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Chapter 2

Pairing: TOPXreader, DAESUNGXreader, GDxreader, OCs x reader.

I stayed at my house a whole week before starting high school, I didn’t want to go somewhere, after all I had no friends there. Of course, I called my friends from Mexico, many of them went to study in other countries and some other stayed at Mexico as Ricardo and Max.

The entrance ceremony took place the Monday. I woke up quickly I was not expecting high school to be a “nice” experience for me, so I was not exactly excited. It was raining and I walked to the garage “Good morning, Mister Choi” I greeted him “good morning, how are you?” long time no hear that question from Mister Choi “fine” almost a routine.

A guy took me to school, he was Korean as Mister Choi, probably he recommended the guy to my father as he recommended Amber and her mother. “So, do you know where Amber is?” I asked as he drove through the streets of the capital, I caught him out of guard “ah, ah sorry, I don’t know her” he told me “no problem” I said.

We arrived, he left when I entered in the school main building. The ceremony was okay, I mean normal, the classes were normal as well. I talked to no one, I didn’t want to experience the same as before, you know when I did my best to make friends but I only got my tears falling on my bedroom’s expensive floor.

The rain didn’t stop, I was waiting for the driver in the entrance of the school. When that guy arrived, I got rapidly in the car “How are you, Miss ___?” he asked “fine, thanks” I answered “Mister Zhao told me to take you to a store, so you can buy what you need for the party at the shore” I was confused “what party?” he looked at me through the mirror “your welcome party”. I forgot it, whatever that party was not a big deal, I just wanted to sleep.

One day I was eating my breakfast outside, it was cloudy, it was going to rain. I felt strange for a second, that feeling made me look to the main entrance, there was a tall guy walking through, he was slim and he had an amazing black hair, well he was handsome as hell.

I continued eating, the break ended. I went to my classroom, everything was fine, however I heard many people talking about me, my chest hurt again. However, this time I had friends, my friends from Mexico, so I didn’t feel as lonely as when I was a little child. We used to talk about many things until Mrs. Renata or Miss Liu told us to go to sleep, Max still called me lovely princess. Then I didn’t care about what people say, I preferred to be alone, you know, loneliness is addictive.

September 12th, I was waiting for Daesung, he was the driver who took me to any place instead of Amber. I was in the garden “hello, Miss ____” I suddenly didn’t felt the rain drops on my skin, I was being covered by an umbrella held by a guy, I saw his eyes, I couldn’t believe who I was seeing “Maybe, you don’t remember me, Miss. I’m Choi Seunghyun” I was so surprised “ye-ah I remember you, how are you today?” it was all I could be able to speak “fine, thank you, my father told me to bring you this umbrella so your clothes won’t get wet while you wait, I hope this doesn’t bother you” he explained “oh thanks” I was about to take the umbrella when Mister Choi came “Good morning, little princess, would you mind sharing your car with my son?” he asked, I shook my head “well then, Daesung is going to be here in a minute” he said before leaving.

I was quiet as always, at some point of that endless minute I felt Seunghyun eyes on me while he held the umbrella for the both of us, I looked at him so he just avoid eye contact “please, Miss ____ let me help you” Daesung arrived, he was going to open the door for me “I can do it myself, thanks” I said, I opened the door and got in, then Seunghyun did the same.

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“Can I sit here?” Seunghyun asked me during the break “sure” I said, he was trying his best to keep talking to me “Seunghyun, you don’t have to do this” I commented “what?” I asked me confused “talking to me, is not your job” I said “But I only want to be your friend” he told me back “But you can be friends with many interesting people,” I said. “you don’t like me, do you?” he said after three seconds “I like you, but it feels strange that someone wants to be my friend” I explained him “I see”.

In no time I discovered Seunghyun has a funny and rare personality, well maybe he felt the same as me at some point of his life due to that personality.

Highschool was not as terrible as I had imagined, Seunghyun made many things better. We graduated together, we did homework together, we studied together. All that time we also were training for join the business, you know… my dad wanted us to became better than his elite group, so when we 'apply' for enter to this mafia we could be the best of them all, we were like a ‘special project’ for him.

I was in since I born, I mean I was his daughter, but… my mom decided I had to do this the right way, which was the only one that was going to teach me how to continue doing our business in the best sort of way, soon my father as obsessed with making us the best mercenaries he had ever seen .

So today, is the day… I have been preparing my clothes for the 'exam'… I guess it’s gonna be difficult. “Are you ready?” mister Choi was waiting for me, when I got in the car Seunghyun was there with a blindfold covering well his eyes “do I have to cover my eyes too?” I asked “well, you are the daughter of the boss so, I think is optional” Mister Choi commented “I’ll do it” I took off my tie and did what I said. I searched Seunghyun's hand and held it “nervous?” I asked him “a little, what about you?” I smile “a little too” he chuckled.

The car stopped “we arrived” I heard the voice of Mister Choi, we removed our blindfolds.

“So now you are going to prove if you deserve to be here, or you’re just bullshit from the ghetto” a man trying to intimidate us “this is one of the most important proves” he continues talking “you have to knock your opponent out as soon as possible” he is explaining the rules…

“Well you'll have the name of your opponent in no time, Lu Feng give them the sheets” that tall Chinese man gives us first our papers “Li Yu” Seunghyun whispered “Giorgio Sfeir” I comment what my small paper has written on. “First fight” the announcement… “Sfeir vs Zhao” no way, it’s me ‘shit’ I say to myself, I walk towards the 'arena' when I look up, I noticed that the Arab guy was enormous, I gulped “fuck is even taller than Seunghyun” I whisper, even his body was big as hell, I guess it’s over.

“Three. Two. One” that Arab guy starts moving, I’m moving as well “what about ending this fight and go for a coffee” he say flirting I just put my middle finger up “fuck you” I say smiling with an arrogant expression “don’t think that I’ll be gentle with you because you are a little girl” he says “hahaha, so cliché” he tries to punch my face, I moved quickly and kicked his face “you bitch, I really wanted to fuck you, but you’re such a pain in the ass” he tells me “c’mon man that’s why nobody wants to fuck with you” the same arrogant expression on my face.

We have punched each other a little however suddenly he knocks me down, he is punching my face hard, I'm so dizzy, my heavy breathing, my blurred vision… “____” Seunghyun worried calls me in a whisper.

I kicked him between his legs, I stand up as quick as I can although I’m still dizzy, finally I kick his head, he just fall over, I almost run to hit him again this time with my fist, everything is happening so rapidly, I cannot control my actions, it’s like instinct is taking over my body.

I punched his head so hard many times as MMA taught me “over, over” I heard that man’s voice, I stood up “y-you killed him” he says as he checks his pulse, I cannot speak “you broke his skull”. Applauses and amazement expressions were filling the air. I feel less dizzy now “nobody calls me a bitch” I said, I spit to the Arab guy, he deserved it I guess “see you in hell, piece of shit” I murmur.

I walk to my designated place, near to Seunghyun's. “Are you okay?” he’s more worried than I thought “yeah” I sat down, all the guys there are looking at me, I just wipe some blood off my face and check my nose. “Miss ___, let me check you” mister Choi kneels in front of me “no, it’s okay” if Mister Choi did so, everyone would think I have privileges, that's not gonna be good for me in the future.

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Chapter 19

Pairing: TOP X READER

“So, what about going to have breakfast at a restaurant?” Neal asked us “sure” Josh said “would you like to go?” I asked TOP softly while they were discussing where to go “yes, I’d like to” he told me. The activities about African cultures had officially finished, so in the university there only was a small market where people who had African blood were selling many products “let’s go for some Turkish food” Takashi said “what do you think?” He asked us “sure, Turkish food is okay” TOP said.

“So… why are you not selling Egyptian things at the small market, Josh?” I asked him “oh, I don’t know…” he told me “your mom is from Egyptian ancestry, isn’t she?” Neal asked “yes but I forgot to prepare some food to sell” he said giggling “oh my God Josh, you’re so forgetful” Neal laughed a little.

“Have you ever imagine how it could be living in the ancient countries?” Josh asked us “do you mean the those like USA, China, South Africa, you know those before living in the points?” Neal asked him back “yeah, how it could be?” he was thoughtful “not better than the points for sure” Takashi said “maybe is better this way, when the countries vanished wars also disappeared” I said “yeah, maybe is better this way” Josh said.

'A woman had been found in the woods near to Sydney District, her body was found quartered' the television on a restaurant's wall was showing the news channel.

“What the hell?! Another corpse?” Neal exclaimed concerned 'the policemen said that this could be a murder, however most of the corpse was eaten by the wolfs of that area, so rather than a murder it could just be a wolf attack' the images of course we’re censored but they still scared TOP “____, what’s that?” he asked whispering in my ear “sweetie, don’t worry, I’ll explain you later” he nodded and held my hand tight “I’m here, sweetie” I whispered and smiled.

“It’s kinda creepy” Josh commented “it’s unfair, and cruel” Takashi said.

“Takashi, would you like to drink something else?” Neal asked him, everyone noticed he was trying to change the subject “yes, I'd like a beer” Neal caressed his cheek “okay then, guys would you like a beer too? I’ll pay” he told us Josh and I accepted “what about you, Seung Hyun?” he was nervous “n-no, thanks” he said “c’mon just one beer” Neal insisted “no, I don’t like it so much, thank you” he responded “well… what about a juice or a soda?” Neal insisted again “well… I’d like a soda, please” TOP said “then I’m gonna order the drinks and I’ll tell them to turn off the TV”.

I was planning to ask the owner to do so, I guess nobody there liked to saw that images… it was like everybody in the restaurant were uncomfortable, maybe the owner didn’t notice because they’re too busy.

When we started to drink our beers, TOP suddenly let my hand go, he kept away from me all that time “are you okay?” I asked him he just nodded. He didn’t talk to me until we arrived at my aunt’s house, he was pretty nervous.

He was sitting on the sofa, he was just looking down. I sat next to him, he shivered immediately “sweetie, are you… scared?” there was no response “sweetie, please tell me” he just stayed quiet, then he has a heavy breath “you are with me, I’m going to protect you" I paused "did you saw something else that the image of the TV that scared you?” I took his hand into mine, he didn’t move. In that moment he appeared to be a real doll…

I was trying to understand why he was acting like that “sweetie, please I don’t understand why are you…” he was still looking down “w-hat... would you like me to do?” some tears where about to fell from his eyes “sweetie, what are you talking about?” I was so scared, what he was thinking about?

“Would you like to see me touching my b-b-body...?” he gulped. He was ashamed I could saw that clearly... ashamed, scared, sad… “hey, hey, let’s see” I paused “why do you think so?” he looked to me, he panicked and went upstairs rapidly “sorry” he said before left “no, no, sweetie” I followed him “TOP” I called him, I reached his arm.

As soon as he felt my grip on his skin he just let his body collapse on the stairs, he looked at me surprised and of course scared as hell “s-sorry” he tried to speak while many of his beautiful tears fell over the floor “hey, I’m ____” I caressed his face with my both hands as I kneeled down “you don’t have to be sorry” I was confused “please tell me, why you are scared?” he was avoiding eye contact “I-I” he sttudered “it's because I’ve drunk some alcohol?” I asked he didn’t answered.

I remembered what he said about the girl, when she was high and she became violent, maybe… he just connected that with what I drunk.

“See, sometimes people drink alcohol for relaxing or have fun with friends, okay? It is not always something… bad” he was on the verge of crying “s-sorry I was just confused… h-how I could’ve thought you were going to…?” he hugged me “you are not like them, you’re good” I hugged him back as always, my heart hurt, every time I saw him this way it hurt as you can't imagine “sorry” he repeated that word several times.

“Shh…” I kissed his face as I smiled “it as not your fault... you are so pure” I kissed the last tears on his face.

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“Let’s go to sleep, you are probably tired” we were laying on the bed, his head on my arm while I was rubbing his hair and cheeks, looking into each other’s eyes. “Whenever you feel bad, or scared, or you just don’t know what’s going on… tell me please, and I’ll always help you” he smiled happy and nodded. That night was very quiet, my aunt didn’t slept at home as usual, she really seemed to enjoy her work, I hoped I would like my job at our company that way.

Ahh… The next days were kind of… strange. A girl at our faculty lost her ‘sex-doll’, she distributed photos of him all over the university. When Josh, who always know exactly what is going on the faculty told us about that girl, I got tense because there was a possibility of that girl being the violent one. “A girl lost her sex-doll” Josh told us when we left a conference about Mongolian culture “w-what?” I got concerned “yeah, everyone is talking about that” he said “is she studying here?” Neal asked him “not at our faculty, she’s from the faculty of engineering” Josh added “you know everything about her or something?” Takashi said joking “No! I just have that information” they were talking while I was getting more and more nervous 'perhaps is she's I thought more worried if that was even possible.

“Are you okay?” Takashi asked “yes… I am” I said still nervous “are you both okay? Did you fight?” Neal asked, I didn’t noticed TOP was looking down, quiet... “No, I was only…" Josh interrupted me "none of your business, Neal" he said joking "got to hell, a*shole... I was just worried" he laughed.

"Hey, let's go to the toilet or my bladder will explode" Takashi said "we'll go to buy something, see you in the next conference" I said "see ya" Josh told us before leaving.

"____" TOP called me desperately he was almost trembling "sweetie, calm down... everything is going to be alright" I hugged him as rapidly as I could "I'll protect you, okay?" He nodded "maybe she will find me" he said concerned "I want to be with you, don't leave me, I don't want to punished" he said while his lips quivered "my lovely angel, that will never happen" he was trying his best to not cry I could see it "If it is necessary I'll die, I'll go to jail, or whatever, nobody will ever touch you again" I held his hands tight "I promise" he nodded "thank you" he said, I knew he didn't cried due to I had told him to don't do it in public "you're so brave" I told him.

'Why? Why? Why he cannot live peacefully?'...

'Is it not enough what he have experienced?'...

I also was trying to calm me down, I had to think well, I had to think how to react properly to every single possible scenario. 'Keep calm, maybe they're not the same person... Please, please... God, not she'.

Sorry for the late update, again. I just didn't know how to continue this story very well, so...

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Chapter 17

Pairing: TOP X READER

I was quiet for a minute "yes, I don't wanna stay at my current apartment... Maybe I'm just paranoid but..." She interrupted me "no, no. I understand... See, I can lend you the money, but you have to understand that we are running a company, we just cannot do things like buying expensive stuff every time" she told me "yes mom, I know it, but this time is different" I explained "I cannot give you a permanent job, you're studying" she told me "but I need to support him, I-" she interrupted me again "I know, I know but you should be focused on the university. I'm not telling you that... both of you have to survive with the quantity of money I have been giving to you until now" she drunk some water "I'm gonna give you more money, but you're not going to work yet" she said "really?" My mom was getting mad "of course, do you think that I'm like that people who has no empathy?"

I smiled "no, you're not" I said "you know that I always wanted to have more children but... I couldn't, so I don't mind supporting someone else, okay?" She told me "yes, mom" I hugged her "thank you" I told her "you're welcome" she responded "but you have to do something" she told me, I just waited for her next words "buy him more clothes, because as you have explained me, you have not already bought him more than two shirts" I laughed a little "Mom! of course I have!" I paused for a while "but you know... I have not bought him more things because he didn't want and... he thinks he has to pay for those things somehow" I said seriously.

My mom looked outside she saw TOP happily playing with the dogs "take care of him, no one deserves what he has lived" she told me.

"Mom I have something else to ask you" I paused "tell my dad about this, I mean he is so sensitive and he probably felt bad if told him this the same way as I told you. This situation is harsh..." I paused again it was difficult for me to talk about this, I felt fury inside my heart, I really wanted to kill that girl "yes I will, don't worry".

"Sweetie" I went out, he had a broad smile "let's go to eat something" he nodded "I will play with you all later" he told the dogs, the he walked rapidly towards me "____" he held me "oh" I smiled and put my arms around his shoulders "are you happy?" I asked "yes" the first time I had asked him so... Maybe the first time he told me he was happy.

TOP's point of view

____... I like to think about her. She showed me house's photos, she wanted to buy a house. I didn't know why, maybe she was worried about 'her'... Because she was looking for me.

I loved to spend time with her. Before I liked to be alone, no one hurt me, no one touched me... But when I started to live with her, I didn't want to be alone, I didn't liked it because I somehow started to remember the hard times. That's why I wanted to do the housework however ____ didn't let me, I know... I could had hurt myself. Movies worked sometimes but... Not as doing something like cleaning.

When she was by my side, that thoughts vanished. When I was alone thinking about her had the same effect. Bit by bit I didn't want to be alone, maybe my heart was being cured, wasn't it?

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Josh called ____, my heart hurt, it was a different pain... It was not like... permanent, it was like a punch inside my chest. I didn't want to look at her, I didn't want her to notice what I had felt so I looked to the opposite side. I could heard vaguely Josh's voice through the telephone, when he invited ____ to a party and when she immediately accepted I felt another punch... A tear fell over my cheek, I quickly cleaned it up with the back of my hand, fortunately she didn't notice.

Then she asked me to go with her, I hesitated because probably Josh didn't want me to go with her... She explained it better, I felt stupid... You know I was only misunderstanding everything.

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The place she showed me was like the one I always had thought about. 'She' had a picture on a wall of her apartment, it was a close up of grass, it was pretty green, In the background was a blue sky... It was full of brilliant colors. I liked it very much I used to look at it for hours and imagine how the grass could fell between my fingers and on my face... It helped me to scape for a moment, it was like a light in that dark place.

When I had to 'work', when those people touched all over my body I used to close my eyes and thought about that picture, I imagined was there, alone... happy and safe.

My mind was there... in that picture, I just let my body react to the stimuli... I moaned, I quivered... until it ended... fortunately everytime I thought about that picture I was not able to remember what had happened clearly, it was less painful.

At some point everything went blank, my moans became loudly, the image was replaced by the void... everything was like a white sheet of paper. When that occurred I knew I had cummed, the image of the grass came into my mind again, however it used to disappear quickly, as trying to escape. I used to opened my eyes slowly, I didn't want to go back to the reality, I wanted to stay there, but that was not possible.

A ceiling or a dirty wall instead of grass, that's I always saw after they were satisfied... I had no option 'stand up' some of them used to said, I did as I had been told.

The guys or the girls who I had sex with opened their room door, she was there waiting for me. 'Put your clothes on' she told me everytime after she walked into the room. I cleaned my cum on my belly and their cum on my body, afterward I dress up quickly. Then we went out of that places after they payed her some coins for what they have done to me.

We arrived home, she gave me something to eat, she ordered me to take a shower, then I went to sleep at my place, it was like a closet... Enough large to lay down properly, the floor was always cold but it helped me to feel asleep rapidly, I liked those days because I was not beaten.

It also mean that the next day she was going to buy drugs so I was sure I was not going to be touched by her the next day, knew that gave me some happiness.

I don't know how much they payed for a pair of hours, I don't want to. They always complained about my body 'he's so f*cking slim, give him more food' or 'do not beat him so hard, he looks gross' sometimes 'his face is nice, but I cannot enjoy f*cking him seeing that body' I used to hear.

'I know, I'm ugly' I always thought.

In that moment I was there, in the place I always have dreamed to be in... But this time was better... ____ was with me. It was like God telling me 'don't give up'.

She introduced me as her boyfriend to Mister Vu... 'It's a little lie' I remembered her words 'I won't forget it is not real' I thought to myself.

What a mixed feelings, however I tried to keep a positive attitude, I really wanted to change my life, I tried my best. So I played a lot with the dogs, I smiled a lot, the dogs were so cute and kind...

"So what's going on the university?" Her father asked "it's going well, I'll show you my grades when this period ends" ____ told him. We were eating some pasta "it's about to finish, isn't it?" He asked again "yes we'll only have cultural activities, some professors wanted to give us more material for the next period, they said it was gonna be useful, so we have had classes" she said.

"What about you Seunghyun, do you like cooking?" He asked me interested "yes, I like to cook" I responded "that's nice! Finally someone who is interested in cooking!" He exclaimed "hahahah, you are obsessed darling" her mom said "no, I'm not!" He responded "so, Seunghyun are you going to help me tomorrow right?" He asked me "yes, of course" he smiled "so we are going to prepare the tastiest breakfast you ever have eat" he said to his wife "oh really?" They were joking around, they seem happy, I looked at ____ who was next to me, she was smiling... She looked at me too, I tried to avoid eye contact, I felt my face got hot, I felt so embarrassed.

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It takes me a while to post this job because as I've told you I'm not a native English speaker, so I have to search for some words in dictionaries, I have to read many times a single chapter and then correct my mistakes. I hope you understand.

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Chapter 15

Pairing: TOP X READER

I hugged him "shhh, Sweetie, I know you didn't want to, it not your fault" I said "it is something that you cannot control, as when a person tickles your belly, it's the same" I paused "it's not your fault" I added.

He just stayed in the same position until the morning, he seemed to be broken. I regretted asking, I was only making him rekindle the hard times 'why don't you just shut your mouth up' I thought to myself.

As the time passed he slowly stopped crying. All that time I was thinking about many things... I realized I just wasn't enough to take care of him. 'F*ck such helplessness'... I hated myself.

TOP was not okay, he had nightmares almost everyday, he usually woke up shouting and crying, he calmed down as soon as called him "sweetie". Occasionally those words calmed him down quickly but sometimes it was not that easy.

The effects of the abuse he experienced were still there so much visible. For example, when I arrived home and closed the door behind me or whenever I walked into the room he was in, I could see his body shiver abruptly. As soon as he saw me, he appeared to be relieved.

The first time I left him home alone he did all the housework, could you believe it? Of course I was concerned when I arrived because he could hurt himself even more. 'TOP, what have you done?' although I asked him gently, he got pretty scared 'sorry, I just wanted to help... have I done it wrong?' of course he was shaking, the fear inside him increased a lot, he was in the verge of crying. I remember his face very well 'I can do it again, please don't punish me' he was panicked.

Many incidents like these ones occurred, as time went by the nightmares were not as many as the first days. However when we met that girl, he started to had incontinence, the number of nightmares increased, and so on. I was worried, I didn't want that situation to get worse, but I couldn't just took him to the psychologist, that was impossible.

TOP's point of view

I can't remember when I started to pray to be dead, I can't remember.

Since she took me to her house I haven't felt well, my body hurt all the time, my chest too. It felt strange inside... Like it hurt but that feeling didn't disappear as the pain of my body, it always got worse.

She used to hit me since we had sex for the first time, she seemed to like it... Hitting me until I cried.

When she hit my face, I felt lucky because that was all the punishment... I mean she only did it when my fault was not a big deal, only one slap... And I was free.

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When I saw _____'s face I thought that finally my prayers were answered. I thought I was in heaven... how childish. After she took me to her apartment, I believed that everything was going to be the same, that ____ was going to hit me everyday as 'she'.

I was scared because I didn't know what kind of person ____ was. I didn't know how she was going to react, what if she was even more violent than the other girl? I really felt sad, I didn't want to take more, I wanted to rest, my chest hurt so much... I wanted to die.

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____ showed me that life can be beautiful, as her face...

One day I wanted to change my life, I wanted to forget everything and focus on my new life, I knew that ____ was going to protect me as she promised, she gave me food, kindness, love... Maybe God gave me a chance.

That day I asked her to let me kiss her cheek... I wanted to do something different from hide and reject to be touched... I wanted my heart to be heal as my body, because by that time I couldn't endure that pain, I swear.

I didn't know why I wanted it so badly, kissing her.. it felt good inside my chest, for a moment it didn't hurt as much as usual, when she kissed me, it was the same, I really liked it.

I enjoyed going to the bowling alley too, it was nice to do something else than being forced to have sex. Her friends, her aunt... Not all people was like 'they'.

____ always protected and comforted me, I always feel good when I'm by her side.

Then I wanted to have a positive attitude towards life... but when ____ asked me about my toes, I just couldn't. I know, it wasn't her fail, she only wanted to help me, but it was impossible to not remember it.

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I remembered every single second of that days when she got angry for my actions or something else. I didn't liked to be forced because... it felt bad and most of the times I ended up crying. I told her that we can have sex in a different way, but she told me I must please her that was the point she bought me, perhaps she was right.

She liked to hit my legs, my arms... My ass, and specially my belly, most of the time she only punched me but... sometimes she hit me with a baseball bat.

She liked to choke me, to overstimulate me, to humiliate me, I never liked that. I must earn my stay at her home, so I used to do the housework, I liked to do it because I was so focused that I wasn't able to think about what had happened the night before. Also if I finished my work quickly I was be able to take a sun bath before she arrived.

"Sweetie" ____'s voice... So sweet as chocolate cake "could you go upstairs and, wash your face, my angel?" She asked me I loved when she called me that way the pain of my chest went down, her aunt was there... I didn't noticed when she arrived, I just nodded. I wanted her to kiss me but my face was covered in tears, maybe she found it gross. I went upstairs as she told me.

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'She' used to work all the day, so I did the housework quickly and then I opened the curtains and looked outside, I loved to see the birds, the dogs, the cats, they were so cute. Sometimes I couldn't do that because I was not able to finish rapidly due to my body hurt so much. That was one reason why I got slapped, she used to do it hard, most of the times I fell over the floor.

Some days she came home high, maybe she used drugs... when that happened I just went quickly into the closet and locked the door until the next day. When high, she was more violent than usual, but she only broke things at home. The next day she simply left the apartment and said nothing.

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I closed the door behind me, I looked myself in the mirror, I pretended to haven't seen my face, I washed my tears away. I liked ____ as the guys in the movies liked the girls they were in love with, but... I didn't believe she liked me that way. Just look at me... My body was awful, I was dirty, my face was ugly...

Josh's face was handsome, he was handsome, his body was as the ones of the guys in the movies or the guys in the magazines. And me? My body was deformed, was so wounded, I just was... ugly. How was she even going to fall in love with me? She's so pretty, so kind, so much for me.

Whenever I saw her, my heart beat furiously, the same as when she called me, or touched me... I can't remember when I started to feel this way.

She only wanted to help and perhaps, secretly she thought I was nasty, maybe she even was disgusted when she touched me.

I understood that I'm disgusting, I had had sex with many people, I didn't want to but... I must did it because that was the other way to earn my stay... so many hands have touched me, how I couldn't be nasty?.

Chapter 13

Pairing: TOP X READER

After a long time playing, we leave the bowling alley, I offered my friends to gave them a ride. While we were playing around in our... Yes our car, because it belonged to TOP too. Maybe you believe I was going crazy but it felt like he was part of my family... Not as a lover because I was not sure about his feelings for me... But, whatever that's not important now.

I was thinking if going to our apartment will be suitable for our current situation. I mean the night before I almost shot the door, I was pretty paranoid... The paranoia at the moment we leave the bowling alley was still there and it didn't seem to disappear soon. Although it was improbable that 'the girl' knew where we lived at, and that TOP was effectively her robot... Come on! It can't be possible! She didn't even knew me. I just... I just was too scared, TOP returning to that inhumane situation I couldn't allow that happen.

"Hey, Seunghyun" Neal called him "yes?" TOP answered "are you graduated?" He asked, I saw TOP was panicked, 'what should he respond?' I thought "Yes, he is. He's a politics school graduate" I said quickly "oh I see" Neal said. I know, I know, It was a little bit rude but necessary. Maybe they'll know about TOP later... Or maybe it would be better if they never find out.

After many minutes we arrived at Neal's house, this time I was on the driver's side but the car had been driving by itself, TOP of course was next to me. "So, here we are" I said "thanks, _____" Neal said and Takashi got out of the car with him "Takashi, I'll take you home too" I offered "no, _____. Thank you but... I'll stay at Neal's house tonight" Takashi said "oh, well... Okay then..." I said "so, you're gonna have fun, guys?" Josh said jokingly "haha, c'mon Josh" Neal's face was blushing "you, better go home" Takashi said laughing holding hands with his boyfriend "see ya" Josh and I told them, then I drove away.

"_____, could you imagine how their babies look?" Josh said out of nowhere we "Takashi's and Neal's babies?" I asked laughing "yeah, I mean Takashi has Japanese blood and Neal has Irish blood, so it would be a really interesting mix" he laid down, "but it is impossible, and after the legislations about returning to nature it would be illegal to do something with their DNA" I said "yeah, yeah, I know and the legislations are not bat at all. However is kinda interesting" he said wondering about it "haha, sure Josh it is" I told him "hey, wanna go for some cookies, guys?" Josh asked "my mom made some for ya, but I forgot to bring some to varsity" Josh told us "oh sure, what about you TOP?" I asked him "yes" TOP said shyly.

We went to Josh's house, that was great because I had more time to think carefully our next step "muuum! I'm home, _____ is here too, and I want to introduce you to someone really special" Josh said happily "oh! How are you guys?" his mom went down the stairs, "mom, he's Seunghyun , he is ______'s boyfriend" she greeted him kindly "hello, I'm Agnes, nice to meet you" Seunghyun shook hands with her "nice to meet you too" he said shyly again "he's a little bit shy, mom. But he's very good at bowling" Josh said still exited about TOP's strike

"Oh really? My husband was a very good player as well" she commented "really?" TOP said "yes, he had Korean blood. You have Korean blood too, haven't you?" She asked "I... I don't know" TOP said he seemed nervous, I hold his right hand to calm him. "Do you want to have dinner with us?" Agnes asked us "yes, Seunghyun do you agree?" I asked him, Seunghyun nodded.

We were eating some lasagna while Josh mom was telling us about her son when he was a little child. We all were laughing including TOP, it was the first time I saw him laughing, he looked too beautiful.

"So, Josh was playing around while I was cooking some food, then he approached and told me that something fell from his underwear and that it tasted bad" Josh mom told us before laughing hard* "I ate my own poop" Josh said looking at the floor, then he laughed. "Did you really?" TOP asked "yes, it was... Well" Josh told him "I still remember it very clear" Agnes said. "Hahahaha, oh my God Josh, you really are funny" I said. "Yeah is something I born with" he said smiling.

"Oh my gosh it's 10 o'clock, you better go home... I'm not telling you to get out, but although you are with Seunghyun, there are many things that happen outside at night" Josh said "yes, that's right. You know the wolfs, the thieves, and... The corpses" Agnes said "well the only thing I fear are the wolfs, thieves... Well it is supposed that the rate of thievery dropped... The corpses, it's kind of creepy but-" I said when Josh interrupted me "yeah, yeah don't talk about this or I'll get goose bumps" he said "yes, we better leave, thank you Mrs. Agnes" I said taking my backpack "thank you" TOP said "you are welcome, please take the safest route the GPS says" Agnes said a little bit worried "yes don't worry, we'll be okay" I said hugging her "man, send me a message when you both arrive home, here you have your cookies, guys" Josh told us, he gave us a jar full of cookies "yes, I'll send you a message, thanks for the cookies" I hugged him and Agnes, TOP shook hands with her and Josh, he clapped TOP's back "take care of her" TOP nodded "thank you, again" he said.

We left Josh's house, we got into the car, Josh didn't closed his house door until the car started to move. "TOP, did you have fun?" I asked him while driving "yes, I liked going to the bowling alley, I said it right?" He asked "yes, TOP" I told him "and I also liked going to Josh's house and eating lasagna" he said looking to his hands while he played with his fingers "that's good, sweetie I mean, TOP" I said, I thought that he was uncomfortable for the 'boyfriend' subject "no, it's okay. Call me sweetie" he said smiling still playing with his fingers "okay, sweetie" I told him "did you feel uncomfortable?" I asked "No, I like your friends although I couldn't talk a lot they were kind" he said "I hope I can go with you more days to university" he added "of course, honey. You'll have to go with me more often, maybe daily... I don't want to leave you alone".

I turned the car to the right as the GPS said "thank you, for taking care of me" he said "no problem, sweetie" I was still driving "sweetie, what about going to my aunt's house instead of going to our house?" I suggested "I have no problem, but she has no pronlem?" He said "No, probably she's at work" I said "but, I want to clean the bed" he said with a low tone of voice "sweetie, I told you that the bed has an automatic cleaning system, so by now it must be clean" the red light, I stopped "see? It is clean now" I show him a photo on my smartphone that the cleaning app sent me, it's fantastic now you can manage almost everything of your house using apps... maybe you can do the same in your epoch.

"Are you sure?" He asked "of course sweetie" I kissed his cheek, green light... "Change the destination place to my aunt's house, and stop at a convenience store" I told to the car, then I let it drove by itself.

"TOP would you mind to use a diaper?" I asked him he shook his head "I mean you can sleep better, and not worried about cleaning the next day" I told him, he simply nodded "sorry" he said "no, you don't have to say sorry, this is something that just happens and you can't control it, it's not your fault" I said caressing his cheek I had kissed, he closed his eyes and moved his face closer to my hand "I don't want you to blame yourself, okay?" He nodded "I love you, honey" he said, my heart hurt again, it felt like a small knife cutting it slowly, it was painful. "Yeah, I love you too" I said 'we will arrive at the convenience store in two minutes, are you sure you want to stop?' The voice of the car said "yes we'll stop".

The doors opened, we walked into the convenience store, I chose diapers and some clothes for us, you know only a two shorts and two t-shirts also I pick a tooth brush for TOP. He was looking at other direction "choc-chocolate" I heard him whispering, he was reading what some packagings had inside "do you want one?" I asked.

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Chapter 10

Pairing: TOP X READER

She ignored me, she appeared to be shocked and too much focused on TOP "Daniel, Daniel, where have you been?" she said worried. Maybe she was just pretending in order to made TOP felt sorry for her, so he would go with her.

She tried to reach his arm "Hey! what's wrong with you?!" I pushed her hand away from TOP "why are you messing with my boyfriend?" then, she looked at me "he is mine, I bought him. He's my property" she was furious, her mood changed in no time "no, no, no" I said really angry "he is my boyfriend, you are wrong"

She tried to move me away "get off my way, bitch" she said pushing my right shoulder, so I pushed her back "you are messing with the wrong person, calm down" I said more angry if that could be possible "he is not yours, he is my boyfriend, you're confused" she again appeared shocked "no, he is my robot, I'm sure" she said before looking at TOP bewildered. He had gained weight also he was wearing sunglasses and a facemask plus a hat, she wouldn't be able to recognize him... even if she could, I had have a very good excuse in mind.

"Well, let's call the police and resolve this quickly" I looked around rapidly there was a policeman who was looking to us maybe, he thought we were going to punch each other in any moment.

"Police, police" I called him "please, help us" I made eye contact with her, she was still confused, and as soon as the policeman was in front of us she looked afraid.

"What's the problem, miss?" He asked me "she says my boyfriend is her robot, of course she's wrong" I explained "oh, well we can resolve this problem quickly. Do you have the product number, miss?" He asked to her, "N-no" she hesitated "but I remember it" she said.

The policeman took a white sheet of paper and a pen from his pocket "well, could you tell me the number miss?" He write it on the paper and showed it to both of us "if I haven't written it the same as the miss said, please tell me... So, is it correct? " He asked us, we saw the number then we nodded "please, Mister show me your right wrist" he demanded.

I looked at TOP's covered face, he was in the verge of crying... somehow I knew it, as if I could be able to see through his sunglasses. I tightened my grip as a way to tell him 'everything is going to be okay, don't be worried'

He looked at me and then he uncovered his right wrist "nothing" said the policeman, the girl was speechless she didn't seemed to know what was going on "s-sorry I just" she tried to figure out what to do, "miss, let me remind you that the genetic of the robots comes from many humans. So there are many robots which are similar or sometimes identical to real people... if you have lost your robot please go to the police station, you cannot be just attacking people that appears to be your robot" the policeman said, she was zoned out for a minute.

She looked at him "but-" she tried to complain "also, if this lady wanted to sue you, she can do it right now. You cannot just go through a street claiming that someone is your robot, it is considered defamation" he interrupted. "As you can see miss, he has nothing in his right wrist where the product-number is supposed to be printed on" he added "Y-yeah I just... Sorry, I'm so desperate to find him... Sorry" she was looked at the floor and then at the sky "well, my work here is done" said the police man "and... by the way, miss if you want to sue her, you and your boyfriend can go to the closer station I can escort yo-" the policeman was interrupted "no, please" she said worried "Sorry, don't do it please. As you can see...I love him so much that I was... I didn't know what I was doing and, please forgive me... I won't do it again" she was afraid about going to the police station, I didn't know well why but I took advantage of it "if you get any closer again to me or my boyfriend I'll sue you, get it?" I said looking to her eyes with fury "yes, yes just... sorry" her mood changed one more time, she seemed like...inoffensive "sorry" she said and started to walk away "well then... ma'am, mister... have a nice day" the policeman said smiling "thank you very much" I said before he left.

TOP was still frozen, a tear fell from his eyes "my angel, are you okay?" I asked softly "Ye-yes" he looked at the floor and started to sob "hey, sweetie... sweetie" I took his face into my hands "it's okay, it's okay. I'm here" he sobbed harder "I thought that... I will have to go with her" he closed his eyes "No, sweetie. I won't let that happen, I'll protect you until the end of the time" I tried to comfort him "see, sweetie. Let's go to other place, it's not safe here. And please try to not cry here, I know I told you to cry as long as you want but... we have to conceal our situation" he understood our condition quicker than I thought and then he nodded.

I took his hand, we went in the opposite direction to hers. I found a big store where many people were in, so we got into "we are safe here, I'll order the car to pick us up" I took my cellphone and called the car.

"_____" TOP said my name softly "yes, sweetie?" I responded "I have a problem" he said concerned, I looked at him "what?" he looked down to his pants "I... I peed my pants" he said almost crying.

I felt so f*cking bad, he was so much scared that he even peed. I was so mad at that 'girl' in that moment I wanted to went out of that store, find her and... well, I had to do my best to hide my fury, for him. I felt so impotence I almost wanted to cry. +

I couldn't imagine how much someone must fear a person for react that way, how much scared he was... That though made me felt the worst emotions I had ever experienced in all my life.

"Don't worry, it's okay" I took off my sweater and attached it to TOP's waist "this will cover it and, nobody will notice" I smiled "it's normal, sweetie" I took his hand, he nodded saying no word "the car will be here in no time and when we arrive home, you will take a shower and everything is gonna be alright" he said nothing, I felt dizzy... I was so shocked...

Whe the car arrived, TOP sat on the driver's seat in order to dissimulate, the car of course was driving by itself. TOP didn't said anything all the way home, he was just holding my hand. I also didn't talk because I didn't know what to say, maybe be quiet was better.

We arrived home, I locked the door, TOP failed on the ground and started to cry so much hard, I had never seen him like that. This time was different... this time he seemed so lonely, sad, it was like every single bad feeling he had was flooding him, as if trying to escape through his tears.

I looked at him a few seconds before ran into him. I hugged him tight "I love you, my angel" I said, not for told him about my love but to comfort him "you're going to be okay, I promise" I also cried a little without letting him know... seeing him like this was so terrible.

...

"I have to clean me up" he said then he broke apart from the hug "yes, I'll warm up the water" I offered "no, I can do it myself" he said emotionless, he entered in the bathroom and closed the door softly.

I sat on the couch... I was trying to collect my thoughts and figure out what I was going to do, I was also shocked.

First the expressions of that girl... Why she was so afraid about going to the police station? If she owned TOP legally, why would she be afraid?... She could have stolen TOP.

She of course was mentally unstable, so I couldn't be able to guess her next movement, I had to be careful. I also thought about... How could I had control myself? I really wanted to kill her in the moment she tried to touch him, but the image of TOP's face came to my mind... I realized that he was the reason.

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Too much time had already passed and TOP hadn't finished yet. I was getting worried, so I walked towards the door, I heard him sobbing.

I opened the door and saw him in the tub, he had been scrubbing his body too much that the skin that wasn't covered by bruises was quite red, it seemed like was about to bleed, however he didn't stop.

I took his hand in mine "stop it, you'll harm yourself" I said before hug him "I'm still dirty, it is not easy to remove " he tried to scrub his skin again tears were rolling down his face "you're not dirty, so please stop" I tried to reach his hand again "why don't you understand I'm dirty?!" He cried out, I was surprised by his reaction.

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Chapter 7

Pairing: TOP X READER

I took my keys in no time and ordered my car to be near the building's access to its parking lot. "Sweetie let's go" he walked dazed, of course I helped him so he wouldn't fall over.

As soon as we entered in the elevator he vomited a little again, I took off my jacket and gave it to him "Don't worry just throw it here" I was so terrified, I cannot describe that horrible feeling. Despite he wasn't vomiting so much, it was still red.

We got into the car "go to aunt's home, quickly" the car started to move, TOP was next to me holding my jacket which was coated with his blood and vomit. His hands were not blooding anymore, the bandages helped a lot also protected his injuries from the stomach acid.

I wanted to cry, I felt so bad. I called my aunt "what's going on, _____?" she fortunately answered his phone quick "are you at home now?" I said desperately "yes, yes, are you okay?" She answered worried "yes I'm okay but my friend is not, we're going to your house now" I explained her "okay just calm down, what symptoms do they have?" She asked "he's vomiting, he threw a blood cot and his vomit still has blood" I told her as the car parked in front of the house which was not so far from my apartment "we're here please open the doors" I left the car and ran to TOP's side, the door opened by itself, I took his arm to help him, my aunt ran to help him too. TOP was trying his best to not fall over, my aunt guided us inside her house, "have a sit, I'll check him" she said.

Sometimes later, TOP was a little better. My aunt gave him something to inhibit the vomit so he wouldn't harm more his esophagus.

"Although is not so much serious, we have to take him to the clinic. He must be keeping under observation" she said "he has a gastric ulcer due to a bacterial infection, it must be treated" she added. "Could we talk about this situation in the kitchen?" I asked her "sure" she went to the place I said "I'm going to talk about your illness with my aunt, don't be scared okay?" I told him, he nodded then I kissed his head.

"Aunt... I have something important to tell you" I said looking directly at her "what's wrong?" She said. In summary I told her quickly all the story you all know.

We went to the clinic. A new and fancy room was waiting for TOP, it was at the clinic's basement. The rooms at the basement were kind of expensive because they had its own bathroom, two beds, arm chairs and even a small table for the diseased's companion's comfort.

She told me that was a nice place for TOP, basically nobody can enter there unless they were allowed by her, and other reason of it's expensiveness was that those rooms were far away from the polluted air. Fortunately that clinic was my aunt's property, so we were safe and sound there.

"TOP, how do you feel now?" I asked kneeling on his bed's side "good" he said "we are going to be here for some days, but I promise you will recover quickly" he nodded happily in response. "_____" my aunt opened the room's door "we have to talk" she said.

...

We were at her office, she was behind her big desk "so... he's okay now, I gave him an intravenous saline solution, medicine and well... all he could need" she paused a little "then... Please tell me, what the hell, _____?" She looked disappointed.

"You know... I couldn't just leave him there" I looked at the ceiling "and, after I saw his body... I just couldn't leave him. Now I know that is not as easy as I thought, but look at his face" I looked at her directly "could you just leave him by himself? Despit-" she interrupted me "no" she stood up "I couldn't had done such a thing" she walked until she was in front of me "does your mom know this?" She asked "no" I answered "but I'll tell her" she placed her hand on my shoulder "well" she laughed a little "I don't know what to say now" I was a little shocked by her words, then I laughed too "take him to the country side, with your parents. He needs to experience something different from this filthy city" she said "yeah... I'll tell my parents, maybe we can go in two weeks weeks" she looked at me with an strange expression "your mom did an amazing job with your upbringing, I'm proud of you" she said caressing my cheek "thank you, but you also teach me lots of things about life" I hugged her "thank you, again" some tears fell down my cheeks "I might seem rough, but I need hugs and kisses too" I said, she laughed again "yes, you seem to be an independent person, sometimes rough... sometimes you look as if you really don't care, darling. But you are very sensitive too... I know it" she said hugging me back "and that's amazing. You are amazing, my favorite niece" she said, she knew I needed to hear that words once in a while, who wouldn't? It encourages you to keep going "I'm your only one niece" we laughed together. "Just be careful about the money, and that person, all I can say is that they are insane... Take care of yourself as well. Remember you're not taking care of a little animal as you have always done, he's a human and he has lots of problems with that person" she said, I was pretty concerned about this situation not for the things could happen to me, I didn't care... But if is TOP, I really care "I know, don't worry" I told her, I gave her a kiss on her cheek "keep in mind that this is gonna be kinda risky, if you need something tell me or if at some point you two feel in danger... Call me" I looked to my right side then at her eyes "I'll do it... I also have something to protect us... If I have to use it..." I said "your gun?" She asked "yes, I bought it for that purpose" she nodded "just use it if necessary" She pointed out "yeah, don't worry I got this" I said.

...

I went to TOP's room he was in the same position "sweetie" I called him, then he looked at me with a smile "_____" he called me back, I run into him and hugged his big torso "I'm happy you're here" he said "I'm happy too" I said nuzzling in his chest "hehe, tickling" he said.

"I like when you smile" he seemed confused "you like?" He asked "yes I think your smile is beautiful, is that bad?" He shook his head "no one... has ever told me that, it feels strange" I kissed his head "you are beautiful" he smiled shyly saying nothing.

At night I ate some of the clinic's food as TOP, I helped him to eat. "_____" he called me "yes, TOP?" he was shy again "are you going to be here?" I looked at him "what do you mean?" He didn't want to talk at first but I insisted "I... I want to sleep by your side... I don't want to sleep alone" I took his hand into mine "of course, sweetie. See, I will sleep in the other bed and I'll move it next to yours, so you will not be afraid about being in the same bed" he nodded approving my idea "okay then I'll move this" I walked towards the bed to push it

That night was kind of difficult, because he had a nightmare again. His body was trembling and he cried a little, I woke up as soon as I heard his sobbing.

I tried to call him out softly "mph, _____" he woke up abruptly "yes sweetie, I'm here" he was sweating and breathing too rapidly, his eyes looked directly to mine "TOP, everything is okay. I'm here" I caressed his cheek "TOP, it's okay" he was so scared he cannot calm down "_____" his heavy breathing didn't stopped "what's wrong, honey? I'm here, I'm gonna protect you as I told you, don't have to be afraid".

I tried my best to calm him but this time was useless "she's gonna come here" I was shocked "she?" I asked him, he didn't want to tell me at first, he was so unsettle that didn't even hear me.

At 4 am he was less scared, at least he could tell me part of who 'she' was "she... She... Used to hit me" he started to talk "she was not like you" when he ended his sentence I spread my arms and he quickly cozied up with me "She bought me and... My first time..." He was like afraid of told me that.

I thought about say something like 'if you don't want to say it, it's okay' but he continued "she hit my...my... She hit my ass with a belt" he started to cry "I told her I didn't like it and that it hurt but, but... She didn't stop and told me I was not allowed to talk" he trembled more than before "and, and" his lips were quivering hard while he tried to talked, his tears seemed to be endless "she started to touch me, it was rough. I-I couldn't stop her... I tried to, I swear" he cried harder "but I couldn't, I-I didn't want to do it that way" my chest was really hurting at each word he said nevertheless... I shouldn't stopped him, he needed to talk about this "she tied up my hands to the bed...

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Chapter 6

Pairing: TOP X READER

He said nothing, then I tried to figure out what to do. I had never met a person like him... You know, a person who had suffered a lot, who had serious trauma, who didn't socialize well with people because he was too much scared for.

It was so difficult, everytime I was thinking about what to say and what to do... I didn't want him to be hurt anymore. I wanted to help, however I didn't know well how to do it.

I said nothing and went to pay the makeup, he followed me while holding hands. "Thank you" I said to the shop assistant then we left the store. We walked around, looking for clothes and stuff he probably would need.

"You look nice" I said, when he after many minutes he left the fitting room wearing an outfit I chose for him. Perhaps dress by himself was difficult... he spread his arms as for check out if the clothes suited him.

After the things I said in the makeup store he didn't talk to me, 'maybe I have done something wrong' I thought. He looked himself in the mirror, I walked towards him "I don't like it" he said as soon as I was behind him "oh! you can choose your clothes if you want, don't have to wear this' I said "No, no the clothes".

I looked at him confused "It" he pointed to his reflection "I don't like it"... Once again I didn't what to do... 'Is it possible that he hated himself?' I asked to myself.

"Hey, come here" I took his hand and entered again in the fitting room. I reached his makeup which was in my jeans' pocket, with my fingers I put some over his tattoo "It disappeared" he said with wide opened eyes "yeah...".

He looked different now, I mean he was not mad at me, but he was like if trying to avoid talking to me... However, now his expression was different.

"Better, isn't it?" I said, "took of the clothes, we'll buy these and then... Let's go home" he nodded.

Maybe we stayed just a little at the Mall, not as long as I had planned, but TOP seemed to be tired, and not enough fine to be there. That mall was not so far from my house, nevertheless I thought that next time we should go to another one, so less people would recognize us.

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Finally I took a shower, could you believe that I forgot to? While I was in the shower, TOP was watching the TV of course I set up the child block so he wouldn't see the news... As I told you, news in these times are... Well, just very bad news.

When I finished changing my clothes I went to TOP's side when I sat down he shuddered, however when he saw my face he calmed down. "What are you watching?" I asked without mentioning his little shiver "a story about a boy and a girl" he said "it's a movie or a series?" I tried to have a longer talk with him "I don't know the difference" he told me "uhm, we can say that a movie is short compared to the series. A movie it's like a One-shot story and the series had many chapters sometimes" I said "oh... Then it's a movie" he told me watching the TV.

"_____" he said suddenly "yes?" I looked at him "why is he so nervous when she's around?" That was a love story... 'F*ck' I thought "oh... It's because he really likes her, and probably he fell for her" he tilted his head to one side as for trying to understand better the situation "And why isn't she nervous also?" He asked again "oh well, probably she haven't fall for him or she doesn't like him in that romantic way" he was watching carefully "But why?" He asked "sometimes you don't like people in that way, and sometimes viceversa, love is kind of complicated" he never looked at other direction "oh..." He said "so, what happens if you like someone and that someone doesn't like you in the same way?" He asked again as a little child, so many questions for me "well you reject them or you get rejected, sometimes hurts sometimes not so much. It depends on the person, on you, the situation".

The movie ended, fortunately it has a nice ending the girl finally fell for the guy... the typical history, nevertheless it seemed to be pretty new for TOP.

Time flies... the next day was the same. I woke up with a head over my chest and a nose buried on my neck. This time we were not so lucky so, I had to go to school.

Now TOP was more confident and not so much scared of me when he do simple things as drink some water, eat a fruit although he insisted on ask for my permission. I guessed he was recovering a little, I liked it.

At that moment he was at the kitchen looking for something. Suddenly, I heard a glass broking 'he's gonna cut himself' I thought as I went quickly into the kitchen.

That scene... He looked so scared trying to fix what he had done, he was terrified and some tears rolled down his eyes while he wanted to pick up quickly the small pieces of broken glass with trembling hands.

"TOP, don't worry I'll fix this, you could hurt yourself" I tried to reach his right shoulder he went back and covered his face with his arms "I'm so stupid" he said loud "Sorry, Don't... I didn't mean to" he yelled while sobbing hard.

His eyes were closed, he was kneeled still covering his face "sweetie, sweetie. I'm ____, don't you remember?" I touched his shoulder "ah" he yelled a little "TOP, TOP, let me see your hands, you have cut your hands" I was trying to convince him however he was panicked, he never looked at me, he was still sobbing hard and covering his face. "TOP, I need to treat your hands" blood started to fall over the floor "TOP, TOP, look at me" I said softly "please...".

I couldn't believe what was going on. The scene didn't let me think well, his bloody hands, his sobbing... 'what should I do?' I thought desperate. "Shh, it's okay sweetie" I hugged him tight, he shuddered violent and yelled when I reached his body.

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Many minutes later he was less scared "____" he said, "what's wrong, my sunshine?" I told him sweetly "you..." He hesitated "you're not... Mad?" He asked shyly as he looked at my eyes with fear.

Maybe you are wondering why I hadn't took him to the doctor, well is complicated... He was a 'robot' and if his 'owner' had gone to the police station to file a complain or a missing report. I probably could had been arrested for 'stole someone's property' and him by that time could had been returned to them. I didn't want to say this, but if he escaped he would had been punished and by seeing his injured body he could be probably tortured and then killed by them.

I didn't know if he escaped, however just think about it: if he escaped or was just left in that place, he was now with me... and that horrible person would think he tried to escape anyways. I couldn't had be able to do anything also I would be in jail and maybe... by the time I could had get out, he could be died. I had to think carefully what to do, I had no more than one chance and if I fail well... you know the rest.

Of course I was thinking about going to see my aunt, she is a doctor. I knew that she will understand and that she was going to help us.

At that day we had to visit my aunt's house sooner than I expected, the reason? TOP started to vomit when he calmed down after broke the glass of water, he threw a blood cot. His mouth was full of blood and he's teeth completely crimson colored.

His t-shirt and jeans were covered with his mouth's and hands' blood. I were so much scared "oh my God, TOP" I helped him to stood up, I almost run for the first aid kit, quickly I washed his hands in the kitchen's sink, and treated his cuttings. He seemed he was not understanding what was happening "TOP, sweetie we have to go to the doctor".

Hey there! These is Alex, sorry again for the late updating... Sometimes varsity is not easy. However, hope you enjoy this chapter. Maybe I update again tomorrow.

Thanks for all your love ❤️

(fun fact: today I was writing this in class and my friend David tried to know what I was doing. Then he asked me and I said "none of your business" he tried to figure out again "is it a love letter?" He insisted many minutes that it was a love letter although I said it wasn't "aww you're writing this for someone, let me help ya, you always help me" he insisted on saw what I was writing. Then I told that was something for practicing English I was not going to tell him I write fanfiction, lol. Then I continue writing, and he tried to see again, so I covered my writing with the notifications bar "why you cover it, after all I don't speak English" he said) Maybe it was not fun at all, but in Spanish I guess was funnier 😂💞

Love y'all 🐾❤️🦊💞