I went to the PNW BJD Expo yesterday. It's the first time I've really pulled out any of my bjds in months if not over a year. I forget how damn PRETTY Lenore is, and then I attempt to take pics of her and remember exactly why I stopped bothering in the first place. She's nearly impossible to get a decent shot of. I don't know if it's the doll or me or my phone or what, but I can never show just how pretty she really is. I've lost interest in most things in my life (thank you depression) and it's sad. I loved this hobby, and it was really fun to be around a bunch of people who also loved the hobby AND didn't shriek OMG THEY'RE SO CREEPY as if they were the first person to ever utter such a thing to me. *eye roll* At any rate, before she and Petal, my Pipos Indigo Cheese Mouse, get put back on their shelf, I thought I'd at least try again. The expo wasn't fantastic, but getting a chance to spend time with my friend and her kid was worth the price of admission. I think I'd like to get back into the hobby. Just gotta get over this bad patch first.

I would like the record to show that @janenx01 is a horrible enabler and somehow we're now going to Resin Rose BJD con in Oregon in August (as we were left feeling lackluster over the local one.) I hope you're happy with yourself. =p (The theme is video games. We're gonna dress the dolls in N7 hoodies. It's gonna be nerdtastic, friends.) In honor of this terrible abuse of power in our friendship, I changed Lenore into her new Sailor Moon leggings.

Lenore Graves, my sarcastic little angst child, who has grown up with me in my head since I was about 15 or 16 - I love her so much, she even has a BJD counterpart (sadly, not the best pic of dolly!Lenore but it's what I had on my phone. Lenore art by @taiyari ) She's gone from living dead demon goth girl (I know, I know) to a perpetually irritated normal human grown up, shifting and changing as I have over the last *mumblemumble* years. I don't speak of her much here, but she's always the voice in the back of my head and has tens of thousands of words written about her.

SO TEENY.  I’ve been trying to convince myself to sew Sparrow’s flower fairy costume for ages, but...SO TINY.  Also?  Dolls tend to multiply.  And they get both bigger AND smaller (some hit close to 2-3 feetish, and others about 3-4 inches.  And more expensive hehe regardless of how big or little.)  I told myself I only wanted one little small one, and I actually managed to do that for nearly 4 years, and then bam, two came in the mail within a week of each other.  It’s a sad tale. 

The struggle is real.  If I could sew or draft decently, there would be endless new clothes (but BJD clothes are hot commodities and you could easily sell the surplus lol.)  I HAVE A LOT OF FABRIC AND THE DOLLS.  Just...not the skill nor the talent (or, at least, if I have the talent, it’s untried hehe)