#being interviewed

hi can you please help me😓😓 what interview is this from/ do you have the link for it? I've never seen the full thing and I wanna!! Thank you!!! 🤍🤍

Sending this to you this way instead of dm because for some reason I cant send images in dms atm (?)

it comes from this!!

#interview, yeay!

A full time editor?? Yeah. I honestly think I would love that. If I could start a new career path, that’s the one I’d start down. I love to edit. HOWEVER PLEASE DON’T ASK ME TO UNLESS I HAVE IN THE PAST OR I’VE OFFERED!! I just don’t have time or brain power to do that anymore. I used to beta a TON, but I have trouble focusing lately, and I don’t want to do anything half-assed. Read is hard right now :(

The one decision that makes me look back and smile? You read for cheese? Not getting scared and running away when this 30 year old, tattooed, pierced, biker looking musician dude asked me out. Yup, letting my hubby kiss me for the first time was the best decision of my life and I wouldn’t take back a second of that or our time together. 

I’ve not noticed the Butterfly Effect happening in my life because I’ve never traveled back in time to change something because you DON”T MESS WITH THAT STUFF!! lol. This is interesting to me, because I’m working out a story that literally, the working title is “Butterfly Effect” so... that’s fun ;) it’s gonna be a tear-jerker fo sho.

 Who’s more beautiful, Jared or Jensen??? How DARE YOU! I was just starting to like you. OK... Jensen is so perfect and just gorgeous, but ... Jared. Jared because I can see his soul on his face and he can invoke emotion in me with just a single look. When I met him... JFC... he lit up my heart. So I’m going with Jared. 

Who looks like they’re aging more? NEWS FLASH: THEY BOTH ARE AND IT’S AMAZING. And i’m sorry, you can tell me 10000x that “Jensen Ackles doesn’t age” and I’ll tell you 30000x to fuck off. Because he DOES LOOK 40. But there’s nothing wrong with that. He looks so so incredible. Give me lines and cracks and grays and pudge. THAT’S A MAN. Give me THAT. I don’t want male-model 22 year old perfect looking Jensen. I want 39 year old, I’m aging like a mother-fucking-$500 a bottle scotch Jensen. They both look so much better to me now that they’ve got a little wear on them. Jared too, oh lord, don’t even get me started on the gray hairs... I wanna just... GAHHHH *dies*

Why does everyone keep asking why I’m awesome? I just am, ok?!? And so are you! We’re all awesome. I just get more attention about it. lol. You’re awesome, I’m awesome, That dude over there is awesome, that chick is awesome... not that guy, he’s creepy. but we are ALL AWESOME! The end!

#Interview, yeay!

Interview! Yeay!  --

I started writing SPN fic because I had read like everything on fanfiction.net and needed more. Just… gimmie. So I wrote some for myself.

I started writing about Sam and Dean I think July 2016? The first thing I wrote was an OC series called The Tall Handsome One for my friend. And shortly after I wrote Every Flavor… for me. ;)

I posted on fanfiction.net. I still have an account over there that I don't keep up. I was nervous to post on tumblr for some reason, so I lurked a long while before actually posting some fics.

I always wrote. I’m a songwriter too, or used to be back in the day. I've also written 3 screenplays and a stage show, two half novels, and 2 books that have been actually published. I just really like Sam and Dean, OK?? Lol

My fave thing about writing the boys is when I get to write brotherly banter. I love love love Dean trying to be funny and Sam just rolling his eyes and annoyed. Love it.

I actually had to go through my masterlist and check notes, as I have no idea which fic “is the most successful” but my top notes are on Enchanted Encounter (Dean smut, shocking I know). But what is successful? No one’s ever talked to me about that one, it just happens to have the most notes. I think Escape was the most successful to me, because people were engaged by it.

The fic I’m most proud of? I don’t know. I love my long form fics because they take so much out of me, and I’m always nervous to post them at their full lengths. It’s Worth It, No Rest For The Weary, The Heart of The Matter, stuff like that.

The fic I was most excited to post… Idk. anytime I write a smut and I’m like “oooohhhh shit” I’m excited to post it because I love seeing people respond to it.

#Interview, yeay!

I think one of my favorite things about being a mother is just a daily dose of pride and awe. and I get to do kid things again and no one looks at me funny. Like... I can buy yoohoo and juicy juicy again because they’re yummy. and right now I’m sitting on the couch watching Sam & Cat, and... J has disappeared, but this show’s funny so I’m still watching. lol. “Oh, you can’t do that, you’re an adult!” “Oh yeah??... I have kids... boom. suck it.”

He is so so cute, thank you. We’re not really sure where he came from, but we’re not giving him back. lol 

If I could change one thing, honestly - I’d give us a little more money. I don’t need to be a millionaire or anything, just need to pay the bills and have some left over to save up. Retirement is gonna be... never at this point and my boys best be getting scholarships to college. lol. 

If I had the chance, would I actually have sex with Jensen or Jared? ... Yes. Not even joking. I’ve thought a lot about this. lol. I legitimately had a “Hall Pass” for NJCon, and I made it very very clear to my darling husband that if either of those men asked, I was going to go. I love my husband, I do. But... there are a few people in this world that would make me stray, and J2 are both of them. lol. So, yeah. 

Do I ever feel discouraged by my writing? YES. I know y’all see me crank out fics constantly and think it’s so easy, but honestly, behind the scenes I’m terrible. my poor friends. I get into these slumps where I have 30 wips started and no flow at all. That just leads me down this hole of self doubt and disgust until I can crank something out, get a little feedback, and suddenly my mojo returns. And yeah, sometimes I NEED THE FEEDBACK. We all do. Don’t act like you don’t. It is important. I’m not gonna stop writing if no one reads my stuff, but that little recognition IS important. Especially when you’re doubting yourself.