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[A/N] another bigbang imagine, i’m sad because my favorite ever writer for some of the greatest yandere fan fictions on tumblr suddenly disappeared along with the masterlist i saved so... i’ll try to write some yandere if i have time or can be bothered.

hey sorry for not including seungri, don’t hate him but i couldn’t think of any ideas for him that could be misinterpreted ‘mocking’ his current scandal so i do apologize !!! please forgive me also for not uploading this in over a year because i couldn’t think of anything to write for him !!! curse this stupid writer’s block !!! anyway, here you go

[updated ver: march 2022]

Chapter 21

Pairing: TOP X READER

The next morning we went to our apartment, the activities at the university of course we’re suspended. I called the real estate agent.

The day we returned to the city we were too tired for going to see the houses that TOP liked, then that creepy sh*t just happened. I thought that going to see houses could help TOP and me to think less about that situation.

“Sweetie, are you ready?” I was next to the main door, looking for my lipstick “almost done!” He said.

“Ready” he was in front of me “what did you put on your lips?” he asked staring at them “some lipstick” I said kind of nervous, he was so handsome “your lips look pretty” he said “a-h, let’s go, Seunghyun… Mrs. Williams is waiting for us” afterwards we drove far away.

One night, TOP told me that the place where he escaped from her was a department store, he said 'she' really needed to you know... find a toilet. He waited a minute in front of the restrooms, sixty seconds after, he ran as quickly as he could, he thought it probably would be the only chance he could ever had. He described to me that building, it was maybe at 15 minutes walking from our current apartment. The best way to avoid run into that girl was living in a faraway neighborhood.

“Hello Miss _____” Mrs. Williams greeted me. We walked into the living room of the house, the big back yard could be seen through big glasses “Do you like?” I asked him “yeah, it’s like the pictures we saw” everything was pretty big “so the furniture is included in the price, isn’t it?” I asked “of course, but upstairs there’s no furniture, because the price would be so much expensive, that’s why there are only the essentials here” Mrs. Williams explained.

We went to the main bedroom “this bedroom has a very big balcony, you can see the back yard from here, also the balcony connects this bedroom with the studio and other small room” she was explaining everything about that house “well, I’ll leave you alone to decide if this is going to be your new house” she said “thank you” we both said.

“What do you think?” I asked TOP “This is the one I like” he said smiling “so you didn’t like the other ones?” I asked again “but this has a balcony, and a biiiig back yard, the others don’t have any balcony” he pointed out “okay, then we’ll buy it” I said “W-where I am going to sleep at?” he asked, he seemed to be a little worried “here, with me” I held his hand and squeezed it “b-but if you want you can sleep alone, I’ll buy you a bed and a-“ I couldn’t complete the last word “no, I like to sleep with you”.

That night we moved to the new house, we put everything we owned in the car, even my bed which was able to compress. I used to rent furnished apartments, so there was not much stuff for taking to the new house, everything was easier.

We spent those days buying furniture for our home, we went to many stores and we also assembled our chairs that was very fun. I bought TOP more things like a better printer, clothes, many stuff for cooking, etcetera. Oh! I forgot to tell you about the checkup, TOP's body was finally completely okay, we also removed the tattoo, he was very very very happy that day. My aunt also told us it was safe to start a treatment for TOP’s skin.

“Did you take your medicine?” I asked him “yes” he said kissing my cheek “please eat healthy” he gave me a lunchbox “thank you, angel” I kissed his cheek back “I’m leaving” I got in the car, he waved and send me a kiss, I did the same.

He used to message me and to send me photos of what was he doing during the day such as the food he made, origami, the flowers of the garden… he’s so sweet.

TOP's point of view

Six months after my chest didn’t hurt again, all that time I had been talking to ____ about what ‘she’ did to me, it made felt better as she said.

…

Escape was the best decision; I was not able to endure more… My first time wasn’t a good experience, it hurt a lot but I believed it was normal, after all I was made to do whatever they want. However, I didn’t know why I wanted to cry every night, I really didn’t know why I felt bad.

When she started to take me to please other people everything became worse, most of the times they used to tell me at least one humiliating word, to spank me, to slap my face until it was all red, and... well, it was not common but sometimes they choked me. But compared to what she used to do to me… well I preferred them.

What really made me feel worse and worse were the things that one man always told me before he used my body. He talked about God, heaven, etcetera. He said many things that only made me feel dirty, worthless. That words made me to remember that I was just an object with no right to cry.

In the training they told us about life and death as something natural. The man told me that people go to heaven when they die, it doesn’t matter what kind of things they did in this live if they regretted it, they can enter but... ‘shit’ like me will never be there because, I had no soul. I wanted so much to die as the weeks went on. What will happen? the only I knew is that the pain would stop, that was enough for me, I didn’t deserve something as holy as heaven. In no time I prayed for being killed, however it was like God was not hearing me, maybe God didn’t hear to the things like me.

One day she hit me so hard that I could almost felt the death going through all over my body, inside of my heart I felt happiness instead of the horror I was used to. That day, we went to the local market I helped to carry the bags, ‘she’ saw the girl who was the seller touching a lot my hands when she gave me the bags full of tomatoes. When we arrived home she locked me in her room, I knew she was angry due to the fact that the girl at the market touched me, I sat down and hugged my legs, I was shaking and in tears, I knew what was next.

'You look so beautiful when you cry' she held my face with her right hand, I looked at her quickly she had a baseball bat, sometimes she used to hit my belly with it. My heart was beating so fast, I felt it was going to stop at any moment.

She grabbed my hair, she made me to stood up… the first hit was in my belly, of course it made me fell, then she continued hitting my arms my legs with the baseball bat, she was kicking me too, I was feeling dizzy.

When she kicked my face, I felt like I was out of my body, I couldn’t know what exactly was going on. She somehow put me on the bed, I was on my knees, everything was blurred and spinning.

I didn’t notice when she put me lube, suddenly she was raping me with the baseball bat, the pain took me back to reality, my lungs... I felt they were going to be out of my body due to the hard I was shouting. She was saying many things to me, fortunately I can’t remember well. She turned me around, all I could see barely was the celling. She was touching me a lot my body was shaking for the pain and the sexual stimulation she was giving me, I couldn’t resist more, I passed out. 'That was all, that was all’ I thought to myself as everything became dark.

I believed I died, but I opened my eyes again... I felt so sad. It was late maybe 8pm I didn’t move in many minutes. When I tried to stood up my body hurt so much… I had never felt that way. I saw my belly it was dark and covered in cum as always, but that time I peed too. ‘Why, why am I still alive?' I went to the bathroom falling many times, I washed everything away... my tears, the lube, my saliva, my cum, my pee.

I was about to change the blankets when she roughly took my arm, she took me out from the apartment, I was still feeling out of reality. 10pm I saw the time on a big screen 'did I sleep so many hours?' We were at a street near to her apartment “you have no money, and you still haven’t paid” a guy told her “yeah and I’ll pay you, but for this time you all could use this and have some fun” she moved me roughly towards that guy and his friends, I couldn’t see them well, the skin around my eyes had been becoming inflamed.

“Are you kidding? This sex-doll will be passed out in no time. By the way, where did you stole it?” that guy chuckled. I was scared, I didn't want to have sex with them all at the same time, I wanted to run away “b*tch, we need money, money! Not a sex doll which appears is going to die if I only put my d*ck in it’s *ss” I was frozen, fortunately he didn’t change his mind. “Fuck you, I’ll give you your god damn money”.

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Chapter 18

Pairing: TOP X READER

"Good night" he whispered "good night, angel" he closed his eyes. My heart was beating hard, I hoped he didn't notice.

At some point of the night he had a nightmare, he was moving roughly, that woke me up. This time fortunately he calmed down easily, he seemed to be disoriented due to we were in a different place, however it wasn't as bad as I thought.

We changed our position, you know my back hurt a little. Then instead of most of his body being on mine he was laying on the bed but still hugging me. I wanted him to rest well so I caressed his back until he fell asleep.

"Honey, honey" TOP's voice was calling me, instinctively I woke up rapidly "sweetie" the sun's light was beautifully covering everything in the room "here you go" he gave me a tray full of food "oh my goodness, did you prepare all by yourself?" I asked him smiling "yes, well your dad told me how to do it" he was smiling too.

He sat down next to me "do you like it?" He asked "yes, it's amazing" I kissed his right hand "thank you" I said, he laughed nervously "you are welcome".

...

TOP seemed to be better, I mean his face was like... full of light, he was not the same boy I took to my house. I know, I know, he still had to do a lot. I was happy seeing him that way… fearless enjoying every minute of the day, somehow I knew he was going to be completely cured in the future.

I asked my dad to make some chocolate cake, so TOP could eat some at my mom's house and we could bring more to our apartment. Then my Dad asked TOP to help him, they appeared to enjoy cooking together.

"So, what about TOP staying here while you are at the city?" My mom and me were discussing how to keep him safe "I don't know" I said "he is going to be safe and sound here" she added “yeah, but he sometimes... The nightmares and..." She interrupted me "yes I know, just suggested it to him, maybe he will agree" she said.

"Ladies! Please, taste our amazing cake!" My father gave a piece of cake to each one "thank you, dad" I told him "it's pretty tasty" TOP said, he sat on the couch next to me, my father next to my mom.

TOP looked so innocent eating his piece of cake, I smiled, 'How can someone hurt this angel? How? How?' I asked to myself while I remembered how beaten his body was, how scared he was... my heart hurt so much that tears tried to scape from my eyes, however I didn't let them fall over.

…

We went to the same place where we met Mister Vu, this time the dogs were playing around while we were sat on the grass. "Thank you for bringing me here" he said unexpectedly "no problem, my darli-" I paused "no problem, TOP" my brain again telling me to not call him that way 'don't get confused' I thought to myself.

"TOP" I called him "whenever your heart feels bad... you can tell me if you want, I-l don't want you to feel sad or lonely" I said looking at my shoes I was not enough brave to look at his face "you're not alone" I told him "thank you" I looked sideways at him "I-I actually felt better after telling you about... My toes" I looked at him properly, he seemed to be embarrassed he was looking at his fingers.

"Sorry if you felt forced to tell me, I didn't mean to make you feel bad" I explained “it’s okay" he was still avoid eye contact.

While we stayed there we didn't talk to each other again, he just laid his head on my right shoulder. Somehow we end up laying on the grass, TOP held my hand. I was trying to keep calm... my heartbeat always betraying me.

"TOP, would you like to stay here until I buy our new house?" I asked him before went to sleep, we were in my bedroom "with you?" he asked "no, with my mom and my dad, of course I'm going to come here more often, you are going to be safe here and-" he got scared "no" he paused "don't leave me, please" I was shocked "I need you" he whispered those words, he looked at other site, he was ashamed "TOP, I will never..." He spoke again "sorry, I'm just causing you so many problems” he paused and gulped “If you want, I'm going to stay here" although he was on the verge of crying, he managed to said it firmly then, he put his hands between his legs looking down, 'how brave he is'...

"My angel" I called him "I will never leave you alone" I said holding his face with my hands "look at me, please" he did it, I kissed his nose "don't look down, please. You're an amazing person" I told him. His face got reddish, he looked to the windows rapidly embarrassed.

'Is it probably that he likes me that way...? no way' I thought 'stop doing this to yourself'... 'you, stupid'...

We stayed in that position. I guess, we both were embarrassed and didn't know what to do. "Let's sleep, you need to rest" I told him breaking the ice, we hugged each other until the morning. This time there were no nightmares he just got a little scared at some point of the night because the wind was blowing hard and the branches of the trees hit slightly the windows. In response he hugged me tight like asking for protection, in no time he was sound asleep.

"Pst, pst" I heard a little noise "pst" I looked to where that noise came from, still sleepy I saw my mom who had opened the door a little "pst" she made that sound again. I moved delicately to not woke TOP up, then I walked towards her "what's going on, mom?" I asked shaking my hair with my hands.

"Has he accepted?" She asked me "No, well... actually he did but..." I told her quickly what had happened the night before.

"Okay... I understand... Whatever, take this" she gave me a small box "it's for him" she said "what's this?" I looked at the box "oh, a smartphone" I said "yes, it will be better if you both can communicate efficiently" I looked at her "thank you, mom. But I could bought one for him" I told her "but you didn't" she said "well, yeah but we were so busy and... Most of the time he was safe I mean, I called my aunt a lot and I checked every single minute the building's security cameras" I said that rapidly however I thought about what she said… something bad could have happened while I was not home and he would not have been able to tell me soon "your dad bought it online three days ago, it came today and... well he wants to give this smartphone to Seunghyun" she explained.

"Thank you, but..." I gave a deep sigh "I am not enough mature to take care of him, are I?" I said disillusioned "of course you are" my mom told me quickly "but, just look at him! It's like I am not able to protect him properly, I cannot make him happy, I cannot even..." I spoke again "I'm useless" my mom held my hands "that's not true. Daughter, in life there are lots of unexpected situations, you can't control everything, you can't even predict what's gonna happen or what's not" she looked into my eyes "you are doing your best, I know it. You just need to calm down and control better yourself, I-" she was interrupted by an undertone "___? ___?" TOP was calling me "go" my mom told me before giving me a kiss on my forehead.

"Yes, angel?" I asked walking into the bedroom "why are you crying?" He asked concerned "wha-t?" I touched my right cheek, it was wet "no, no. I just... I don't know" I smiled “don’t cry, please” he told me, I smiled “look it’s a present from my parents” I said changing the subject “a cellphone?” he asked “yes… now, we can communicate all the time” I explained him quickly how to use the smartphone, he understood rapidly every single function I taught him.

“So, I can print the photos, can’t I?” he told me “yes, when we arrive home I’ll tell you how” I said, he smiled “thank you” he said still exploring the smartphone's functions. 'You are going to be happy, I promise' I thought while I saw him so interested in the phone... I loved when he showed curiosity, that meant that not all inside his heart was pain and suffering 'God... If you exist, if you can hear me now... Help me to make him happy' I thought, that was something that I had never expected to ask for.

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Chapter 2

Pairing: TOPXreader, DAESUNGXreader, GDxreader, OCs x reader.

I stayed at my house a whole week before starting high school, I didn’t want to go somewhere, after all I had no friends there. Of course, I called my friends from Mexico, many of them went to study in other countries and some other stayed at Mexico as Ricardo and Max.

The entrance ceremony took place the Monday. I woke up quickly I was not expecting high school to be a “nice” experience for me, so I was not exactly excited. It was raining and I walked to the garage “Good morning, Mister Choi” I greeted him “good morning, how are you?” long time no hear that question from Mister Choi “fine” almost a routine.

A guy took me to school, he was Korean as Mister Choi, probably he recommended the guy to my father as he recommended Amber and her mother. “So, do you know where Amber is?” I asked as he drove through the streets of the capital, I caught him out of guard “ah, ah sorry, I don’t know her” he told me “no problem” I said.

We arrived, he left when I entered in the school main building. The ceremony was okay, I mean normal, the classes were normal as well. I talked to no one, I didn’t want to experience the same as before, you know when I did my best to make friends but I only got my tears falling on my bedroom’s expensive floor.

The rain didn’t stop, I was waiting for the driver in the entrance of the school. When that guy arrived, I got rapidly in the car “How are you, Miss ___?” he asked “fine, thanks” I answered “Mister Zhao told me to take you to a store, so you can buy what you need for the party at the shore” I was confused “what party?” he looked at me through the mirror “your welcome party”. I forgot it, whatever that party was not a big deal, I just wanted to sleep.

One day I was eating my breakfast outside, it was cloudy, it was going to rain. I felt strange for a second, that feeling made me look to the main entrance, there was a tall guy walking through, he was slim and he had an amazing black hair, well he was handsome as hell.

I continued eating, the break ended. I went to my classroom, everything was fine, however I heard many people talking about me, my chest hurt again. However, this time I had friends, my friends from Mexico, so I didn’t feel as lonely as when I was a little child. We used to talk about many things until Mrs. Renata or Miss Liu told us to go to sleep, Max still called me lovely princess. Then I didn’t care about what people say, I preferred to be alone, you know, loneliness is addictive.

September 12th, I was waiting for Daesung, he was the driver who took me to any place instead of Amber. I was in the garden “hello, Miss ____” I suddenly didn’t felt the rain drops on my skin, I was being covered by an umbrella held by a guy, I saw his eyes, I couldn’t believe who I was seeing “Maybe, you don’t remember me, Miss. I’m Choi Seunghyun” I was so surprised “ye-ah I remember you, how are you today?” it was all I could be able to speak “fine, thank you, my father told me to bring you this umbrella so your clothes won’t get wet while you wait, I hope this doesn’t bother you” he explained “oh thanks” I was about to take the umbrella when Mister Choi came “Good morning, little princess, would you mind sharing your car with my son?” he asked, I shook my head “well then, Daesung is going to be here in a minute” he said before leaving.

I was quiet as always, at some point of that endless minute I felt Seunghyun eyes on me while he held the umbrella for the both of us, I looked at him so he just avoid eye contact “please, Miss ____ let me help you” Daesung arrived, he was going to open the door for me “I can do it myself, thanks” I said, I opened the door and got in, then Seunghyun did the same.

...

“Can I sit here?” Seunghyun asked me during the break “sure” I said, he was trying his best to keep talking to me “Seunghyun, you don’t have to do this” I commented “what?” I asked me confused “talking to me, is not your job” I said “But I only want to be your friend” he told me back “But you can be friends with many interesting people,” I said. “you don’t like me, do you?” he said after three seconds “I like you, but it feels strange that someone wants to be my friend” I explained him “I see”.

In no time I discovered Seunghyun has a funny and rare personality, well maybe he felt the same as me at some point of his life due to that personality.

Highschool was not as terrible as I had imagined, Seunghyun made many things better. We graduated together, we did homework together, we studied together. All that time we also were training for join the business, you know… my dad wanted us to became better than his elite group, so when we 'apply' for enter to this mafia we could be the best of them all, we were like a ‘special project’ for him.

I was in since I born, I mean I was his daughter, but… my mom decided I had to do this the right way, which was the only one that was going to teach me how to continue doing our business in the best sort of way, soon my father as obsessed with making us the best mercenaries he had ever seen .

So today, is the day… I have been preparing my clothes for the 'exam'… I guess it’s gonna be difficult. “Are you ready?” mister Choi was waiting for me, when I got in the car Seunghyun was there with a blindfold covering well his eyes “do I have to cover my eyes too?” I asked “well, you are the daughter of the boss so, I think is optional” Mister Choi commented “I’ll do it” I took off my tie and did what I said. I searched Seunghyun's hand and held it “nervous?” I asked him “a little, what about you?” I smile “a little too” he chuckled.

The car stopped “we arrived” I heard the voice of Mister Choi, we removed our blindfolds.

“So now you are going to prove if you deserve to be here, or you’re just bullshit from the ghetto” a man trying to intimidate us “this is one of the most important proves” he continues talking “you have to knock your opponent out as soon as possible” he is explaining the rules…

“Well you'll have the name of your opponent in no time, Lu Feng give them the sheets” that tall Chinese man gives us first our papers “Li Yu” Seunghyun whispered “Giorgio Sfeir” I comment what my small paper has written on. “First fight” the announcement… “Sfeir vs Zhao” no way, it’s me ‘shit’ I say to myself, I walk towards the 'arena' when I look up, I noticed that the Arab guy was enormous, I gulped “fuck is even taller than Seunghyun” I whisper, even his body was big as hell, I guess it’s over.

“Three. Two. One” that Arab guy starts moving, I’m moving as well “what about ending this fight and go for a coffee” he say flirting I just put my middle finger up “fuck you” I say smiling with an arrogant expression “don’t think that I’ll be gentle with you because you are a little girl” he says “hahaha, so cliché” he tries to punch my face, I moved quickly and kicked his face “you bitch, I really wanted to fuck you, but you’re such a pain in the ass” he tells me “c’mon man that’s why nobody wants to fuck with you” the same arrogant expression on my face.

We have punched each other a little however suddenly he knocks me down, he is punching my face hard, I'm so dizzy, my heavy breathing, my blurred vision… “____” Seunghyun worried calls me in a whisper.

I kicked him between his legs, I stand up as quick as I can although I’m still dizzy, finally I kick his head, he just fall over, I almost run to hit him again this time with my fist, everything is happening so rapidly, I cannot control my actions, it’s like instinct is taking over my body.

I punched his head so hard many times as MMA taught me “over, over” I heard that man’s voice, I stood up “y-you killed him” he says as he checks his pulse, I cannot speak “you broke his skull”. Applauses and amazement expressions were filling the air. I feel less dizzy now “nobody calls me a bitch” I said, I spit to the Arab guy, he deserved it I guess “see you in hell, piece of shit” I murmur.

I walk to my designated place, near to Seunghyun's. “Are you okay?” he’s more worried than I thought “yeah” I sat down, all the guys there are looking at me, I just wipe some blood off my face and check my nose. “Miss ___, let me check you” mister Choi kneels in front of me “no, it’s okay” if Mister Choi did so, everyone would think I have privileges, that's not gonna be good for me in the future.

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Chapter 19

Pairing: TOP X READER

“So, what about going to have breakfast at a restaurant?” Neal asked us “sure” Josh said “would you like to go?” I asked TOP softly while they were discussing where to go “yes, I’d like to” he told me. The activities about African cultures had officially finished, so in the university there only was a small market where people who had African blood were selling many products “let’s go for some Turkish food” Takashi said “what do you think?” He asked us “sure, Turkish food is okay” TOP said.

“So… why are you not selling Egyptian things at the small market, Josh?” I asked him “oh, I don’t know…” he told me “your mom is from Egyptian ancestry, isn’t she?” Neal asked “yes but I forgot to prepare some food to sell” he said giggling “oh my God Josh, you’re so forgetful” Neal laughed a little.

“Have you ever imagine how it could be living in the ancient countries?” Josh asked us “do you mean the those like USA, China, South Africa, you know those before living in the points?” Neal asked him back “yeah, how it could be?” he was thoughtful “not better than the points for sure” Takashi said “maybe is better this way, when the countries vanished wars also disappeared” I said “yeah, maybe is better this way” Josh said.

'A woman had been found in the woods near to Sydney District, her body was found quartered' the television on a restaurant's wall was showing the news channel.

“What the hell?! Another corpse?” Neal exclaimed concerned 'the policemen said that this could be a murder, however most of the corpse was eaten by the wolfs of that area, so rather than a murder it could just be a wolf attack' the images of course we’re censored but they still scared TOP “____, what’s that?” he asked whispering in my ear “sweetie, don’t worry, I’ll explain you later” he nodded and held my hand tight “I’m here, sweetie” I whispered and smiled.

“It’s kinda creepy” Josh commented “it’s unfair, and cruel” Takashi said.

“Takashi, would you like to drink something else?” Neal asked him, everyone noticed he was trying to change the subject “yes, I'd like a beer” Neal caressed his cheek “okay then, guys would you like a beer too? I’ll pay” he told us Josh and I accepted “what about you, Seung Hyun?” he was nervous “n-no, thanks” he said “c’mon just one beer” Neal insisted “no, I don’t like it so much, thank you” he responded “well… what about a juice or a soda?” Neal insisted again “well… I’d like a soda, please” TOP said “then I’m gonna order the drinks and I’ll tell them to turn off the TV”.

I was planning to ask the owner to do so, I guess nobody there liked to saw that images… it was like everybody in the restaurant were uncomfortable, maybe the owner didn’t notice because they’re too busy.

When we started to drink our beers, TOP suddenly let my hand go, he kept away from me all that time “are you okay?” I asked him he just nodded. He didn’t talk to me until we arrived at my aunt’s house, he was pretty nervous.

He was sitting on the sofa, he was just looking down. I sat next to him, he shivered immediately “sweetie, are you… scared?” there was no response “sweetie, please tell me” he just stayed quiet, then he has a heavy breath “you are with me, I’m going to protect you" I paused "did you saw something else that the image of the TV that scared you?” I took his hand into mine, he didn’t move. In that moment he appeared to be a real doll…

I was trying to understand why he was acting like that “sweetie, please I don’t understand why are you…” he was still looking down “w-hat... would you like me to do?” some tears where about to fell from his eyes “sweetie, what are you talking about?” I was so scared, what he was thinking about?

“Would you like to see me touching my b-b-body...?” he gulped. He was ashamed I could saw that clearly... ashamed, scared, sad… “hey, hey, let’s see” I paused “why do you think so?” he looked to me, he panicked and went upstairs rapidly “sorry” he said before left “no, no, sweetie” I followed him “TOP” I called him, I reached his arm.

As soon as he felt my grip on his skin he just let his body collapse on the stairs, he looked at me surprised and of course scared as hell “s-sorry” he tried to speak while many of his beautiful tears fell over the floor “hey, I’m ____” I caressed his face with my both hands as I kneeled down “you don’t have to be sorry” I was confused “please tell me, why you are scared?” he was avoiding eye contact “I-I” he sttudered “it's because I’ve drunk some alcohol?” I asked he didn’t answered.

I remembered what he said about the girl, when she was high and she became violent, maybe… he just connected that with what I drunk.

“See, sometimes people drink alcohol for relaxing or have fun with friends, okay? It is not always something… bad” he was on the verge of crying “s-sorry I was just confused… h-how I could’ve thought you were going to…?” he hugged me “you are not like them, you’re good” I hugged him back as always, my heart hurt, every time I saw him this way it hurt as you can't imagine “sorry” he repeated that word several times.

“Shh…” I kissed his face as I smiled “it as not your fault... you are so pure” I kissed the last tears on his face.

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“Let’s go to sleep, you are probably tired” we were laying on the bed, his head on my arm while I was rubbing his hair and cheeks, looking into each other’s eyes. “Whenever you feel bad, or scared, or you just don’t know what’s going on… tell me please, and I’ll always help you” he smiled happy and nodded. That night was very quiet, my aunt didn’t slept at home as usual, she really seemed to enjoy her work, I hoped I would like my job at our company that way.

Ahh… The next days were kind of… strange. A girl at our faculty lost her ‘sex-doll’, she distributed photos of him all over the university. When Josh, who always know exactly what is going on the faculty told us about that girl, I got tense because there was a possibility of that girl being the violent one. “A girl lost her sex-doll” Josh told us when we left a conference about Mongolian culture “w-what?” I got concerned “yeah, everyone is talking about that” he said “is she studying here?” Neal asked him “not at our faculty, she’s from the faculty of engineering” Josh added “you know everything about her or something?” Takashi said joking “No! I just have that information” they were talking while I was getting more and more nervous 'perhaps is she's I thought more worried if that was even possible.

“Are you okay?” Takashi asked “yes… I am” I said still nervous “are you both okay? Did you fight?” Neal asked, I didn’t noticed TOP was looking down, quiet... “No, I was only…" Josh interrupted me "none of your business, Neal" he said joking "got to hell, a*shole... I was just worried" he laughed.

"Hey, let's go to the toilet or my bladder will explode" Takashi said "we'll go to buy something, see you in the next conference" I said "see ya" Josh told us before leaving.

"____" TOP called me desperately he was almost trembling "sweetie, calm down... everything is going to be alright" I hugged him as rapidly as I could "I'll protect you, okay?" He nodded "maybe she will find me" he said concerned "I want to be with you, don't leave me, I don't want to punished" he said while his lips quivered "my lovely angel, that will never happen" he was trying his best to not cry I could see it "If it is necessary I'll die, I'll go to jail, or whatever, nobody will ever touch you again" I held his hands tight "I promise" he nodded "thank you" he said, I knew he didn't cried due to I had told him to don't do it in public "you're so brave" I told him.

'Why? Why? Why he cannot live peacefully?'...

'Is it not enough what he have experienced?'...

I also was trying to calm me down, I had to think well, I had to think how to react properly to every single possible scenario. 'Keep calm, maybe they're not the same person... Please, please... God, not she'.

Sorry for the late update, again. I just didn't know how to continue this story very well, so...

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Chapter 15

Pairing: TOP X READER

I hugged him "shhh, Sweetie, I know you didn't want to, it not your fault" I said "it is something that you cannot control, as when a person tickles your belly, it's the same" I paused "it's not your fault" I added.

He just stayed in the same position until the morning, he seemed to be broken. I regretted asking, I was only making him rekindle the hard times 'why don't you just shut your mouth up' I thought to myself.

As the time passed he slowly stopped crying. All that time I was thinking about many things... I realized I just wasn't enough to take care of him. 'F*ck such helplessness'... I hated myself.

TOP was not okay, he had nightmares almost everyday, he usually woke up shouting and crying, he calmed down as soon as called him "sweetie". Occasionally those words calmed him down quickly but sometimes it was not that easy.

The effects of the abuse he experienced were still there so much visible. For example, when I arrived home and closed the door behind me or whenever I walked into the room he was in, I could see his body shiver abruptly. As soon as he saw me, he appeared to be relieved.

The first time I left him home alone he did all the housework, could you believe it? Of course I was concerned when I arrived because he could hurt himself even more. 'TOP, what have you done?' although I asked him gently, he got pretty scared 'sorry, I just wanted to help... have I done it wrong?' of course he was shaking, the fear inside him increased a lot, he was in the verge of crying. I remember his face very well 'I can do it again, please don't punish me' he was panicked.

Many incidents like these ones occurred, as time went by the nightmares were not as many as the first days. However when we met that girl, he started to had incontinence, the number of nightmares increased, and so on. I was worried, I didn't want that situation to get worse, but I couldn't just took him to the psychologist, that was impossible.

TOP's point of view

I can't remember when I started to pray to be dead, I can't remember.

Since she took me to her house I haven't felt well, my body hurt all the time, my chest too. It felt strange inside... Like it hurt but that feeling didn't disappear as the pain of my body, it always got worse.

She used to hit me since we had sex for the first time, she seemed to like it... Hitting me until I cried.

When she hit my face, I felt lucky because that was all the punishment... I mean she only did it when my fault was not a big deal, only one slap... And I was free.

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When I saw _____'s face I thought that finally my prayers were answered. I thought I was in heaven... how childish. After she took me to her apartment, I believed that everything was going to be the same, that ____ was going to hit me everyday as 'she'.

I was scared because I didn't know what kind of person ____ was. I didn't know how she was going to react, what if she was even more violent than the other girl? I really felt sad, I didn't want to take more, I wanted to rest, my chest hurt so much... I wanted to die.

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____ showed me that life can be beautiful, as her face...

One day I wanted to change my life, I wanted to forget everything and focus on my new life, I knew that ____ was going to protect me as she promised, she gave me food, kindness, love... Maybe God gave me a chance.

That day I asked her to let me kiss her cheek... I wanted to do something different from hide and reject to be touched... I wanted my heart to be heal as my body, because by that time I couldn't endure that pain, I swear.

I didn't know why I wanted it so badly, kissing her.. it felt good inside my chest, for a moment it didn't hurt as much as usual, when she kissed me, it was the same, I really liked it.

I enjoyed going to the bowling alley too, it was nice to do something else than being forced to have sex. Her friends, her aunt... Not all people was like 'they'.

____ always protected and comforted me, I always feel good when I'm by her side.

Then I wanted to have a positive attitude towards life... but when ____ asked me about my toes, I just couldn't. I know, it wasn't her fail, she only wanted to help me, but it was impossible to not remember it.

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I remembered every single second of that days when she got angry for my actions or something else. I didn't liked to be forced because... it felt bad and most of the times I ended up crying. I told her that we can have sex in a different way, but she told me I must please her that was the point she bought me, perhaps she was right.

She liked to hit my legs, my arms... My ass, and specially my belly, most of the time she only punched me but... sometimes she hit me with a baseball bat.

She liked to choke me, to overstimulate me, to humiliate me, I never liked that. I must earn my stay at her home, so I used to do the housework, I liked to do it because I was so focused that I wasn't able to think about what had happened the night before. Also if I finished my work quickly I was be able to take a sun bath before she arrived.

"Sweetie" ____'s voice... So sweet as chocolate cake "could you go upstairs and, wash your face, my angel?" She asked me I loved when she called me that way the pain of my chest went down, her aunt was there... I didn't noticed when she arrived, I just nodded. I wanted her to kiss me but my face was covered in tears, maybe she found it gross. I went upstairs as she told me.

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'She' used to work all the day, so I did the housework quickly and then I opened the curtains and looked outside, I loved to see the birds, the dogs, the cats, they were so cute. Sometimes I couldn't do that because I was not able to finish rapidly due to my body hurt so much. That was one reason why I got slapped, she used to do it hard, most of the times I fell over the floor.

Some days she came home high, maybe she used drugs... when that happened I just went quickly into the closet and locked the door until the next day. When high, she was more violent than usual, but she only broke things at home. The next day she simply left the apartment and said nothing.

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I closed the door behind me, I looked myself in the mirror, I pretended to haven't seen my face, I washed my tears away. I liked ____ as the guys in the movies liked the girls they were in love with, but... I didn't believe she liked me that way. Just look at me... My body was awful, I was dirty, my face was ugly...

Josh's face was handsome, he was handsome, his body was as the ones of the guys in the movies or the guys in the magazines. And me? My body was deformed, was so wounded, I just was... ugly. How was she even going to fall in love with me? She's so pretty, so kind, so much for me.

Whenever I saw her, my heart beat furiously, the same as when she called me, or touched me... I can't remember when I started to feel this way.

She only wanted to help and perhaps, secretly she thought I was nasty, maybe she even was disgusted when she touched me.

I understood that I'm disgusting, I had had sex with many people, I didn't want to but... I must did it because that was the other way to earn my stay... so many hands have touched me, how I couldn't be nasty?.

Chapter 17

Pairing: TOP X READER

I was quiet for a minute "yes, I don't wanna stay at my current apartment... Maybe I'm just paranoid but..." She interrupted me "no, no. I understand... See, I can lend you the money, but you have to understand that we are running a company, we just cannot do things like buying expensive stuff every time" she told me "yes mom, I know it, but this time is different" I explained "I cannot give you a permanent job, you're studying" she told me "but I need to support him, I-" she interrupted me again "I know, I know but you should be focused on the university. I'm not telling you that... both of you have to survive with the quantity of money I have been giving to you until now" she drunk some water "I'm gonna give you more money, but you're not going to work yet" she said "really?" My mom was getting mad "of course, do you think that I'm like that people who has no empathy?"

I smiled "no, you're not" I said "you know that I always wanted to have more children but... I couldn't, so I don't mind supporting someone else, okay?" She told me "yes, mom" I hugged her "thank you" I told her "you're welcome" she responded "but you have to do something" she told me, I just waited for her next words "buy him more clothes, because as you have explained me, you have not already bought him more than two shirts" I laughed a little "Mom! of course I have!" I paused for a while "but you know... I have not bought him more things because he didn't want and... he thinks he has to pay for those things somehow" I said seriously.

My mom looked outside she saw TOP happily playing with the dogs "take care of him, no one deserves what he has lived" she told me.

"Mom I have something else to ask you" I paused "tell my dad about this, I mean he is so sensitive and he probably felt bad if told him this the same way as I told you. This situation is harsh..." I paused again it was difficult for me to talk about this, I felt fury inside my heart, I really wanted to kill that girl "yes I will, don't worry".

"Sweetie" I went out, he had a broad smile "let's go to eat something" he nodded "I will play with you all later" he told the dogs, the he walked rapidly towards me "____" he held me "oh" I smiled and put my arms around his shoulders "are you happy?" I asked "yes" the first time I had asked him so... Maybe the first time he told me he was happy.

TOP's point of view

____... I like to think about her. She showed me house's photos, she wanted to buy a house. I didn't know why, maybe she was worried about 'her'... Because she was looking for me.

I loved to spend time with her. Before I liked to be alone, no one hurt me, no one touched me... But when I started to live with her, I didn't want to be alone, I didn't liked it because I somehow started to remember the hard times. That's why I wanted to do the housework however ____ didn't let me, I know... I could had hurt myself. Movies worked sometimes but... Not as doing something like cleaning.

When she was by my side, that thoughts vanished. When I was alone thinking about her had the same effect. Bit by bit I didn't want to be alone, maybe my heart was being cured, wasn't it?

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Josh called ____, my heart hurt, it was a different pain... It was not like... permanent, it was like a punch inside my chest. I didn't want to look at her, I didn't want her to notice what I had felt so I looked to the opposite side. I could heard vaguely Josh's voice through the telephone, when he invited ____ to a party and when she immediately accepted I felt another punch... A tear fell over my cheek, I quickly cleaned it up with the back of my hand, fortunately she didn't notice.

Then she asked me to go with her, I hesitated because probably Josh didn't want me to go with her... She explained it better, I felt stupid... You know I was only misunderstanding everything.

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The place she showed me was like the one I always had thought about. 'She' had a picture on a wall of her apartment, it was a close up of grass, it was pretty green, In the background was a blue sky... It was full of brilliant colors. I liked it very much I used to look at it for hours and imagine how the grass could fell between my fingers and on my face... It helped me to scape for a moment, it was like a light in that dark place.

When I had to 'work', when those people touched all over my body I used to close my eyes and thought about that picture, I imagined was there, alone... happy and safe.

My mind was there... in that picture, I just let my body react to the stimuli... I moaned, I quivered... until it ended... fortunately everytime I thought about that picture I was not able to remember what had happened clearly, it was less painful.

At some point everything went blank, my moans became loudly, the image was replaced by the void... everything was like a white sheet of paper. When that occurred I knew I had cummed, the image of the grass came into my mind again, however it used to disappear quickly, as trying to escape. I used to opened my eyes slowly, I didn't want to go back to the reality, I wanted to stay there, but that was not possible.

A ceiling or a dirty wall instead of grass, that's I always saw after they were satisfied... I had no option 'stand up' some of them used to said, I did as I had been told.

The guys or the girls who I had sex with opened their room door, she was there waiting for me. 'Put your clothes on' she told me everytime after she walked into the room. I cleaned my cum on my belly and their cum on my body, afterward I dress up quickly. Then we went out of that places after they payed her some coins for what they have done to me.

We arrived home, she gave me something to eat, she ordered me to take a shower, then I went to sleep at my place, it was like a closet... Enough large to lay down properly, the floor was always cold but it helped me to feel asleep rapidly, I liked those days because I was not beaten.

It also mean that the next day she was going to buy drugs so I was sure I was not going to be touched by her the next day, knew that gave me some happiness.

I don't know how much they payed for a pair of hours, I don't want to. They always complained about my body 'he's so f*cking slim, give him more food' or 'do not beat him so hard, he looks gross' sometimes 'his face is nice, but I cannot enjoy f*cking him seeing that body' I used to hear.

'I know, I'm ugly' I always thought.

In that moment I was there, in the place I always have dreamed to be in... But this time was better... ____ was with me. It was like God telling me 'don't give up'.

She introduced me as her boyfriend to Mister Vu... 'It's a little lie' I remembered her words 'I won't forget it is not real' I thought to myself.

What a mixed feelings, however I tried to keep a positive attitude, I really wanted to change my life, I tried my best. So I played a lot with the dogs, I smiled a lot, the dogs were so cute and kind...

"So what's going on the university?" Her father asked "it's going well, I'll show you my grades when this period ends" ____ told him. We were eating some pasta "it's about to finish, isn't it?" He asked again "yes we'll only have cultural activities, some professors wanted to give us more material for the next period, they said it was gonna be useful, so we have had classes" she said.

"What about you Seunghyun, do you like cooking?" He asked me interested "yes, I like to cook" I responded "that's nice! Finally someone who is interested in cooking!" He exclaimed "hahahah, you are obsessed darling" her mom said "no, I'm not!" He responded "so, Seunghyun are you going to help me tomorrow right?" He asked me "yes, of course" he smiled "so we are going to prepare the tastiest breakfast you ever have eat" he said to his wife "oh really?" They were joking around, they seem happy, I looked at ____ who was next to me, she was smiling... She looked at me too, I tried to avoid eye contact, I felt my face got hot, I felt so embarrassed.

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It takes me a while to post this job because as I've told you I'm not a native English speaker, so I have to search for some words in dictionaries, I have to read many times a single chapter and then correct my mistakes. I hope you understand.

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Chapter 1

Pairing: TOP X READER

Our world, maybe no one could believe what happened to humanity. You must be thinking 'c'mon' my world is even worse than yours, but believe ours is worse.

Yeah your planet and ours are the same, what day is today? Have you seen it on your smartphone's screen? Tell me the year... 2014 maybe? 2020 is more accurate? Well whatever, today in our time is April 12th year? 2102.

Our world is strange, the technology stopped its development hundred years ago. As you probably can see humans have created lots of things, some useful, another ones for satisfy their dirty desires, and others which just destroy more and more, most of these have been doing harm not only to people but the whole environment.

At some point humans understood that was not the best path to chose so they stopped creating new things which aren't needed for a healthy life for example massive destruction weapons, televisions, smartphones and so on. You know, you don't need a really smart television to live.

However there was also something that frustrate people's intention to return to mother nature as pollution, non eco-friendly ways of life and of course the 'robotic' sex dolls. Crazy, isn't it? I'll explain you quickly; these sex dolls are like humans, they have same capabilities, skills also they look as normal humans but of course they're 'programmed' to satisfy certain necessities.

I've been searching for information about them nevertheless at some point I got sick so I stopped, could you believe that they are more humans than robots? It's like a mix of 10% robot and 90% humans. Lots of things happen to the sex dolls... Some are found in garbage cans, other are found killed with violence, how people can be so cruel?... They think, they feel also, people know that. They are not just 'programmed' like a computer, yeah you're right, they're brainwashed. In past times people used to buy them, use them, and finally they throw them out because they get bored, this situation was pretty common since at some point 'sex-dolls' started to be cheaper. Nowadays 'sex-dolls' are brutally killed or threw out, unfortunately they're not able to survive by themselves. Now as statistics point out the number of 'alive' sex-dolls is lower and lower.

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I was going home after a tired day at University. The pollution is still very visible if you look at sky, that's why government is planting lost of trees. However while air quality is still not good we all should wear face masks. "What a day at varsity" I thought. I was walking through the street unworried suddenly "Please..." I heard from somewhere into a small bunch of trees, I looked around until my eyes meet a strange humanoid figure, I go towards the figure. "Are you ok?" I said "help... me... Please" It was a man. He looked so weak and dehydrated "what the hell!?" I said to myself.

"Hey, what the f*ck!? Are you alright?" I run into him as I saw how hard it was for him to stand up "please, please" he said repeatedly. I took my water bottle and helped him to drink some, then I tried to help him to stand up "are you what they call, angel? Could you please take me to heaven? How is it? Is as good as they say?" I was shocked "I don't want to be here anymore, please take me with you, I'll give you whatever you want... Well actually I cannot give you more than..." He was talking nonsense "they say that's dirty, and you, angels are pure" I was trying hard to not let him fall into the ground "sorry after all I'm dirty cannot give you..." In that moment he started to cough hard "shh, shh I'll help you, just try to walk you're so heavy" I said so panicked.

After five minutes he was at my flat, I was trying to feed him, he looked so vulnerable as a little baby, then I realized that many people have walked through the street at he was just threw out as electronic garbage. Nobody have helped him although it is a very crowded street I also thought about that someone who have leave him alone in that hot weather. Then I realized something he was one of those dolls he had the 'code of product' tattooed on his right wrist.

I was so angry I just want to go outside and found that stupid person and give them a kick on their... That's not the matter now, he's my priority now so I tried to keep calm.

"How do you feel now?" There was no answer, he was eating and looking at me with puppy eyes "can you understand what I'm saying?" I asked again while I approached the full of purée and meat spoon to his lips, he nodded.

"I'll take care of you, don't worry" he didn't answer "I'll give you more food if you are still hungry" I said "but now you should take a shower, you are dirty" he looked at me with fear and covered his face with his arms "no, no please" he said "oh, don't be worried, I'm not going to harm you" I tried to reach one of his arms but the he cried a little "no, no please I'll be good I promise" he almost yelled.

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