#bitrusty

The Battle of Helms Deep from the movie Lord of the Rings, or any remarkable battle in history, is memorable because of adversity that was overcome, the odds 1000 to 5000. We all root for the underdog because that would be an outcome unexpected, a real story to tell. Whereas, if the top seed crushes the lowly bench warmers then it is all but expected. A David versus Goliath.

These are the stories worth telling. The battles worth winning. Fought with more than numbers or brute strength, but strategy, fervor, and a relentless attitude.

It wouldn’t have been much of a story at all if a rain of fire wiped out Saruman’s army before the battle, or David found a gun on the floor and shot Goliath. A battle is only worth the hill it can overcome. There is no easy battle, considered a glorious and worthwhile victory.

These days I have been struggling, with who knows what. Someone smarter than myself could figure out an algorithm for my rate of emotional wellness in relation to the frequency of my posts. I’ve been down these days, for reasons I am unaware of. Part of the problem is I keep trying to identify it and I simply can’t. Either way, I’ve turned to easy solutions and distractions in this period of stress. I’ve not turned to God, and I know it. I God would snap his fingers and turn things back to the way they were - fight my battles for me. 

God wants more of me and nothing less. He is building my spiritual intensity. He wants me to fight for him as a mature Christian. Not a spoon-fed Christian. I can’t be like the woman and the children in the basement, as much as I want to. I am the little boy with the sword that’s too big and a helmet I can barely see out of. But if I can hold the walls long enough, God will come swooping in on his white horse and turn the tides of the war. Until then, fight and hold ground.