#bellebehindagun

So I have the COVID-19. On top Of My Cystic Fibrosis and Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome and Dysautonomia, and Mastocytosis, etc. Plus! A new and exciting heart condition that can also give me a heart attack whenever it wants. I'm on meds from my cardio and more from my Pulmonologist. They kicked me out of ER cause my normal daily symptoms of Cystic Fibrosis are the same as COVID-19 symptoms.

Please help signal boost is you can! You never know who can help or who will share!

This is why I have had a viral sinus infection that never got better after five rounds of antibiotics and steroids. No one should need that much antibiotics within nine months.

Basically everything that was being saved for important medical things is all gone for this emergency and then all of any other pittance money I have during this time is gone too.

I have to do my own nursing and I need help everyday to just remmwber what I need to do.

This is the worst I've felt mentally and physically in so long. Especially when I thought I was actively dying the other day. Luckily they didn't have to use the paddles and they said I was so calm and they couldn't understand why. My fiancé explained that I have these issues before and I've done my best to control it with meditation and staying calm.

Music has saved me and so have friends and family.

Thanks to my tumblr community who still remembers and cares about me!

I remember and care about y'all!

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It's so great to feel human again!

Huge thanks to my people who got me through this shit time.

We've all got scars...

Whether they are visible or not, they matter. Whether you want them or not, you overcame something big to get them. Don't hide them. They are part of you now. They will fade over time and become a remembrance/reminder of what you have made it through. Scars can be Beautiful. Inside or out.

We got this.

I was tagged by @theprincessallieee 💜

Nicknames: uhh... Belle, TamberJune,June, TJ, Tamberine, Señorita, Sissy .... & I am forgetting others I am sure..

Zodiac Sign: Capricorn/Aquarius cusp. I definitely am both.

Last movie I saw: The Big Sick (at home), Five Feet Apart (in theaters and I would go again but it'll be out next month!)

Last thing I Googled: "New Ulta Beauty near me"

Favorite musician: Jon Bellion (I am going to see him this summer!)

Song stuck in my head: When We Pray- Tauren Wells & Prayer for the Road- Eli Young Band

Other blogs: @bellethe2nd

My follower count: 361, and you're all lovely! Excepting pornbots...

How many I follow: 274

Amount of sleep I get: it varies. I usually total around 7-8 hours, but it's very interrupted and not restful or refreshing at all.

Lucky Number: 4

Dream Job: Genetic Researcher focusing on rare diseases.

What I'm wearing right now: black yoga pants and black cami

Favorite Food: crushed ice.... Also, Ice Cream... in case Ice doesn't count as a food.

Languages I speak: English, Español (Mexico), French (Especially when coming out of anesthesia...), Pig Latin, some ASL, a little bit of German and Ballet (a universal language;).

Instruments I play: Viola (for many, many years), and I'm just starting to learn Handbells (they don't look like bells but they sound the same and are easier to use).

Favorite song: I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)- The Proclaimers and Don't Give Up (On Me)- Andy Grammer.... For now...

Random fact about me: I went to 12+ different schools before college...

Describe your aesthetic: Pleasing ;p Also, feminine and tough as hell (mentally... Physically, Not so much).

Say hello to my little friend (that keeps me alive =).....

I am tube-fed and glad to still be up and kickin' for the people I love 💚💚

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?