My friends and I were on the bus to school and one of them was telling us about her younger cousin and her experience at a teenage disco. She said her cousin had walked through the doors and the first thing she seen was two girls kissing. If Iām honest, my heart kind of filled with joy. I thought thank God, the world is finally changing and people of LGBT community are being accepted into the world! Itās such a step forward. However my friends reaction was, wow! Imagine at that age? Jesus. And no it wasnāt because it was two young teenagers kissing because in Ireland, thereās a lot more things going on than kissing at teenage discos. It was because it was two young girls kissing. People of the same sex and imagine they know already that theyāre gay? How can they know? So I explained to them how I felt about the situation, how I was ecstatic that now members of the LGBT community could experience teenage discos just like how the majority of us did, getting to kiss the person you like. Or even just getting to kiss a stranger who asked you to (ācause thatās how we roll in Ireland) And how just like they knew they liked guys from a young age, those people knew they liked girls. Or maybe not, maybe itās a recent discovery, but regardless of that, itās not a phase and most definitely shouldnāt be disregarded as one because of their age. Their response was that they werenāt used to it all, that is was alien to them. And I thought nothing other than wellā¦ Time to fucking get used to it. I donāt have the patience for people being uncomfortable with love and attraction, Iāve gone to school with these people from the age of four and throughout our years in school weāve had lessons that told us being gay is okay and itās normal and we must accept everyone and theyāre telling me theyāre not used to it? Bull. Weāve been subject to differently sexualities for a long time now. Iāve wanted to come out as bisexual for a while now, part of what stopped me was not knowing if I was really bi or not and to be honest, Iām still slightly unsure of it all but part of it was because I know I will be making some of my female friends uncomfortable. I know theyāre going to feel Iām attracted to them and Iām looking at their bodies or Iām sexualising them. When in reality, I never could, not that theyāre not lovely people but theyāre my friends and I could never see them that way. Just the way I have guy friends who I could never like that way. The only person Iāve told is my boyfriend and he was brilliant, he made it seem like we were just talking about any other thing. And I hope that someday Iāll be able to have that same conversation with my female friends, but for now Iāll stay quiet, I only have a few months left in school and I donāt want those few months to be awkward. And also, Iām still not completely solid on all of it, Iād like to be comfortable with it and understand it all more before I go preaching it. Except for on here of course ;) Sorry for the long rant, needed to get some things out and i thought what better place than tumblr ^-^ send me asks if you have any questions although itās probably too long for anyone to read, lel. Tenk you and goodnight. (Itās 11am but wutever)
