#birdverse

something I like about Blue Sargent is that she’s so believably seventeen years old. she misses her mom and yearns to keep her friendships and also to pursue her future and grow. she insults her cousin to her face but loves and is very protective of her. she wears fingerless gloves to cemeteries to look cool even though she knows trying to look cool will bite her in the ass, she monologues about how if she opens her pink switchblade she’s sure she’ll cut herself as a sensible teen but also monologues about how she looves the idea of herself as a badass with a switchblade, and then she does indeed open it and cut herself and connects it to her emotional hurt. she’s both self-conscious and confident, and highly pretentious. She’s a one thousand year old condescending brat who wishes she was surrounded by fellow one thousand year old condescending brats at all times. she’s impulsive and idealistic and empathetic and sensible and stubborn and judgemental and curious and compassionate and playful and fiercely loving. she’s a fanciful sensible thing, she’s good but she’s not nice, she’s brave because she’s full of fear. I love her

a lot of people have said it a lot better than me but what i find most interesting about adam parrish is his capacity for being a villain, especially in trb. his path runs parallel to whelk's, and he could have found himself becoming whelk in the end. when he left monmouth in the middle of the night with the gun, there was every opportunity for him to do the wrong thing. he could have chosen to sacrifice someone else. he could have betrayed his friends. but he chooses not to. he spends his entire time in the series choosing not to become a villain. in cabeswater he tells whelk, "i'm here to stop this from happening again." throughout the series, he has the capacity not only for selfishness, but also for great cruelty. and yes, at times he is selfish, and he is cruel. but his character arc is defined by choosing to do the right thing, even when it is hard, even when it costs him greatly. and that is what makes him so fascinating. gansey and blue and ronan have these very strict moral compasses, and the privilege to be able to follow them. adam has neither, but he has his autonomy. he has the choice of goodness. and he has love. that is why he chooses to be good: because he loves his friends. and this is infinitely more compelling to me than someone who is good simply because it's their nature.

happy gansey character introduction day, alexa play edge of seventeen