Jul 29, 2018
Hi!!!!!!! I was previously blue--bonbons but then tumblr fucked me over but I'm back bc it's been like 4 months and lots of stuff in my life has changed and I just kinda miss the familiarity of Tumblr.
Missed you all xxxxxx
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Hi!!!!!!! I was previously blue--bonbons but then tumblr fucked me over but I'm back bc it's been like 4 months and lots of stuff in my life has changed and I just kinda miss the familiarity of Tumblr.
Missed you all xxxxxx
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Hey you x I found first year so so so tough too and a lot of it I felt like I wasn't worthy or ready or w/e for as hard I'd tried, I felt v v unprepared and it's tough it's v v tough... but you've got further than ever before and it's a case of whether you still feel capable or not. I know it's tough to think you're taking steps backwards but you need to know what you want and what you've learned about yourself this semester. I hope whatever it is you do for yourself and not your illness
You've worked exceptionally hard to get where you are today. Very hard. I just want to make sure you don't give up on hope after all of the effort and when you have so so much more to give
My little lion, you never fail to amaze me. Thinking back to when we first started to get to know each other, I remember how tough things were and how difficult you found first year. I know things are never straight forward and struggles can change/warp but I am infinitely proud of you and every time you pop up on my dash I can’t help but smile. Thank you for always sticky by me, you are truly wonderful. I am always cheering you on xxx
just a reminder that although a food may seem "safe", it is the complete opposite. your weight, your future, your happiness will never be safe if you continue to only live by "safe" foods. an extra few calories will give you the energy to do your thing and become a truly outstanding person. the sooner you get rid of these "safe" foods, the safer and more secure your future happiness will become.
I flipping love you Em. I really really needed to hear these things right now, you’re the best xxxxxxxx
I think it's come to the point where you just need to fight. feel exhausted? instead of curling up, eat something. feeling guilty? fight off the thought and grab another snack. feel like eating something? eat it, before looking at the calories and just allow yourself to enjoy it. you need to stop with the rules, the measurements and the things that trap you in this "bubble" and stop you from existing as a real person. you have a lot to offer, you just get too trapped in your own head. you're...
a clever girl, you need to think logically and now allow the irrationality of the disorder to control you, no matter HOW strong it seems to be. you're more powerful than it, you just have to prove that to yourself. you have to take it head on, not give a flying fuck about x y or z and, instead of congratulating/discouraging yourself over little things, take everything as a whole. University may make or break you, depending on your mindset when you go.Take this summer to be the fearless little..lion that I know you are, break down any rules you once had, allow yourself foods without measurement or without calorie counting or without guilt. allow yourself to eat out at unknown places, find a cute independent cafe without the calories written everywhere but its atmosphere puts you at ease, bake something you enjoy making and EAT it for once, try foods that aren't safe and that you've put off for a long time. there's NO wrong thing you can do here, other than allow yourself to be....controlled by your disorder. I know it seems tough and tiring and you'll be fed up a lot at first, but you'll soon grow to love your body and love what it does for you. if you want to drive, walk, bike, travel, do something mad like sky diving or something, you CAN, but only once you fight this disorder. until then, you're going to be stuck and it's so so difficult to watch a girl with so much potential be defeated by this illness.
I am lost for words Em, I really bloody love you so much, thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouxxxxxxxxxxxxx
You've come so far kitty. Keep going my lovely. I love you xxxxxxxxx
I love you more xxxxxxxx
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can't express how brilliant all of this is for you. kitty, you're an amazing beautiful wonderful human with SO much potential and with this journey you're only beginning to unlock everything that lies in front of you. so so SO proud of you darling. the world is yours and you deserve every single fucking ounce of it.
I love you so much my little lion, you are the best xxxxxxxxxxx
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you’re a wonderful human and a beautiful, inspiring girl. I’m so proud of you. we all have bad days and thats ok!! just take care xxxxxx
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh THANK YOU you’re so glorious, you take care too <3 <3 xxxx
blue--bonbons replied to your post:triggerlicious[[MOR] all i’ve had today is a...
its ok :( we all have bad days and they really do affect us but tomorrow is a new day and you may wake up feeling differently. as for now, get some rest and focus on tomorrow not today. ily and am here if you need me x
lots of love and hugs for you!! <3 thank you so much <3 xx