#bffbreakup

Alex and Sierra

I was never her best friend in the first place anyway. 

Acceptance: “It’s time to sign up for bumble BFF. RIP friendship.”

Does she miss having a boyfriend? Yes. Does she miss having someone to talk to? Of course. Does she miss having that one guy who she can spend her time with? Absolutely. Does she miss cuddling with someone during the day or as she falls asleep? You know it. Does she miss being in a relationship? Truthfully, yeah. Does she miss getting some lovin' from that special someone? Oh, hell yeah. Does she miss having someone who's always there for her? Admittedly, yes. Does she miss going on dates and celebrating anniversaries? She really does. Does she miss being spoiled by a guy who truly adores her? Oh my god, yes. Does she miss being told that she's missed and loved by a guy that she misses and loves dearly? The answer is yes. But does she miss getting lied to? No. Does she miss arguing over the same stupid things? Of course not. Does she miss being told that she's crazy? Absolutely not. Does she miss crying every so often? You know she doesn't. Does she miss being misunderstood when she's trying to explain how she feels? Truthfully, no. Does she miss sharing a bed with someone she feels so distant from? Oh, hell no. Does she miss stressing over a guy who just seems to add on more stress? Admittedly, no. Does she miss breaking up just to get beck together only to break up again? She really doesn't. Does she miss feeling like a bad girlfriend because her boyfriend would make her feel like shit? Oh my God, no. Does she miss hating and resenting the guy who's supposed to make her happy and joyful? The answer is no. And that's why she's better off single.

I’m immensely happy we’re no longer friends. Calling you last week to beg for your friendship back was hitting rock bottom. Truth is no one should have to beg for neither love nor friendship. I wish you nothing more than what you deserve. And I thank you for making me realize how much better off I am, helping me understand I don’t need people like you in my life.

Dedicated to (as of today) my former best friend. Dear (ex) Best Friend, through our experiences, we learned to love and trust each other like sisters but somewhere along our friendship, you stopped being a sister and became an acquaintance. We had always loved that our birthdays were only days apart and made it a habit to celebrate together but this year, you could care less. Your lack of remorse for having forgotten our annual plans was the final proof I needed to accept you were not the same person I befriended at the beginning. I was in a one sided friendship for the past year and I had been in denial because I couldn't believe that you would ever do that to me. I thought my standards had been too high and I tried to adjust them for the first time. I have had a few best friends before but I was sure that it was my expectations that were the problem this time. Then you kept doing things I had never seen a "best friend" do. You knew I was having an awful day and you didn't say a word to me. You knew I felt left out but never bothered to make me feel included. You keep making empty promises that instead of owning up to, you blame me for not reminding you to keep. You accused me of thinking you weren't a good friend yesterday. But I do believe you're a good friend, just no longer a best friend. Our friendship had shifted from being equal effort to a one-sided effort in the past year. Our whole friendship mirrors a typical relationship process: we clicked at the beginning, became amazing best friend who relied on each other, and eventually, one of us changed and the other didn't; causing an inevitable rift. I had to guilt trip you to meet with me before you left town yesterday because you were planning to leave without even saying a word to me. Do you even understand how shocking it is that your "best friend" would do that? From your reaction, I could tell you didn't. Even though I verbally ended our friendship yesterday, you had already given up long ago. And you know what sucked for me the most? You getting all defensive and asking me what I wanted you to do to "fix" all of this. So I told you it would make me feel better if we went through with the birthday dinner we had talked about for weeks. Then you gave me a reply that was straight out of a movie that I couldn't even fathom. "I have eggs and food in my car that needs refrigerating and I need to leave now to put them in my fridge." You freaking serious?! Why did you even ask me? Was it meant to be a rhetorical question? I'm laughing about it right now as I write this but in that moment, my jaw dropped. You picked saving some food over saving our friendship. And that was the moment I knew I hadn't made a mistake in telling you we obviously weren't friends anymore. You made the decision before I did, I was just the one who had to say it out loud. I just gave you your birthday gift and replied that I was glad I now understand where your priorities lie before angrily taking off in my car. Despite how angry I am at your indifference and fake attempts at savaging our friendship, I really do hope you have a happy birthday. Although our friendship came to a bitter end, we did have a lot of good times that I will always cherish. Thank you for being a lesson that will help shape who I am. I hope you find a new best friend who you will not repeat this cycle to and realize why you have so many friends/acquaintances but no best friend. But who knows, maybe you prefer it that way? Best of luck. Sincerely, MV

Me: brb texting Satan