#bigcrush

I get sad when I’m not close to you. I can’t stay away from you. You are feeling that too?

I have met someone, he makes me smile he makes me wonder about new possible ways I could feel about my life feelings I had only thought existed in only the land of film or fantasy. I have yet to experience them. I have only encountered a scent. The only way he breathes the only way he talks the only way he moves his body in reaction to the things I say that are important to me, is his way. My way in nature pairs with his breath. Never have I been able to feel this way about a man in my life, for I have met men, I have met men of lust, men consumed by the ideas of materialistic fantasies. It has only just begun and it is not love at first sight but I knew I had an interest from the start, the interest was all lost in translation. Morals and right of ways. He confessed his feelings for me then days later I then did the same.

Having a crush on someone feels really great and awesome,  ‘til you wanted him to know how you feel, but, then, you saw him with some girl else, he’s holding her hand, kissing her forehead, and then, you cried on your way back home from school, and days has passed, and you’ve decided to just let it go, then you thought you’d already let go, but, then days, months, years has passed, you still have that little feeling you get when he does little things for you, like, writing your name on tables and stuff? so, now, you decided to confess, after all that years has passed and just all. and then you got him saying things that you wanted to hear, and it’s “I also had a crush on you back then when we were grade 6″ and then, he texted you saying “yes, it’s true, and no one knows, but, I hope you did” and then days has passed again and he gave you online flowers and he’s JUST showing unexpected affections and he keeps flirting with you ALL THE TIME. and now, your feeling’s growing wild, but, then, one day, he became cold as winter and I was terrified.