Sometimes I wish the world would just go away and leave me alone it's so hard being shy
So today I had to have a presentation with a team that basically ignored me the entire time I was there and left me to do work on my own because the people that were in the group seem to know each other which isn't the problem generally but in this case it really made things difficult with regards to me being able to talk to anybody so I felt incredibly shy which led me to be completely non-conversational and keep to myself and I'm trying my hardest to get over this and avoid feeling this way but again I find that my selective mutism comes into play and gives me incredible anxiety which saves me from being able to be a part of the group. It's OK I tell myself every day that I'm going to be part of the group and try harder and do everything that I can to make sure that I participate and then I try to participate and somehow it always gets messed up
