#beforesunset

i have these dreams... i am standing on a platform and you keep going by on a train. and you go by.  and you go by.  and you go by.  and you go by. and i wake up with the fucking sweats you know? and i have this dream where you’re pregnant and in bed, beside me naked, and i want so badly to touch you, but you tell me not to. you look away and I touch you anyway... right on your ankle and your skin is so soft and i wake up in sobs alright? and my wife is sitting there looking at me and i feel like i am a million miles from her and i know that there's something wrong... that i can’t keep living like this... that there's gotta be something more to love than commitment. but then i think that i might have given up on the whole idea of romantic love. that i might have put it to bed that day when you weren’t there. you know? I think i might have done that.