#blushayz

i miss you, oh how i miss you. i miss talking to you. that one of the things i loved most about you, why i was always finding myself wanting to be around you. i loved talking to you. i could talk to you all day. do you remember when we met? how we talked for ages without stopping? talking for no other reason besides just wanting to know more about you, the way you thought. i remember being with you and never wanting you to stop speaking and i miss it, i miss it so much. i miss it when i’m sitting here alone, wanting you here with me, talking to me, telling me anything. i wish i could play the sound of your voice like a song on repeat, calming me down, singing me to sleep. because i miss your voice and the way you put words together, the way they sounded coming out of your mouth.

it was 8:43pm. the sun had finished painting the sky half an hour ago. i walked in, just coming back from an evening swimming in the ocean. 

there are so many people that go through life in a state of numbness. i feel like it’s very rare nowadays to be quiet and still - simply taking in the moment. feeling the breeze on your skin, listening to the trees moving, the sound of the life around you. people are always occupied. numbing themselves with alcohol or loud music, the noise of other people or busying their minds with their phones. people are rarely still, giving their thoughts space to take shape and dwell for a moment. i feel like it must be a half-life. like you’re not really experiencing it all, just skimming the surface. not even realizing everything that’s down below.

i remember getting dressed, looking at my clothes and wondering which ones would make me look the most beautiful. which ones would make you see me.

i remember the first day i saw you

my heart won’t stop talking about you

because of you i order cappucinos now

ahh girl your blog is on point! mind checking mine out? have a lovely day 💚