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i am contemplating whether or not to name this entry the confessions of an anxious appointment secretary. guess i will. tbh, this is just a messy narration of how i am holding up with work. swear this quarantine makes you think differently. it’s just so hard when your boyfriend is away for his police training without any phones in sight and you can’t pinpoint the exact person you wanna share your burdens to because you don’t wanna seem like a whiny 22 year old.

ok so these past few days, i’ve been thinking of resigning. well still not sure if this is just my lockdown-ed self talking. but i’ve been weighing the pros and cons of this. sure, being a secretary for a high ranking gov’t official sounds enticing but god no. you’re expected to plot her schedules, make appointments (work & personal related) and deal with people who thinks they can do your job better than you do, which i really hate. i mean if you wanna have my position, just say so. lol.

my first months were difficult considering how shy i was. i couldn’t talk back. now that i am getting the hang of things, i just realize that i couldn’t do this for a long time. salary is below minimum, people are trash, and i can’t sense any personal growth. doing personal errands for her was no problem for me but to run errands for her family is a different story. i swear i hate it when they go on trips especially abroad. the horror everytime i get the news of them travelling stresses me. also, one thing is that i couldn’t stomach working under politicians anymore. hello, if it was mayor vico, i’d definitely reconsider jk. also, i’m not suited for public service.

i’d say the experience is one for the books. made a lot of connections and went through the worst and best. i hate to admit this but i’ve grown to have a soft side for my boss although she isn’t the very best. it’s just that i can’t work for someone like her anymore. my political view says no.