#birthdaynotes

Subhanallaah walhamdulillaah wa laa ilaaha illallah allahu akbar..

Always be grateful for what Allah gives to me.

At this age, I felt that I've become so much different person (imo).

I am a wife, and a mom (as well) for a 15m.o. baby boy.

I felt so complete and better now compared to my previous ages, and i'd like to say that 27 is the hardest year so far.

Why?

Well, a little flashback at my 27: my (first) baby was born while I have to do thesis defense. I'm taking care of him alone (with my husband, who also preparing for his doctoral defense). We have no nanny. I breastfeed him directly because he refused to drink milk through bottle. I lack of sleep (Of course!). I brougth him to the lab (mostly everyday). My right hand is typing the keyborad (red: writing the thesis book & manuscripts) while my left hand is carrying him all along to keep him asleep (because he will instantly wake up when i put him on the bed). Don't ask How can I manage it? How can I stay focus? I lost my concentration a lot! I did so many mistakes. I troubled my lab mates so much (pardon me, mates...).

But yep, I'm not alone. Allah is always there. Keep guiding and bless me. Bismillaah, biidznillaah... Alhamdulillaah.. I've passed it. And look I'm still standing here now.

A quotes from Haruki Murakami, is so fit,

So how about my 28's life will be?

Well I have to be prepared for anything. There are a lot of unpredictable and never ending surprised lie ahead. Its just like a roller coaster ride.

And..., for my 28th celebration? Hm... Actually 28 is not that old to me but also not young enough to celebrate my birthday. I felt that I'm too lazy for "a surprised party", or "a celebration with a cake, blow a candle, etc" now.

Spending whole day together, make a quality time (giggling, lying on bed, play on the ground), with my little family (husband and baby) is what I want the most today! I just think by doing so, I really can celebrate a feeling of "how complete I am"

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But anyway thank you for all of my friends who remember that today is my birthday. Special thanks to my dearest husband for your surprises (BR cake and a "eoniq" customed handmade watch). I dont really think that you were thinking about those gifts! Hahaha (pardon me). Because I know how busy you are out there! But it really touches my heart so much. Love you. And hope we will keep being a betterr and better person, and we will always be together till jannah. (Aamiin)

Ps. I got double BR cake this time. From my hubby and my friends. While actually deep in my heart I prefer to have a cheese cake with strawberry toppings! Lol.