#blessngs

i walked behind our group of friends on our way out of the state fair.

right in front of me was the my boyfriend. slightly in front of him: my sister. and then various groups of two to three of our friends.  some talking to each other and some not.

i worried going to state fair this year because last year was so much fun.  but when the few times i talked with God about it, it seemed like he was reassuring that just because a past memory is good doesn't mean the new one can't be as good or great.

its funny and scary.  we come to same place to eat some delicious and fatty foods.  but we come as different people.  hopefully more grown up.  hopefully more aware of what we want.  but sometimes that doesnt work out.  the new year could actually be harder. like gaining more weight.  losing a job.  gaining wrinkles because of stress. etc.

and for me, this state fair was significant to me.  because it was around this exact time last year, i admitted to a friend after going to state fair that i liked him.  tehe.  i was finally starting to stop denying and accept.  but even at that point, i didnt believe anything would come out of it.  it would just be a normal crush and a funny thing to share later among our group of friends.

but no, God and thus, daniel and thus thus, us had something different in mind: we came back as a couple. 

how funny in God's perspective since He knew this was coming during all those moments i was scared to admit my feelings.  and really, what a great present and gift.

can you tell i really like him? haha.

anywho, going back to that first moment: maybe because its my senior year, im becoming a lot more nostaglic.  and so, as i looked at this group of friends.  friends i knew at science and math, but weren't necessarily close with and we've grown closer together here in college.

i'm very grateful.  and i pray thanks for this group.  and i pray that as we go our separate ways that God fills up the loneliness that follows.  and if possible, for us to stay in touch