#blessed.txt

it’s about being soft and the world eating you up if you don’t harden and the mind numbing monotony of everyday bitterness and no money and petty violence and what happens if your one person decides they don’t want to be your person anymore and who cares about being remembered if you aren’t nice vs who cares about being nice if you aren’t remembered and how terrible small scale tragedies can be even going up against giant horrors like a civil war and what do you do if you hate your home and everyone in it and how do you cope when someone you love uses your love for them to keep you away

what if we were both boys and i pretend to be god over the microphone in a mri just to make you laugh so you can take your mind off the pain in your leg after you came to me for help

normally i’m like lewis close your eyes bc they’re always So Expressive and it kills me but fuck. me. his eyes closed in this hug hurts way worse

i cannot believe that pierre gasly really said with his whole chest that ppl are going to start thinking that they’re gay bc they saw him fully clothed in a room with shirtless yuki. like babe no……...it’s the constant manhandling of him and taking him to places you “usually don’t take guys but i’ll make an exception” and hand feeding him while he’s blindfolded and looking at him Like That and singing adele into each other’s faces bc you’re leaving him and saying you like fire. you like danger. while you play punch him and cal him yukino and the calling of each other cute on main and saying his heart is crying for you and that’s why it’s raining and being SO excited when he’s been bad….and you get to tell him he’s misbehaved…..and inventing a fake sister just so he can take your last name and lifting his head up by the hair when he’s sitting between your feet and

god but the way seb brought up baku and literally said in front of god and country and fernando alonso that it was wrong and not right of him but that it got him lewis. it brought them closer together so he wouldn’t change it. i am chewing glass

when hozier said “the likes of a darkness so deep that god at the start couldn’t bear” and when hozier said “i don’t need to know where we begin and end. i’d still know you not being shown you i only need the working of my hands” and when hozier said “i think i owe my life to flowers left here by my mother. ain’t that like them, gifting life to you again” and when hozier said “infinitely suffering, but fighting off like all creation. the absence of itself, anyway” and when hozier said “when i was young i used to guess are there limits to any emptiness?” and when hozier said “heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i” and when hozier said “let me wrap my teeth around the world” and when hozier said “throw enough rope until the legs have swung” and when hozier said “so much of our lives is just carving through the dark to get so far and the hardest part is who we are” and when hozier said “uiscefhuariaithe, the feel of coolness only water brings” and when hozier said “you may never know your fortune until the distance has been shown between what is lost forever and what can still be known” and when hozier said “a butchered tongue still singing here above the ground” and when hozier said “in a shot i’d swap my body for a body of water” and hozier said “trapped within an abstract from a moment of my life” and when hozier said “do you know i could break beneath the weight? of the goodness, love, i still carry for you” and when

something about pádraic not caring about being remembered if he’s nice and becoming terrible and mean and while that costs him himself, it somehow, kind of, gets him colm back and colm wanting pádráic gone so badly because he’s not interesting that he wrecks the one thing that makes him interesting, the one thing that he might be remembered for, and he cuts off his fingers so he can’t play the fiddle to spite him, and in doing so they both will probably be remembered by everyone

seb really turned up to this presser late and hungover and flirted with valtteri the instant he sat down. pushed his chair so close to mick he’s half in his lap. stirred up shit with oliver and pettr. and then starting dragging f1 while simultaneously praising roc as he talks about environmentally friendly cars. what a king