Mental Distractions 🔞
GIRLNEXTDOOR DR
W.C 4.9k | WARNINGS/GENRE: REALITY SHIFTING STORYTIME, smut, angst, little fluff, ends kinda on a sad note, mentions of a sudden break up, mentions of isolations and the use of pleasure to distract oneself, slight mention of depression state and talking down on oneself, mentions of a threesome, mentions of loss of virginity, mentions of unprotected sex ( pls safe sex guys), getting hickeys by TWO MEN NGGH, and ending on a very much needed but sad conversation including a sad confession and many mentions of the i love you’s and missing someone and taking the blame
“ I just don’t like you anymore.”
My boyfriend, Sungho, who was now apparently my EX boyfriend, told me he no longer had feelings for me anymore. This has to be some kind of twisted joke months after April.
“ What ?! “ I laughed out but watched as I he turned around and began to try to leave my dormitory.
“ Wait- Sungho- Park Sungho- are you serious? “ I began as I quickly caught up to him, grabbing his hand to stop him in his tracks
“ What are you talking about-? You love me and I–”
“ I have to go, I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”
“ What, so we’re broken up ?! “
He looked back at me once and spoke before he left me
“ yeah I guess so.”
I spent the next week battling myself in this pathetic fight of pretending I didn’t care about the break up at all because there were other things to take care of along with the fact one of my own members was deciding on leaving the group.
I just kept myself and my thoughts busy to distract myself from the reality like I always do.
I found myself one night in Taesan’s bed, sitting up against the wall as the walls came crashing down along with the feelings I’ve hid this whole time. He sat in front of me, holding my hands in his delicately.
“ like– WHAT THE FUCK “ I shouted and let off my chest before covering my mouth in shock from how loud I genuinely was before continuing
“ I just don’t fucking get it. Is there something wrong with me-?”
“ no. “ He interrupted but I continued
“ Did I do something wrong ? “
“ no.”
“ I just think I’m just not meant for relationships at this point because what’s the point if they always fail and I’m always the one to mess it up and ruin things–”
Taesan grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him, he looked at me with a stern expression.
“ I don’t know what the fuck happened but I know you didn’t do anything wrong because he was and is lucky to be able to have you as someone he loved.”
I sat there in silence.
Was what he said true ? … he’s gone though so
It can’t be.
I also sat in silence from all these sudden actions from Taesan, now I’m sitting just inches– mere centimeters actually from his face as he spoke to me about how ‘ lucky ‘ Sungho is and was.
“ really..?” was all I could really manage to say
Taesan scooted himself a little closer and nodded his head in confidence but slowly I watched as his face softened ? his eyes darted from my eyes to my lips a few times
“ what are you doing..?” I asked, looking away from him nervously then immediately looked my head downwards to pay attention to how his hand snaked to my waist gently
“ I.. don’t know.. Is it okay ..?”
I looked back at him as he looked back at me and felt myself sucked into his gaze almost like I was entranced by him.
I nodded my head and then he began to slowly inch closer to me while looking down solely at my lips, but I was looking at his too
“ tell me to stop at anytime.. And I will..okay?” Taesan spoke out softly as if the tension air between us was able to break
“ okay..” I replied and eventually
Our lips connected and fuck. In the moment nothing and nobody could pull us apart. His hands grabbed at my body, restlessly pulling me closer against his body while my hands found their way into his hair, roughly grabbing at it, moaning into each others mouths while our bodies unintentionally began to grind against one another.
Eventually, he positioned me on my back against the mattress while he hovered over my body breathlessly and looking at me in a haze, trying to collect his thoughts, our clothes on the floor.
“ I need you but you know that, right ? “ Taesan stated in between breaths and I nodded and let out a breathless laugh
“ yeah I kinda know that “ I replied which got a chuckle from him
He nodded his head and began to scrummage in the nightstand while still hovering over me while mumbling about the fact he knows I’m on the pill but he still wants to use a condom since he knows it would be my first time.
I smiled softly but my smile grew more anxious as I tried to hide the fact that I was i actively about to lose my virginity and all the comments of people saying how it hurts when you have sex for the first time circled in my head like crazy.
“ hey, hey-” Taesan called out and I looked at him, coming back to reality
“ are you okay..? We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.. I liked what we were doing just then with us kissing, I’m more than satisfied with that if you don’t want to.”
I let out a long sigh and shook my head, smiling softly again as reassurance to him
“ no I want to but.. I’m just nervous because people say it hurts..”
He laughed and nodded his head slowly while rubbing my waist softly.
“ well.. Yeah it is going to hurt.. But you have to trust me that I’ll take care of you “
I nodded “ well I do trust you and.. I want it to be you..”
He stared for a moment like as if he was in awe then smiled and nodded his head
“ good..”
He spoke and then leaned in and kissed my forehead with a gentle kiss
“ I want it to be you too..” He mumbled against my skin
He propped himself up with one arm while the other held his dick, slipping the condom on carefully and I felt my body tense up as I watched him begin to try and position himself at my entrance.
“ I’m gonna go in now..okay ? “ I noticed him speak shakily but right now wasn’t the time to point that out while I was feeling shaky myself
I nodded my head short and quick, propping myself up slightly on my elbows to slightly watch everything happen, my eyes darting from him and then to where our bodies would meet.
He rubbed himself at the entrance for a moment which caused the both of us to moan softly at the touch before he finally inserted himself inside. My mouth dropped and my eyebrows furrowed in at this new sensation that honestly felt uncomfortable, I grabbed onto the bedsheets and let out a small groan as the sensation got bigger and bigger and at some point was painful. I smacked my hand on his chest suddenly to stop him from moving any further and he flinched at the sudden action, his eyes widening in concern
“ holy fuck wait..” I spoke breathlessly, closing my eyes to try and adjust
“ holy shit that was a lot, dongmin..” I said looking up at him in clear, visible pain
“ I-I’m sorry– do you want to stop ? “ He asked worriedly
“ are you almost in atleast ? “ I asked with a slight laugh to ease the odd sensation
Taesan looked down and tilted his head to the side and made a certain expression that indicated he was no where near being fully inside me. I choked out a laugh and laid back
“ fuck dongmin..” I sighed then looked up at him
“ I.. genuinely.. Think.. It’s the condom that is making this worse.. This thing feels so weird and it’s NOT helping at all..” I commented and he shrugged in agreeance
“ if that’s how you feel I can take this off for you, if you want “
I laid there in thought for a moment then nodded my head
“ yeah, let’s do it “
He nodded, kissing the back of my hand before slipping out of me and I groaned loudly from how fast the asshole decided to pull out of me with the fact of the sensation I had been feeling. He gasped loudly and laughed from shock
“ I’m so sorry ! “
I laughed and shoved him away
“ fuck man, fuck me I guess ! “ I joked with him and he grinned
“ well I was trying to do that “
I rolled my eyes playfully and giggled
“ if you don’t hurry up, Han Dongmin–”
He laughed hard and nodded, grabbing the lube he had and lathered it onto his dick
“ okay, okay ! “ He said before positioning himself, looking down at me
“ you ready..?”
I looked up at him and nodded, grabbing onto his bicep, bracing for the same feeling again
“ I’ll go really slow this time..” He added and I smiled softly before biting my lip, mentally preparing again
He nodded his head before inserting himself again and slowly inching his way inside, which still felt.. Odd ? but definitely a lot better than before and then finally he bottomed out which resulted in the both of us letting out a gasp
“ oh fuck..” I mumbled, throwing my head back for a moment before looking at him again and he laughed slightly
“Fuck.. well I’m in.. and this feels.. Really good.. Fuck..” He said, mumbling and leaning in as he began to messily kiss my lips and move his hips
And suddenly pleasure was coursing through my veins on such an insane level and I could tell he was feeling the same way. Both of his hands were planted on the mattress at my sides as his thrust grew in speed and roughness while curse words were repeated under his breath along with grunts and moans.
“ are you feeling good, baby–? Ah fuck I’m gonna fucking cum..” He moaned out, trying to keep eye contact with me but kept looking down in shyness followed by another mumble of a curse word
“ wait– no– I’m not close yet– fuck-” I moaned out followed by a small whine as he hit a certain sweet spot which had me drowning in moans and pleasure
“ fuck right there m-min– “ I moaned out louder, looking up into his eyes, desperate to finally tip over the edge and feel this impending orgasm
He moaned louder at my words as if my orgasm approaching was his own, which was so hot by the fucking way.
“ fuck yes my love– cum for me– cum WITH me fuck yes “ He begged as he tapped my chin up to look up at him.
I’m not even sure how either but as soon as our eyes connected, seeing the red in his face, his hair sticking to his forehead, his mouth hanging open with strings of moans falling out of it so easily and the confirmation of being allowed to cum just sent the orgasm STRAIGHT to me immediately.
I gasped loudly, my back arching off the bed while my arms that were wrapped around him had tightened, pulling him impossibly close to my body while my nails dug into his skin, scratching him up while Taesan groaned for a second before his eyes widened and his mouth dropped open more as he moaned louder, the both of us arriving at the same time
And perhaps we arrived at the same destination again pretty quickly and more fired up than before. However, after we were done having sex, he laid down next to me while holding me in his arms as he rambled about a random topic and suddenly
“ Hey Dongmin– OH FUCK I’M SO SORRY “ Woonhak exclaimed as he walked into Taesan’s bedroom and stepped back into the wall and covered his face
I yanked the bedsheets and covered my body as Taesan laid there as if nothing happened
“ woonhak, what are you doing in here ? “ Taesan asked
Woonhak walked further into the room, his face red like CRAZY and kept his eyes down for the most part even though I was covered
“ Well..I came in here to talk to you and ask about something but–” Woonhak began to fucking ramble on some random excuse out of his ass for the next five minutes and we listened until I noticed a certain someone peak out and I don’t mean a person
I glanced down by chance and noticed Woonhak was hard. I felt my face heat up quickly and looked back at Taesan while woonhak was still talking, nudging Taesan’s shoulder subtly before glancing over at Woonhak’s boner to try and point it out without using my hands or doing anything physically
“ What ?! What is it ?! “ Woonhak called out which caused me to flinch.
I let out a laugh finally and continued to helplessly stare for another minute, fuck he was big bro what the fuck my bad I couldn’t help it but I spoke
“ Well if you wanted to join us so bad..” I began and looked back at Taesan for a moment, mouthing if he was okay with it, in which Taesan nodded in agreeance, then I looked back at Woonhak
“ you should’ve just said so “ I stated and Woonhak looked down immediately and quickly slipped his hand into his pocket to try and hide it for a moment before walking up towards the bed, panicking
“ but I never had sex before and–” Woonhak began another anxious ramble which caused me to sit up worriedly, holding the blanket up to cover myself of course
“ Woonhak- Woonhak– calm down it’s okay-!.. So you’re a virgin..?” I asked and he nodded repeatedly, his face redder than fucking ever
“ Well–.. If you don’t want to have sex with me that’s okay, I mean I was semi.. Joking anyways-”
“ No I want to–! I.. I really want to.. Have sex with you..” He spoke as his tone grew softer and he sat onto the bed in front of me carefully, his hand placed on the blanket where my thigh was
I smiled shyly and nodded slowly, scooting a little closer to him.
“ Well you know..with sex.. Foreplay is important, we can’t just have sex immediately.. I would like to start off by kissing and see if there is anything even there “ I mentioned and he nodded slowly with a small grin showing
“ I’m totally okay with that..”
I laughed hard and shook my head
“ well– I get nervous making the first move so– you would have to kiss me first “ I added on nervously
But he made his move fairly quickly after that. He leaned in, resting his hand on one side of my face as he kissed my lips passionately. I tensed up for a second at the new kiss but softened up after another minute and melted, the kiss had melted into something so messy and hungry so fast, it’s genuinely shocking. His tongue was all over me and his lips kissed and attacked my lips like a wild animal. He kissed me like he had been dreaming for this moment for a while now and at this point I never wanted it to stop but of course it did–
I flinched and backed off Woonhak when I felt a touch on my shoulder, I looked back at Taesan and noticed him sitting there with this fucking grin.
“ Well does it look like there’s anything there, is there a fire ? “ He teased with a smirk and and I rolled my eyes and grinned
“ fuck off.. “ I mumbled before letting out a big sigh of relief when I looked back at Woonhak who sat there with a grin on his face too
“ Well uhm.. Yeah I’m good to go if you are..” I said as I slowly began to slip the blanket off, revealing my body to him and his jaw physically dropped as he stared in awe then shook his head for a moment while deciding to finally take his clothes off and holy fuck the dude was huge like HUNG like WHAT THE FUCK
My jaw dropped too before I covered my mouth and laughed hard along with Taesan
“ holy fuck dude “ Taesan laughed while nudging me and I shook my head while Woonhak grew nervously quickly and groaned
“ What~ !? What are you two laughing at ? ! “
I continued to shake my head
“ You’re just really.. Big woonhak.. And my jaw dropped and it’s embarrassing that Taesan kinda saw my reaction..” I mumbled and Woonhak grinned and came over to the bed with us, sitting in front of me
He then began to look around curiously
“ Dongmin where do.. You Keep the condoms..?” Woonhak asked and Taesan made a sound of uncertainty towards his words
“ I keep them in the drawer but.. We just had sex and we tried to have sex with the condoms but it felt really weir–”
“ No. I want to have sex with a condom. I know that you’re on the pill but I just want to be safe for you still regardless “ Woonhak stated and Taesan nodded, shrugging his shoulders
“ well alright– yeah it’s in my nightstand right there “ Taesan pointed and Woonhak reached over, and VERY carefully slipping one on and before he could move again–
“ Grab the lube. “ Taesan said in a demanding tone
“ You’re going to need it, it helps a lot and it’ll help her. “
Woonhak nodded in response and listened, grabbing the lube and pouring a little bit onto his dick before hovering over me. I looked up at him with a shy smile then I looked away, biting the inner part of my bottom lip nervously.
“ so– are you just going to be here the whole time or what ? “ Woonhak commented
“ well yeah– you’re the one who walked in on us by the way and I’m going to help you “ Taesan replied which Woonhak groaned to, but he loved later on.
Woonhak shrugged and looked down at me with a comforting expression
“ you ready, you okay..? “ Woonhak asked and I chuckled
“ are you okay ? “ I asked him back with the same comforting expression he gave me and he laughed before smiling softly, nodding slowly
“ yeah.. “ He said in a soft tone before grabbing my hips with one hand as the other hand was guiding his dick towards my entrance, slowing pushing himself in
I groaned, now I have to try an adjust AGAIN because woonhak is bigger than Taesan and it’s not something that I’m used to, however my body would not even be adjusted to Taesan again if he were to come back inside me later on too
I leaned over to the side a little bit to where Taesan was and leaned in close to him, grabbing a hold of my hand tightly in his and chuckling softly
“ you got this, you just did this with me, it’s okay, you can take him..” he mumbled into my ear
I chuckled breathlessly and looked over at woonhak who pulled me away from Taesan and close to him, kissing my lips passionately and soon he was finally fully inside me and I moaned against him.
His kiss and his lips against mine felt purely like an addiction that I couldn’t get enough of.
I pulled away though sometime later, to catch my breath and laid back as I continued to moan, however, suddenly woonhak threw his head into my neck and groaned loudly
I gasped loudly and held him in my arms before looking over at him while breathing heavy as his movements came to a stop
“ did you just finish..?” Taesan asked which caused woonhak too groan again and continued to hide his face in my neck
“ shut up..”
I laughed softly and rubbed his back comfortingly. Woonhak got up from my neck and looked over my body figure laying there for a moment
“ so the condom, it feels better without it?” He spoke with a quickness
I nodded my head in response
“ and you’re on the pill right ? “ He continued to speak as if he was rushing
I nodded my head in response again
“ good.” He answered before he carefully pulled out for a second, quickly taking off the condom from his dick before rubbing his dick along my pussy making me softly as I watched him
“ Just put it in already, fuck “ I laughed out loudly, rolling my eyes joking
Woonhak laughed for a moment too before pushing himself in with shocking ease, I gasped loudly before letting out a loud moan and woonhak had done the same
“ fuck-” I exclaimed while grabbing onto him for a split moment before wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling me close to him
“ fuck-fuck- fuck yes ren “ He moaned out to me followed with a groan afterwards as he picked up the pace in his thrust and changed QUICK, his pace, how deep he fucking was, how HARD and rough he was being.
He was repeatedly hitting such a good spot which caused me to moan at a high pitch, basically screaming in pleasure. My legs that were wrapped around his torso, I could feel them shaking–
“ kiss her right here, woonhak “ Taesan mumbled as kissed along my neck, I threw my head back at the sensation and dug my nails into woonhak’s back while moaning loudly.
“ oh fuck..” I heard woonhak’s voice before I suddenly felt not one BUT TWO PEOPLE kissing my neck and I was genuinely losing my mind, I was feeling so overstimulated in every best way possible.
“ move off her bro-” Woonhak mumbled as he shoved Taesan’s head off my neck which caused me to choke out a small laugh before pulling Woonhak closer to me, his nails dug into my hips the more he fucked into me.
He leaned back into my neck for round two, sucking, kissing, and leaving all kinds of marks along my neck until Taesan forced Woonhak’s head down
“ she’s not yours.. Don’t get her in trouble. Move it down..” Taesan mumbled causing Woonhak to groan but he still listened regardless
Woonhak kissed down my collarbone, kissing and lick down my chest and right below my tits with no change in rhythm or pace, I watched him while my mouth was kept open, moans spilling out and I lowkey felt a little bit of drool spilling out on the sides. Woonhak looked up at me with this sense of darkness in his eyes. I've never seen obsession in anybody’s eyes like his, especially at this moment.
He leaned up and kissed me feverishly, holding me tight in his grip and I swear it was like the more rough and tighter he held me, the closer I was near my orgasm, it was a crazy experience and safe to say I WAS NEAR IT NOW
I whined and tried to hide my face the more and more moans but Taesan grabbed my chin with a soft but firm grip, forcing me to look at Woonhak’s face
“ look at him when you finish, baby- Woonhak she’s about to cum, are you gonna cum?” Taesan spoke in a teasing tone and woonhak groaned
“ fuck baby– are you gonna cum for me ? “ Woonhak groaned as his thrust became more sloppy
I nodded my head moaning louder
“ fuck yes–” I moaned out
“ rub her clit to get her there faster and make her cum harder “ Taesan mumbled as he respectfully pointed towards my clit
Woonhak moaned softly, his eyes switching from my pussy to my eyes back and forth while he began to rub my clit in circles at a fast pace. I gasped loudly and slapped my mouth to cover how loud my moans were coming out
“ fuck–I’m gonna cum” I moaned out and Woonhak nodded his head repeatedly
“ me too-fuck “ Woonhak groaned as he finally came inside me
Woonhak and I took a minute to take a breath before he slowly pulled out, he stayed hovering over me for a minute before he let out a breathless laugh
“ fuck..” He mumbled
I cupped his face and laughed
“ are you okay ? “ I asked him with a giggle and he replied with a nod, holding my hand in his
There was a moment of silence between us before Taesan spoke
“ are you going to clean her up..? “
“ OH YEAH– I’M SORRY”
And surprisingly Taesan allowed Woonhak to sleep with him and I in his bed that night. The next morning, after having breakfast with Taesan alone because Woonhak was already gone by the time I got up, I left back to my dorms.
AND for the next couple of weeks..maybe two months or so.., it consisted of hook ups with the both of them, individually of course. Maybe a couple arguments were stirred in the process especially from Taesan’s end with me due to the fact I was simply ignoring any conversation that led to anything relating to Sungho.
However, in my defense, I loved Sungho dearly and he breaks up with me on a random ass day to tell me he no longer had feelings for me. It was going to be pretty hard for me to even utter his name out loud, let alone even talk about the situation that happened between him and I.
With the rise of tension between the members and I, I began to sleep in my own dorm and stay at my own dorm a lot more often than before. On one shining morning… as soon as I opened my eyes and probably have only been awake for 3 minutes minimum, Taesan bust through the door and yanks the sheets off my body
“ Okay we have to go “
I lay in bed confused as fuck, blinking and fluttering my eyes to try and wake up more. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand and run my fingers through my hair, looking around extremely confused
“ have to go for what..?” I groaned
“ we just have to go, I can’t talk about it now “
I sit up slightly, leaning against my arm
“ well I’m not going until you tell me where–”
And suddenly, I look over to see a Jaehyun rushing into my room
“ you’re not up yet-? Come on ! “ Jaehyun says as he grabs my arm and practically drags me across my dorm and downstairs to there dorm and the whole way there consisted of me, Jaehyun, and Taesan arguing with each other on WHY THE FUCK I’M BEING DRAGGED AT 7AM
We finally enter their dorm and the more questions I asked, was immediately shut down but suddenly I see very quickly that I was being pushed towards Sungho’s room. I start to complaining and push against them
“ wait- no– stop– I don’t want to go in there- I can’t–”
And suddenly I was face to face with Park Sungho. I stood there frozen, not a singular thought came to mind and he stood frozen too for a second before his face contorted into this angry confusion. He quickly stepped out the room
“ what the fuck is happening? Why is she in my room, she’s not allowed to be near me “
I stood there kinda confused now, I’m not.. Allowed..? To be near you ?
“ the manager will be gone for 40-50 minutes, right now is your fucking chance to talk to her and tell her everything like you wanted ! “ I heard Woonhak exclaim
Sungho then quickly stormed back into his bedroom where I stood frozen still, slamming the door behind him before grabbing my shoulders, staring into my eyes
“ I was forced to break up with you by the company because it was either boynextdoor or you and I’m sorry I chose them over you but there’s no other way, I can’t leave boynextdoor- I don’t want to be anything else or known for anything else. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you and I’m sorry that I broke up with you– I didn’t even want to break up with you- I promise I fought and fought and fought for you because the only person I’ve ever wanted to be with was you and is still you and always will be you– I would let you destroy and ruin me and ruin my future but.. I’m sorry I couldn’t let you take boynextdoor away from me and I’m sorry that makes me a terrible person–”
Sungho’s anxious ramble had me completely and utterly in fucking shock
“ sungho-”
“ no and I know you’re mad at me and I know you hate me but I love you so much and–”
“ Sungho ! “ I yelled as I felt my eyes fill with tears, shaking my head repeatedly
“ please stop, I love you so much.. I’ve never loved anyone as much as you and even when I’m not with you, it’s always you and I always think about you, I don’t fucking hate you and I’m not mad at you and I could never in my life hate you even if you did the fucking worse to me– I could never find it in myself to hate you “
Sungho held my face in his and held me close to him, his breathing grew heavier as he stared longer at me and the longer that I spoke, tears eventually fought their way down his face endlessly
“ I wanted to tell you for so long.. “
I nodded my head and held myself back from absolutely violently sobbing in front of him
But I couldn’t.
I shook my head repeatedly and opened my mouth as the deep sobs escaped and echoed. Sungho brought my head to his chest as his hand laid on my head, caressing it as I felt him cry against me but he was definitely trying to hold himself back too.
“ It fucking sucks.. This sucks so bad.. I want to be with you and love you again.. So. fucking. Bad..” I spoke through my sobs as I felt my tears stain and wetten his shirt.
“ I love you..”
💌; shifter’s note, I’M SORRY GUYS FOR BACK TO BACK ANGST STORYTIMES but trust me we got VERY cutesy and maybe freaky.. storytimes coming up !!







