#bingheposting

do they have gender dysphoria?

yes all three but to different degrees! bing'er probably has it worst because of the insane amount of baggage she has attached to masculinity and being a man. inversely, bingmei has the least gender dysphoria because she didn't have to adopt the same kind of toxic masculinity as a shield that bing'er did. the difference is bing'er is trans because being a man made her miserable vs. bingmei is trans because being a woman makes her happy, if that distinction makes sense? bing'er's experience is dysphoria-centric while bingmei's is euphoria-centric. modern au transfemme binghe is somewhere between the two of them with her dysphoria, she definitely has baggage attached to being bullied as a kid for performing gender "wrong" and there's some parts of her appearance that she feels dysphoric about, but she's gotten more confident in herself over the years

as for the second part of this question, how does this affect their ability to be emotionally vulnerable? haha. well. i have a whole fic about how that affects bing'er. i think emotional vulnerability and femininity are inherently intertwined for the binghes in a huge way, so embracing their femininity and being more emotionally vulnerable is part of the same process. i have talked about this subject ad nauseum so i will hold myself back lol and move to a different part of the question that i have also thought about, which is their relationship with sex!

again starting with bing'er and her worse gender dysphoria, SO much of her experience of being a man and all the baggage attached to it is also wrapped up in sex. the stallion protagonist has a fucked up relationship to sex, shocking no one! i think because the role she always had to play was as The Man Topping, she is not wild about topping now. she enjoys topping if it's giving oral, but she does Not like using the strap, and there's something really gender affirming about getting to be on the receiving end. this isn't entirely related to her being trans (but it's also not not about being trans) but she also really enjoys getting to say no or getting to choose how far they go. the expectation before was that she would want to push down every woman she encountered and have sex with them, even if she didn't actually want that, so it's really refreshing that now her consent will be respected if she says no or says she doesn't want to be touched or says she only wants to make out and not go further

bingmei has taken her transition as an excuse to spice up her sex life with shizun lol she really doesn't have the same baggage attached to gender and sex that bing'er does (not to say she doesn't have issues with sex. SHE DOES. they're just different). she's thrilled that for some reason shizun seems more willing to top her like this, but she's also still happy to be a service top. she finds the strap-on very exciting lol the Heavenly Pillar was extremely inconvenient but now she gets to mix and match what her pillar is like and it's great. modern au binghe is pretty similar, but I'll get into her situation more in the physical transition section bc it's more relevant there!

2. have they, or do they plan on, physically transitioning? (surgery, hormones, etc!)

hooray for magic transition flower <3 bingmei and bing'er have it lucky in their xianxia world lol I specifically described the magic flower as something where people could choose which features they wanted to change/keep through application of their cultivation because I know everyone has different feelings about how they want transition to affect different parts of their body! bing'er went for the full package and never looked back. bingmei gets playful with it sometimes though! the Heavenly Pillar was inconvenient but maybe sometimes she or her partners might be missing it so she'll use her qi to bring it back. I could also see there being a situation where she might need to be in disguise or something so she reverses all the flowers effects. she'll always go back to the full magic flower transition later though, that's her preferred default state

modern au binghe, however, does not have a magic forcefem flower, so I've put a LOT of thought into her physical transition situation!!!! im specifically thinking about her in that grad school fic i wrote, so at that point in the timeline she's been on HRT for a while. protagonist halo means her tits are fucking enormous. I think estrogen also made her maybe an inch shorter than she would be otherwise bc of that thing where HRT makes the tilt of your hips different (fucking crazy that it can do that btw. hormones are so wild). her facial features were already fairly feminine before she started transitioning (binghe canonically looking like su xiyan is so important to me!!!!!) so she didn't have to worry about that too much, though she has definitely spent a lot of time painstakingly learning how to do her makeup anyway. if we take the donghua as a canon voice, binghe's voice is fairly light and not super deep in that, so i don't think she'd need to do a ton of vocal training, but she's done some. she hasn't gotten bottom surgery YET but she plans to

since i said I'd get into the sex stuff here: she's pretty dysphoric about her dick, so she generally prefers it not be acknowledged during sex. she's perfectly happy showering attention all over shen yuan's everything!!! a girl i hooked up with one time said that since starting estrogen, no one had been able to make her cum, and i think binghe is in a similar boat. shen yuan is initially SO offended about this. what do you MEAN no one has been able to make her cum!! they need to be paying more attention to binghe!!!!! surely they're just not trying hard enough to make her feel good!!!! it takes her a while to understand that actually binghe feels best if they don't acknowledge that part of her and she gets plenty of pleasure from just making shen yuan feel good. however once she finally does get bottom surgery, she is definitely going to be making up for lost time lmaooo shen yuan is going to be like that meme of the guy who looks like his soul got sucked out during sex. don't worry shen yuan, binghe will go back to being a service top soon, she just needs to bottom 1000 times to break in her new pussy. trust.

ALSO!! since i just realized that post didn't mention how they dress, i'll bring that up now. bingmei likes to dress how you'd expect the qing jing peak lord's wife to dress <3 flowy dresses, big sleeves, very influenced by sqq's style. sqq is also fucking obsessed with buying accessories for her so i think she has one million hairpins and earrings and things like that. bing'er prefers to dress more practically, still visibly feminine but in the way a female cultivator dresses, the kind of clothes you can fight in. modern au binghe dresses very feminine (which is different from a cisswap binghe!), she knows she's hot and she knows how to dress to show off how hot she is

3. how does the language others use affect them?

for bingmei and bing'er, they are both shen qingqiu's Wife and the demon realm's Emperor. they're fine with the masculine term for emperor being used as long as it's understood that they're women. as long as their gender is being respected, the term itself is fine bc of the power that comes with it. and if anyone disrespects them for their gender, then they'll simply have them executed, because they're the fucking emperor. i think bingmei in particular fucking LOVES being shen qingqiu's wife though, being shiniang on qjp has been a fantasy of hers since she was a teenager and it makes her SO happy when she's referred to as such. it's honestly kind of a wild experience for bing'er going from having a bunch of wives to BEING a wife, but she's getting used to it, even if she gets a bit of a head rush every time she hears it

if you misgender modern au binghe, she's either punching your head off or having a spiraling breakdown where she has to make herself very small to deal with it. it's complicated.

4. how long have they known/when did they figure it out?

i think bingmei has wanted to be shizun's wife since she was a teenager and has enjoyed performing femininity for a long time, but she didn't realize she could actually Be A Woman until she got hit by that magic flower, which just gave her the perfect excuse to Stay a woman. for bing'er's gender discovery, see: the previously mentioned fic. modern au binghe probably figured out she was trans in high school, but didn't feel safe to come out until she was in college and her living situation was more secure. side detail: i think binghe and ning yingying probably dated in high school but broke up bc they worked better as friends, so when binghe finally came out to her, nyy was like "ohhh THAT'S why i had a crush on you" <- has since realized she likes girls