not to get emotional on main but all I want for my birthday next month is to have perfect vision ๐ฅฒ
I don't qualify for LASIK bc my prescription is so high (-10 L -12 R and astigmatism on top of that) so my only option is ICL, which is significantly more expensive. LASIK costs around 1000-4000 USD per eye. ICL is 3500- 5000 USD per eye. and since it's considered cosmetic my insurance won't copay.
I'm 22 - almost 23 years old. I've had glasses since I was 3. my eye doctor told my mom I had the worst eyes on a 3 year old he's ever seen. he even told her there was a good chance I'd be blind before I turned 18. I'm so glad I didn't. I don't even know what I would do if I went blind...
my current financial situation isn't the best. partly my fault for quitting my second job and putting way too many bill payments on a credit card. partly for not having any financial support from family. partly for instead of going to college I moved out of my mom's shitty roach infested trailer and into a shared apartment with a roommate who leeched off of me instead of contributing anything.
like I know I don't have it the worst. I'm not homeless. I still can see with glasses. my life is ok considering the state of the world.
I just want to be able to wake up and see. to not have glasses that irritate the bridge of my nose. to not have to go on rollercoasters with my glasses in my pocket and not being able to see anything. to not be afraid of going swimming because my glasses are in a bag on a chair and not on my face. to be able to wear sunglasses comfortably so the UV rays don't make my vision worse (I'm high risk for macular degeneration and retinal detachment.) even applying makeup is impossible unless I climb onto the bathroom sink, and don't even get me started on shaving in the shower. it's these little things people take for granted, when they buy the plastic lensed glasses frames as accessories and colored contact lenses to make their eyes red or purple or gold. I didn't get a choice not to need glasses or contacts. I just want to have the option of those things without spending a fortune on getting them in my prescription, if that's even possible to start with.
like. dude. what do I do at this point?