I am training my mind to react more aware, more consciously when it comes to trigger points. Being faced with an intense situation, where I instantly get triggered, I realize that this trigger is there to teach me to react differently and points to hidden shadows.Instead of ignoring them or pushing them away, I rather use this energy (may it be anger, hate, frustration) and alchemize it. Searching for real ways to amplify my energy field instead of always running away from the situation. I'm sick of my escapism. This is a good basis for change. Movement and stillness as one element have been my greatest teachers this year. Reacting more calm and relaxed in highly triggering situations has changed the game for me on a total level. Feeling the energy in motion is essential, otherwise this energy will remain stagnant, waiting to be resolved and released. Movement releases. Releases pain, grief, anger, frustration. Especially anger can be extremely useful when it comes to transforming. I was surprised when I found out how powerful anger energy can be in terms of movement. Instead of projecting my anger towards something or somebody(much worse though) or to keep it 'stuck' , I allow it to leave as it enters. To flow out as it flows in. Movement accelerates that process in a certain way. Movement is multilayered. It can be anything that feels good . Music, Dancing, Writing and certain yogic exercises turned out to be very useful tools for me and became my hobbies, my motivation and my discipline improvement. I used to live in my head A LOT. And by a lot i mean A LOT. More frequent movement makes it easier to move this energy inside of my body as much as on the outside, as well. Calming down and relaxing in a situation where I feel extremely provoked, frustrated or angry requires also a lot of discipline and honesty to myself. But I am thankful for this painful process, releasing all of the stored energy inside of me. There is so much of it and it will be an adventourous journey for sure! At the same time, it feels like breaking out of my old self into change and transformation. More ease, more flow, more movement. More Soullanguage . And a more opened heartchannel despite all of the pain and grief I have been experiencing this year. Those emotions were there just as joy or laughter. They have a right to be there . They have a right to enter. But eventually , they are also allowed to leave. Pain taught me a lot about myself.
