#bigtalk

theyre 3+ years old and i made them as a teen/early adult based on preexisting canon characters and i feel like theyve both outgrown everything i originally did with them. theyre supposed to be mid twenties but now that im almost 21 they just feel really sloppy lmaoo. i dont care for their designs and personalities and i think everything just needs a rehaul.

I AM NOT LEAVING THEM BEHIND. they are simply entering a cocoon and being reborn. they will forever be near and dear to my heart and i have never been so passionate about my own characters. as i enter a new stage of my life i look back at them and realize they kind of started to exist in circles. truthfully i havent been able to bring myself to do oc stuff because it has made me weirdly uncomfortable (?) to look back at them and see my Deeply Traumatizing Living Situation. we just need to grow and move on and leave this behind us

this post is so goddamn serious for no reason lmao i promise it boils down to being chill its actually exciting because i will do oc stuff again yay! but change is scary even if its a good change and i have been feeling this deeply as i basically ran away from home and now live free to do as i wish. this post is fucking crazy BYE. i just dont think i can mentally continue with reed and lacey as they are currently. they were born into a time where i wasnt allowed to learn how to drive, was told i didnt ever need to get a job, that it wasnt a priority to finish high school and go to college, which i feel like seeped into how i wrote them. there is just this sense of hopelessness and despair looming over them as characters and its depressing. i know theyre not real but i feel really horrible i ever created something so miserable. so i want it to change

i know reed and lacey and the rest have diehard fans (?THANK YOU) and im not going to be mad if anyone continues calling them their old names (havent revealed new names or anything because im still working on stuff) or old designs i appreciate every single piece of art ive ever received and the countless conversations ive had with my friends about them! its just a me thing personally. idk. why even post this. i just wanted to talk about whats been going on and this is my oc blog.

i legit have like 4 followers here LMAOOO so like again it is NOT that serious but reed and lacey are essentially a part of me and im trying to be kinder to myself so this is what i want to do. ok maybe thanks for reading idk if anyone cares BYEEEEHELPPPP

last time i posted my twitter here as a suggestion to anyone who still was interested enough to keep up with me there. however, with twitter (and social media as a whole) getting worse by the day, i made a bluesky account for any potential bluskis here. my bluesky is (mostly) a mirror of my twitter posts as well as i have an extension that lets me crosspost between both

CLICK ME. I'm Bluesky

however, this does not mean i have deleted my twitter. a lot of people (artists especially) kind of jumped on the bandwagon of deleting their accounts due to the twitter TOS changes back in november. unfortunately, AI theft is inevitable no matter what happens. personally for me, i felt that it was pointless to straight up abandon twitter because at the end of the day for that acknowledgement alone, but also social media is still shit no matter which site you're on. it just depends on what you feel is the lesser evil (this includes bluesky too which iirc is going through controversies of its own)

anyways, that's all for now for the small update. perhaps at some point i will find a use for this site but it honestly is not a part of my current goals that i have set for myself. for now, i'll be on both twitter and bluesky as per usual

Small talk was her native tongue,

she spoke of shoes and clothes,

of hair and makeup, the price of gas,

reality T.V. shows.

Tabloids were her daily bread,

celebrity her muse,

and on some rare occasions

she would watch the evening news.

She complained about the weather

and kids that caused a stir,

and gossiped about the neighbors

convinced they did the same of her.

For years, I feigned my interest,

sincerely, I did try,

but small talk was her native tongue,

i've seen some people speculate that the big we see in frontiers isn't the real one & is just conjured from sonic's brain. but i feel like there are things that some people are ignoring when they say this

big is fully cognizant of the existence of the other islands, meaning he has knowledge and awareness that extends beyond this cyberspace area. also, why would sonic's brain just. conjure up this completely random fishing location he's never visited before with big in it? this leads me to...

note specifically that sage specifically makes mention of their "hopes" or desire, being in the list of things that cyberspace can upload.

though not absolutely concrete, this could suggest that this fishing area is the manifestation of big's desire for a good fishing spot. thus, this area can only be manifested through big, not sonic. (also yes before anyone says it, i know there are weird exceptions like sonic visiting sky rail, a stage that only shadow goes through in SA2's story. it still wouldn't make sonic manifesting a fishing area make sense because... why. but i digress)

something else that i would like to add are the portal colors and what they could possibly mean

think about it, why is big's portal purple specifically? cuz apart from that it generally looks like any other cyberspace portal. what does this mean? let's look to the portals for actual cyberspace stages

on the left is a red portal, this typically indicates that the player has not cleared all of the objectives in a given cyberspace stage. on the right is a blue portal, which indicates that the player has completed all four objectives.

now this could mean one of two things. either that big is currently occupying the purple portal, and thus gives it a purple appearance...