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Well today after school I went to eat lunch with bhuv at cw's long john silver. Quite surprising I knw but I didn't rlly feel like going home yet so yah. We ate thr and have some talks. She asked how is me and z getting along. So I decided the told her that we've already kissed. French kissed too. She was shocked, really shocked. Then she told me to be careful. I asked why. But she just said be careful. Then I asked why again and I wanted her to tell me, because she has a lot of friends with relationship problems and she heard like so much of it. Then she told me. One of her friends have experienced this before. This guy and girl was like us, kisses and love you's without asking her to be his girlfriend. The girl was in love with him too and they both made some intimate actions. She thought they were a couple. The girl was rlly in love with him and gave him her money whenever he needed it. Then she ran out of money. The guy began avoiding her. She asked why, "bhy, why are you avoiding me?" Then guess what did he reply? He said. "Bhy? Who's your bhy? I was nvr your boyfriend. I love you as a sister. Those were just normal kisses..." Then the bullshit continues. I was worried after listening to her story. And its rlly like me and z. I love you's, hugs and kisses. I really don't knw what to do. I want to ask him, but I guess now is rlly not the right time to do so. With his mum like this... I don't want to upset him any further or anything. But I really hope none of this will ever happen to us. His graduating this year, and I'm worried. Pls don't ever do this to me z, I just hope to say that - we're the perfect two. Because I really love you.

Hellu, today was a lovely day, hehe <3 I went to school as usual, when I was on the way to the canteen I saw Z stading alone there, so I went over to hit his bag, haha. I bet he was shocked or something. Then it was boring lessons. Last period was math, at the library. Then lessons ended I was at the tables outside packing my stuffs when his class were walking from the other block. He walked passed me but he ignored me, I thought what happened! Then he walked towards my direction again. I asked whr was he going then he said the toilet, haha. Then he came out and I asked whr was he going. He said to meet his friend at the canteen. I was also heading that way because I was with amanda. Then he sat a table beside ours, with his back facing me. I was still kinda worried because what was more important than me in his phone?! He was using his phone, talking to his friends and I was sitting there like a dumb. Then amanda told me I should be less clingy, then I thought maybe I should. Cause I kept asking him and all. Then awhile later amanda's mum came and I walked her to the gate, without telling him la. Then on the way I saw bhuva nearly crying. She had a gastric ache. Crying so badly. Then priya ask me go buy food wtf. She cnt buy meh? So I went to canteen but the queue was damn freaking long. Then i saw z. He said he'll later then go home. Then i asked why he stayed back for, he said to do some work. Then i asked, 'until what time? I go home first?' then he said no!!! 5mins only okay? So i said okay then i went back to bhuva's. They wanted to get milo so we went back to the canteen. My job to get it again. So yeah... Then z was ready to leave so i just left. We were walking with his friend, then he said his going to the hospital, asked if i wanted to go. Then i'm like huh, for what?! He touched my hand and his hand was cold. I really thought we were going to alexandra hosp lol... So his friend dropped at the hosp and left me and him. We sat really close - shoulder to shoulder. Hehe :-) so we talked about crazy stuffs. Then while we were walking home his hand kept bumping into mine, by purpose. So when we reached my house lift, they were washing the floors so we went to the middle lift. I was already at the lift. So i said bye. Then he said, bye only? Then i said, i love you!! You said, huh? So far i cannot hear. Haha. So i said it again abit louder. He wanted me to come down, but the lift was here. So i went up like that, haha! Then he said he's still downstairs. So i went down again. Then he was sitting at the mailbox area. So i sat behind him for a few minutes. Till he asked me to go up. So i stood up and walked to the lift, he followed. Then said bye. He said bye too. Then i was walking up 3 steps of the stairs, when he pulled my hand. He pulled me closer and he leaned forward. Well i'm not really sure if he did kissed me, or just had his face on mine. But i was really :-) then he said 'bye, i love you' then i was shocked but i still said i love you too. It was such a lovely moment. I'll never forget it. Z, love you. Muah <3

Today is 1st of Feb, which means 13 more days to valentine's day! Hmmm... Will Z do anything? Confess? Gifts? Flowers? Haha I'm excited and I know I'm dreaming. He will give meh... anyway. And remember J? He's talking to me again. He broke up already :O (I still like Z la ok) oh haha remember the indian guy who liked me? He still does omg. And he told girl B to ask me go to clementi on valentine's day to take present lol -_- I believe girl B still has feelings for him. And obviously, I will reject his gift. What will happen on 14 Feb??!! Hahaha can't wait :-)