#blacksuncallout

Some of you in the fandom might know about the recent drama about the creator of The black-sun-AU, namely there was a call-out post made about her -seen here-

She owned up to the accusations of actively seeking out and enjoying the pedophilia, the incest, the child porn, and the bestiality. She even said that she wanted to get professional help because she knew that her consumption of these things were amoral and disgusting. That should be the end of it, right?

Clearly you haven‘t been on tumblr long enough.

I am friends with some of the individuals put together the callout post. I bring it up because they had a discussion on Twitter With Shibe. Bear in mind: This conversation happened today, after she said she was “really sorry”

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So, tell me. @ccarmody101, does “Mom” seem like she’s, and sorry? 

@shantaru What say say you?

I hope to hopefully help clear some air here

I have talked with my wife over the recent events and have recommended she gets help, while I don’t believe looking at l*li and sh*ta is the end all, be all, evidence to accuse someone of being a pedo, I do believe it’s still an issue that needs to be addressed.

She has taken full responsibility and it’s extremely distressed over this. Which is much better than just deleting and running away.

I know her better than anyone, and I know that she is not this evil person that people think she is because they saw some surface level shit.

She wants to get better, she knows to never do this again. And I am choosing to stand by her side and make sure she gets that help.

I personally became involved in this because as a victim of child grooming I couldn’t risk the possibility that Shibe was an active p*dophile using their public accounts to lure in minors. This is not an accusation. There is currently no alleged activity of this sort, but there was the potential risk.

I can’t speak for the other people involved on why they chose to help in the call out, but at no point was Shibe’s following a concern beyond the fact that a large following meant more potential victims.

I’m aware that Shibe has apologised, and I do not forgive her. I believe her actions are unforgivable, and want no interaction from anyone who chooses to forgive her or defend her.

I am however very happy to hear that she is going to seek professional help, and that she is now willing to talk to others about what lead her to do these things. I truely hope that she is able to receive the help she needs and find support and stability in her personal life.

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If you want to talk remember my inbox and dm’s are open.

I just want to share my story.

Since mid January of 2020, Shibe and her friends have been my found family in a sense. They were genuinely kind and had no bad intentions by hanging out with me.

They were the ones who talked me out of suicide multiple times. They were very supportive of me. They even helped me through times when my mother neglected me.

They were very kind people. But I had ABSOLUTELY NO KNOWLEDGE of what Shibe was watching.

So I feel really.. betrayed. I guess.

That's it. That's all I wanted to say.

This drama is done with and i do not want anyone else getting targeted because of me.

I would like to apologize again.

I would like to take a stand and admit to my wrongdoings. I would like to apologize to my supporters, you are all wonderful people and im sorry that i couldn't confide in you when i needed help and let this go on for long till it all burst forth. It was wrong to keep you all in the dark and i sincerely apologize.

To all the people that still vehemently hate me, i do not want to force you to forgive me. What my likes had was disgusting and abhorred and i do deserve this backlash. I apologize to you all for not coming forward sooner and denying the truth. I ran around you all in the guise that everyone wasnt seeing my side. When my side was wrong and flawed as well. And to this, i am not begging for your forgiveness im begging you to hear me and see this as truth. I know i havent been the most honest at the start but right here, i am completely honest when i was wrong.

I was wrong in thinking i could hide, i was wrong in trying to blame others. I was wrong in consciously consuming this material and i knew it was wrong but i didnt stop. I understand that those images are gateways to worse things and it is criminal. I knew this but couldn't stop myself from favoriting them. I is an addiction that i have had before almost a comfort, which i know 'why you find that comforting?' but i did and i didn't like myself for it.

I am the one that is responsible for my own actions and i am here to say that i am sorry.

Im a bad person mentally and i want to change.

No more run arounds, no tricks.

I admit that i, shibe, had liked shota/loli/incest and beastiality content on my twitter accounts.

I know its wrong and disgusting but i have a consumption problem that kept me from stopping. I would feel awful about looking at it once i left my screen, yet the moment i came back i had to mass follow and like these pictures.

I not excusing myself, what i did was wrong and criminal. And i want to stop. I feel so much guilt for lying and hiding and not admitting to my closest friends and partner about this, but i was scared. I was scared that they would see me as a monster that i saw myself as and leave.

So i hid, i hid everything and hurt and damaged and severed the trust that people gave to me because i was selfish. And for all of this, i want to say I'm sorry.

Im sorry and i never should have hid what was going on in my mind but everything in my body said to. I know im wrong and broken and disgusting and immoral

And i want help. I dont want to hurt anyone anymore. I'm just scared and im sorry