Bob catches your eye and doesnât look away.
Not for a second.
Itâs nothing like before.
Thereâs no flinching. No retreat. Just that soft, unsure gravity youâd missed so badly.
Your feet move before you think about it. You take the empty spot beside him like itâs the most natural thing in the world.
It feels terrifying.
And then Bob shifts, ever so slightly, to give you more space. Or maybe to meet you halfway. His thigh brushes yours. He doesnât pull back.
You glance sideways. His fingers twitch against the blanket on his lap.
Yelena lets out an exaggerated gasp.
âOh my God.â
You freeze.
John jerks upright. âWhat?â
Bucky just huffs a quiet chuckle and takes the nearest beanbag. âTook them long enough.â
You blink. âWhat are youââ
âOh, please,â Yelena drawls. âThis has been a six-act drama and weâre finally at the resolution. Do not deny me this.â
Bob lets out a groan and sinks lower into the couch.
Val, from somewhere in the hallway, calls out without even looking in: âIf anyone makes out during the opening credits, Iâm kicking you off the mission roster.â
You bury your face in your hands.
Bob coughs into a laugh beside you.
Bucky leans over and mutters, âSo, whenâs the wedding?â
You elbow him, face burning.
Bobâs hand brushes yoursâlight, hesitantâand then doesnât move. Fingers barely touching. Like a promise heâs still too shy to make out loud.
The movie starts. Everyone settles.
You stay exactly where you are, shoulder to shoulder with the man you thought you lost. The man who is still here.
And even with the teasing, the knowing glances, and the smug looks from across the roomâyouâre smiling.
Finally.
A/N : another blurb before i do a request and continue finishing psyche 3 (i just have no creative juice to squeeze anymore)
A/N 2 : i love bob so much i want to write him in every trope there is LMAOO
A/N 3 : bucky barnes one shot, anyone? non-smut because i physically cannot bring myself to write smut i get very uncomfortable while writing and they end up being SO BAD

















