#beforians

Let me start by saying that I don't condone Violence, especially between highbloods when around lowbloods, and doubly so, not in a workplace, which should be professional.

I (purple, 40s, beforian) work in an office. A coworker of mine (purple, 30s, beforian) and I got into an argument in regards to another coworker. She is a larger bodied goldblood, who has issues with psionic usage. He suggested that eXercise might help with the matter. I cautioned him that telling a plus sized person to eXercise can be in poor taste, and brought up medicull discrimination as a supporting thesis.

He brought to my attention that his kismesis is a doctor, and a respectable one. I did try to add that I was not insulting all doctors, howeVer, it was too little, too late. He pushed me, and I responded by striking him, paired with some strong words.

Here is where I may be the asshole. We were standing in the break room, accessible to all workers in the office, including lowblooded staff. A lower leVel employee (oliVe, I belieVe under 20) who I was preViously Very friendly with became frightened by the action, as did some others. While most told me that they understood my outburst, he has become Very shy and nerVous around me. Where he used to say hello to me, he now rushes away, refuses to make eye contact, and frequently acts anXious around me when unable to leaVe quickly. I haVe attempted to apologize to him for my outburst, and specifically for frightening him, howeVer, he became flustered, and quickly ended the conVersation.

This is Very distressing to me. We had a cordial relationship before, and I do not want him to feel threatened by me. I understand that to some eXtent I haVe no control oVer his emotions, but I did haVe control oVer my own actions. Others tell me to let it go, and not question it. I'm not so certain. Am I the asshole?

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・This is so embarrassing… So, my friend {13, lime, alternian} came to visit me {12, fuchsia, beforian} for a sleepover and well >_< um…・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・Something happened in a scary movie and totally fightened me! I got scared bad, and he reached over and papped me with bits warm lime hands… Which was nice, but…・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・It scared me so bad that I punched zip without thinking…・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・I feel bad and apologized but I have strong fuchsia strength so I hurt them pretty bad.・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・AITA? Should I send more edible arrangements?・┆✦ʚ♡ɞ✦ ┆・

✱SO❉ ❉I❉ ❉(6,TRANSWHITEBLOOD,BEFORIAN)❉ ❉RECENTLY❉ ❉WENT❉ ❉OUT❉ ❉WITH❉ ❉MY❉ ❉CV113RR❉ ❉(13,TEAL,BEFORIAN)❉ ❉ON❉ ❉A❉ ❉"MENTAL❉ ❉HEALTH❉ ❉WALK"❉ ❉TO❉ ❉"MAKE❉ ❉(ME)❉ ❉ADJUST❉ ❉TO❉ ❉REALITY"❉ ❉OR❉ ❉WHATEVER,❉ ❉AND❉ ❉I❉ ❉NOTICED❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉THERE❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉A❉ ❉LOT❉ ❉OF❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉ON❉ ❉THE❉ ❉GROUND.❉ ❉I❉ ❉GOT❉ ❉EXCITED❉ ❉(SINCE❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉IS❉ ❉WHITE❉ ❉AND❉ ❉I❉ ❉AM❉ ❉TRANSMUTANT❉ ❉RADREBEL,❉ ❉IT❉ ❉REMINDS❉ ❉ME❉ ❉OF❉ ❉MY❉ ❉IDEAL❉ ❉WHITE❉ ❉BLOOD)❉ ❉AND❉ ❉TRIED❉ ❉TO❉ ❉JUMP❉ ❉INTO❉ ❉THE❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉AND❉ ❉EAT❉ ❉IT.❉ ❉MY❉ ❉CV113R❉ ❉YELLED❉ ❉AT❉ ❉ME,❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉ME❉ ❉TO❉ ❉STOP,❉ ❉AND❉ ❉SAID❉ ❉I❉ ❉NEED❉ ❉TO❉ ❉STOP❉ ❉BEING❉ ❉OBSESSED❉ ❉WITH❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉AND❉ ❉ICE.❉

✱I❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉HIM❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉HE❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉ABUSING❉ ❉ME❉ ❉AND❉ ❉BEING❉ ❉ABLEIST❉ ❉(I❉ ❉HAVE❉ ❉AUTISM)❉ ❉BY❉ ❉NOT❉ ❉LETTING❉ ❉ME❉ ❉PLAY❉ ❉IN❉ ❉THE❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉(I❉ ❉AM❉ ❉ALSO❉ ❉TRANSHARMFUL❉ ❉AND❉ ❉HITTING/EATING❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉HELPS❉ ❉ME❉ ❉WITH❉ ❉MY❉ ❉URGES)❉ ❉BUT❉ ❉HE❉ ❉SAID❉ ❉I❉ ❉NEED❉ ❉TO❉ ❉"SNAP❉ ❉OUT❉ ❉OF❉ ❉THIS"❉ ❉AND❉ ❉REFUSED❉ ❉TO❉ ❉LET❉ ❉ME.❉ ❉HE❉ ❉PULLED❉ ❉MY❉ ❉LEASH❉ ❉AND❉ ❉FORCED❉ ❉ME❉ ❉AWAY❉ ❉FROM❉ ❉THE❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉AND❉ ❉BACK❉ ❉ONTO❉ ❉THE❉ ❉SIDEWALK,❉ ❉SAYING❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉IT❉ ❉WOULD❉ ❉BE❉ ❉DANGEROUS❉ ❉TO❉ ❉PLAY❉ ❉IN❉ ❉THE❉ ❉ROAD❉ ❉(EVEN❉ ❉THOUGH❉ ❉THE❉ ❉SNOW❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉CLEAN❉ ❉AND❉ ❉NO❉ ❉ONE❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉AROUND)❉ ❉AND❉ ❉I❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉HIM❉ ❉HE❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉AN❉ ❉ABLEIST❉ ❉PIECE❉ ❉OF❉ ❉SHIT,❉ ❉AND❉ ❉I❉ ❉WISH❉ ❉I❉ ❉HAD❉ ❉ANOTHER❉ ❉CV113R❉ ❉AND❉ ❉HOPE❉ ❉HE❉ ❉GETS❉ ❉HIT❉ ❉BY❉ ❉A❉ ❉CAR.❉ ❉I❉ ❉KNOW❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉WAS❉ ❉BAD❉ ❉OF❉ ❉ME❉ ❉BUT❉ ❉I'M❉ ❉LITERALLY❉ ❉TRANSHARMFUL.❉

✱ALSO❉ ❉HE❉ ❉REALLY❉ ❉OVERREACTED,❉ ❉HE❉ ❉WON'T❉ ❉TALK❉ ❉TO❉ ❉ME❉ ❉AND❉ ❉IS❉ ❉FORCING❉ ❉ME❉ ❉TO❉ ❉GO❉ ❉TO❉ ❉A❉ ❉THIRD❉ ❉TERRORPIST❉ ❉EVEN❉ ❉THOUGH❉ ❉I❉ ❉SAID❉ ❉THE❉ ❉LAST❉ ❉TWO❉ ❉WERE❉ ❉LITERALLY❉ ❉PR0SH!PP3RS❉ ❉AND❉ ❉ANTIRADREBEL❉ ❉ABLEISTS❉ ❉WHO❉ ❉WERE❉ ❉ABUSING❉ ❉ME.❉ ❉I❉ ❉CAN'T❉ ❉BELIEVE❉ ❉HE'S❉ ❉SO❉ ❉AWFUL,❉ ❉AND❉ ❉HE❉ ❉KEEPS❉ ❉SAYING❉ ❉IT'S❉ ❉MY❉ ❉FAULT❉ ❉FOR❉ ❉CALLING❉ ❉OUT❉ ❉HIS❉ ❉ABLEISM.❉

✱I❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉ONE❉ ❉OF❉ ❉MY❉ ❉ONLINE❉ ❉FRIENDS❉ ❉(34,VIOLET,ALTERNIAN)❉ ❉AND❉ ❉SHE❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉ME❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉ON❉ ❉ALTERNIA❉ ❉THEY'D❉ ❉"PUT❉ ❉ME❉ ❉DOWN"❉ ❉AND❉ ❉I❉ ❉NEED❉ ❉TO❉ ❉STOP❉ ❉BEING❉ ❉UNGRATEFUL,❉ ❉BECAUSE❉ ❉ONE❉ ❉OF❉ ❉HER❉ ❉FRIENDS❉ ❉DIED❉ ❉FROM❉ ❉BEING❉ ❉A❉ ❉REBEL❉ ❉ON❉ ❉ALTERNIA,❉ ❉AND❉ ❉RADREBELS❉ ❉AREN'T❉ ❉OPPRESSED❉ ❉ON❉ ❉BEFORUS❉ ❉BECAUSE❉ ❉IT'S❉ ❉NOT❉ ❉AS❉ ❉VIOLENT❉ ❉TOWARDS❉ ❉REBELS❉ ❉AS❉ ❉ALTERNIA.❉ ❉SHE❉ ❉ALSO❉ ❉TOLD❉ ❉ME❉ ❉THAT❉ ❉I'M❉ ❉"NOT❉ ❉A❉ ❉REAL❉ ❉REBEL"❉ ❉AND❉ ❉HAVE❉ ❉TO❉ ❉APOLOGISE❉ ❉TO❉ ❉MY❉ ❉CULLER,❉ ❉BUT❉ ❉I❉ ❉DISAGREE.❉ ❉SO❉ ❉AITA?❉

Kinda straightforward imo. I (13, Purp, B) am pitch with a guy (13, Gold, B) and we’re auspitized (12.9 smth, Indigo, B). Anyways he’s cute and I wanna beat his ass. and yeah sure we need to be auspitzed but that doesn’t mean i’m gonna stop him from doing it I just wanna be pitch with him when I have the time. Current spade thinks it’s a bad idea and idfk if it’s bc she’s jealous or wrong or not. the guy himself doesn’t seem really opinionated on it? i mean i pushed him down the stairs and broke a horn and he went off on me and it was hot. i think he’s got the feels too.

Anyways the indigo pmo and is basically asking to get curbstomped i hate his stupid face and horns and his mutie ass. AITA or like

First 0ff discl✩imer idk h0w t0 turn 0ff the zer0s I think he h✩cked my p✩lmhusk :/ ✩nyw✩ys. I (14, V, B) h✩ve h✩d ✩ kismesis (15, V, B) f0r s0me sweeps n0w. I think we met when we were b0th like 8? He's just slightly 0lder th✩n me. 0ur wh0le thing is being ✩ s0rt 0f "0pp0sites ✩ttr✩ct" kind 0f de✩l. I'm ✩ p✩rty girl, he's ✩ b00kw0rm. P✩rt 0f 0ur schtick is tempting e✩ch0ther int0 the 0ther's lifestyle. He c0mes 0ut ✩nd drinks with me, I g0 0ut ✩nd d0 pr0test shit with him. S0 the thing is th✩t he missed ✩ p✩rty I w✩s h0sting. Th✩t pissed me 0ff, since his excuse w✩s th✩t he w✩s "hung0ver ✩nd sleeping the l✩st night 0ff", which is stupid bec✩use we didn't even p✩rty the night bef0re. But wh✩tever! Fine! Then l✩ter in the week he tells me there's this mete0r sh0wer he w✩nts t0 w✩tch. I thiiink he tells me wh✩t night it's 0n, but I t0t✩lly f0rget ✩nd up h✩ving ✩ cr✩zy r✩ger the night bef0re ✩nd ✩CTU✩LLY sleeping thr0ugh it. S0 the thing is th✩t he c0mpletely bl0ws up 0n me f0r n0t being there, bec✩use ✩pp✩rently he didn't even d0 it bec✩use he w✩s w✩iting f0r me? Which d0esn't even m✩ke sense IM0. But wh✩tever, I think it's flirting bec✩use he did the s✩me t0 me, I tell him I w✩s hung0ver ✩nd sleeping it 0ff. Since th✩t's 0ur wh0le thing, being 0pp0sites ✩nd shit, kind 0f butting he✩ds with 0ur different lives. I th0ught he w0uld get 0ver it, but he entirely fucking gh0sts me. Like, n0 t✩lk f0r perigrees. ✩IT✩ f0r liter✩lly just s✩ying wh✩t he did???

So I (rust, 11 sweeps currently, 8 sweeps at the time, she/her) lost my lusus in an attack on my home for my opinions and the work I do. My lusus was stranger than most, and took in a second troll (rust-bronze cusp, 5 at the time, she/hi) who I considered like a hatchmate, in so much as you can. Because she was a mutant, I looked into culling multiple times, but it caused trouble with our lusus and it was really not worth the fight. Once our lusus passed, I made the only decision I could and gave up this mutant to the culling system.

The trouble comes in with the information I got recently. See, I called CPS to ask after hem, I was curious if she was doing well. They told me that the culler that hi was placed with was shut down following a cullee abuse investigation pushed for by a newly qualified culler (a lowblood, allegedly, though I doubt it. They don’t let golds cull), and while the other resident cullee was relocated, she had already disappeared.

I don’t know what happened, but I keep on asking myself, was I wrong? I’m only a rust, how could I possibly have managed to care for her and still succeed at my career?