Pieces of Honor
Chapter 14
We are now moving to the capital as quickly as possible, we covered him better with a throw Lu Feng had in the luggage compartment. âWe have some people at the capital, do you want them to buy anything for the baby?â he offers âyes, pleaseâ I ask them to buy everything Ahmed will need in two days and for the travel.
Seunghyun has been holding him all the time, he appears to be happy with his job âare you gonna change his name?â Lu Feng asks âno, it will be Ahmed, in memory of his motherâ Lu Feng smiles and then looks at the babyâs face âheâs gonna be handsome as Uncle Fengâ I laugh hard at his words âUncle Feng?â I ask jokingly âof courseâ he says with a proud smile.
âIs him gonna be the son of you both or...?â I chuckle âno, we are still very immature, donât you think?â Lu Feng nods âjust a littleâ he says. âI think my father will not disagree about Ahmed being my brotherâ Lu Feng caress the cheeks of the baby a little âBoss Zhao will accept, Iâm sure, Mr. Zhao has a big heartâ he says, then his phone makes a ring sound âoh! the korean messaged me, he has found all the things you needâ he says looking at his phoneâs display âDaesung?â I ask, he just nods âI canât pronounce his name very wellâ he admits, so Daesung has been at the capital all this time.
Seunghyun and I have been taking care of Ahmed in these days, we took him to a pediatrician, he said Ahmed was too small due to he had not been eating properly, but he will be okay. âI think someone has just soil himselfâ Seunghyun said in a sweet tone to Ahmed âLetâs change your diaper, big boyâ he knows better than me how to take care of a child, he commented on the night we arrived at the capital he used to take care of the babies of his fatherâs sister.
Lu Feng entered in our bedroom âwhoâs here? my handsome Ahmed!â he was cheerful âFeng, are we leaving now?â he nodded âin five minutesâ Ahmed was laughing all the time while being pampered by us Â
âBy the way, my sister is with a child, maybe heâs the same age as Ahmed, she can give him some breast milkâ I smile at him âthank you, it will be the best food for himâ.
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âDad!â I hug him as soon as I step into the house âwhereâs my mother?â I ask him, I look at his face âsheâs sleepingâ it is a little bit strange but, I say nothing about it âwhereâs Seunghyun?â I hesitate to tell him heâs with Ahmed. I decide to tell him first the whole story. After many minutes I end my story about how do I found Ahmed, my father takes it well âwhereâs him?â he asks me referring to Ahmed, now he is going to be my brother, Ahmed Zhao, his name is a little interesting, isnât it?
Seunghyun enters after I messaged him, Lu Feng is behind him. My father takes the little baby in his arms âyou know how to take care of childrenâ he points out to Seunghyun, my boyfriend smiles proud and nods âheâs the best option for youâ my father winks at me. Â
Me and Seunghyun blush hard at his words. My mother comes from nowhere, suddenly she is just looking at Ahmed, she seems not well, like she has been sleeping a lot or not sleeping. Her hair is a mess, she is not even wearing makeup, which is rare, but she appears to not care about this, neither the guys in front of her.
âLook, sweetheart, this is our babyâ my father tells her âour baby? my baby?â my mother asks deeply lost in Ahmed eyes, she hurries to carry him, smiling sweetly. I feel something is wrong. âYes, your babyâ my father stays by her side, he is worried about my motherâs current health I can see it in his eyes.
Whatever, we went to do our normal things this afternoon, except for my mom she has been holding Ahmed all this time. We are having dinner, my mom even doesnât look to Seunghyun, most of the time she usually glares at him but now it is different she barely notices our presence.
My dad and I go to talk after dinner time, maybe is about my mom...
âso... she had a miscarriage?â I ask, I canât believe it, I barely can think what to say next âyes, she has been tensed because of thatâ I felt my heart heavy, I suddenly felt a kind of strange sadness âI...â I try hard to find words but thereâs nothing and nothing again âI know, daughter this is hard for her, she was pretty happy when she discovered she was pregnant, Iâm trying to be strong for her, but at some points it gets difficultâ my dad takes a seat, so I do.
âYou should have seen her when you left, she was holding Ahmed like he meant everything to herâ I smile to this, I remembered when his mother did the same, now she can rest in peace, he will have a mother who will love him, some tears menace to fall from my eyes but I hold them all. âIâm happy, she will be happy with Ahmedâ I finally speak âwe, we are going to be happy, as a familyâ. So, my mom has been tensed for this... now I canât blame her for reaction in such a rude way.
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Me and my lover are in my bedroom now, holding each other close âwhy didnât you take Ahmed as your own child?â he asks âof course, I was planning to take care of him with youâ he added âgosh! Seunghyun you really like children, donât you?â he chuckles âwell, I do not feel prepared, you know?â he nods understanding my feelings, then he kisses my earlobe âin the future?â he asks with a begging pout in his lips âyes, in the future...â
âHow will we name them?â he asks holding my waist while he mimicking a slow dance with me around my bedroom âI donât know, have you thought about it?â he nods âof course, my lady, if is a girl I would name her as you, if is a boy you will chose itâ I chuckle âso, you have planned our whole life, havenât you?â I cup his cheeks âyes, all of itâ he furrows his eyebrows in admiration âyou are so beautifulâ.
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I check my clock it is 2 am, and we canât sleep, we used to be awake at this time, well... we were alert all the time. I can hear Ahmed crying in the hallway, I get up âis that Ahmed, honey?â my lover asks. Him walking behind me, I open the door and take a peek, my father is there singing a lullaby for Ahmed to calm him âdad?â I ask walking through the hallway âoh, did he wake you both up?â he asked âno, we canât sleepâ he keeps rocking Ahmed.
âOh, I see, sorry. I didnât want your mother to wake up, sheâs very tiredâ he explains âso, I thought it will be better if we werenât in the bedroomâ I nod âdad, youâre not doing it right, let me helpâ I carry Ahmed in my arms, rocking him in a special speed âoh! so, you are telling me I canât calm my own sonâ he says crossing his arms, faking his annoyance âDad! Iâm not saying so!â
We were whispering for not waking up my mother âIâd carried you many nights, and you always fell asleep in my arms, so, donât tell me how to do itâ we were faking a fight âwell, Iâm sorry dadâ I chuckle âhe is clean I checkedâ my dad says again now talking more seriously âmaybe heâs hungryâ Seunghyun comments.
âOh, right! whereâs his milk?â my father asks âdad, youâre pretty tired go to sleepâ he seems unsure âdad, please go to sleep, we will take care of himâ he makes a face of fake disappointment âwell, but, if you need me you will wake me up, okay?â he both bow âgoodnight, little angel, you sister is gonna take care of youâ he kisses Ahmedâs forehead and then mine âgoodnight, sonâ he says to Seunghyun, he bows again.
Now we are in the kitchen, my lover is making the milk while I sing for my little brother âsee, this is the right temperatureâ he lets fall some drops of milk in the back of my hand âhere you go, big boyâ he says. We stayed there for minutes, Ahmed was hungry, then my lover pats a little Ahmedâs back so, he wonât puke. âWhat about triplets?â he asks suddenly, while I finish cleaning our mess of milk âwe barely can handle it with one you need more?â I ask while smiling âmore funâ
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Alex





















