#blue personal stuff

So 2026 started like shit. I had to rush my dog to the hospital in the dead of night, 2 nights ago, with something that looked like severe indigestion or food poisoning. Turns out it isn't. He has "masses" (that I don't dare to name as they are) growing in his abdomen and liver, and they are expanding.

He is still at the hospital, where the vets are trying to get him back on his feet well enough to get him operated on ASAP. I am scared shitless, I don't know what's going to happen, if he is going to be ok, and I can't even see him much. I'm holding my breath and I dunno, trying to keep myself busy. I can't write for the life of me, so sorry for the long wait until the next chapter. Still might post stuff cause I need to draw to not think. But I'm gonna end the post with hope. Apparently, we got the motherfucking thing in time to still be operable. That's everything that keeps me functioning right now. So yeah... I don't know. If you have gods, good luck rituals, wishes, I'm taking anything rn. I just want my baby home...

Hi all, this is a personal post, not Cotl related.

So yeah, on the 18th of July is my Goliath's birthday, my dog. If you have followed my blog, you are aware that he passed away this January. His loss has severely affected me in basically every aspect of my life, and with his bday approaching, it feels so much worse.

This year, there will be no doggo cake and no pics, and it'll be atrociously empty.

But I still want to celebrate him. So I kindly request your help: if you could spare a drawing of him. A doodle, a sketch, whatever you feel like making to capture him as he was. I know with art fight coming, you'll be busy, and I understand. I will be happy to draw something in return for your trouble!

This is him in one of the most hilarious and beautiful pics I've ever taken of him, one year ago on his bday, eating his doggo cake:

If you feel like indulging in this request, just inbox me with the pic.

On July 18th, I would love to make a gallery post to celebrate him with all the drawings I'll receive. To remember him and celebrate him.💙

I adore them, and each and every one was accompanied by so much kindness and understanding, and I couldn't thank you enough.

Many of you share this same pain, and I just hope, whatever lies beyond, that we'll be seeing them someday. 💙 I cried looking at these beautiful drawings, but I also smiled. You contributed to making this day a little less dark for me.💙 Thanks with all my heart to @ciaosonounapersonalol @demons-mind @arctic-animations @pillo-makes-art @inknanda67 @beetleskeleton and @rose-34

I know it's not art or writing, but I wanted to share the milestone with you!

The Little Emperor turns 15 today, and he is a HUGE part of my life. We got through 4 moves in different cities and countries together, he was there through thick and thin, and my mental well-being owes this little guy so much. 💙

There wouldn't be a Blue without the little Goliath!

Of course, the cake is made with 100% dog-friendly and safe ingredients! I can't claim to have baked it, tho. Also... best picture of 2025

Today, I might get a job offer that could change my life... Surely not a groundbreaking offer in terms of money, but I'm very anxious. It's like, I've been with my current job for the last 4 years, it has been hell, it's toxic, I'm underpaid for my expertise, and I'm in burnout right now because of it. Everyone gets exploited, and life/work balance is trash, but at the same time, it's the "hell I know". It's ironic that on a small scale, it's about what I've been writing in Kall's fic. It's a toxic environment, I know I should leave, my friends say I should leave, yet I'm thinking about it cause the other option is a leap in the dark. While this is my little, very safe piece of hell that wants me in it.

Easier to stay and rot than risk it and start all over in an unknown place to change?