#beepsandbops

I can’t sleep

I need to sleep For tomorrow to come But I’m just tossing and turning in frozen time I need to sleep

I wanted to be alright So I placed a hand on my heart

I wanted to run out but I’d still be at the training grounds The lullaby of a collect call Is it because I couldn’t hear it? Each day feels so long

Is it because the world changed too much? Or is it because I want to?

I need to sleep For tomorrow to come But I’m just tossing and turning in frozen time I need to sleep

I wanna throw away this night but

I had dream of the time we were born We lived beautifully in the city of wombs In a faraway town, someone died. Beckoned to by lemmings we arrive at this world's end Please don't get any stronger, amidst the pollution I drank my bile in as iron rain came pouring down Papa and mama were mistaken, I can no longer pretend the numbers are wrong You've just been praying this whole time haven't you? Giving water to artificial flowers I want to burn that worthless picture book A siren rang out, driving me mad. I'll always be waiting in the depths of that theme park. I'm sure you can hear it well enough to drive you mad, it's telling us to live.

Hey summer It’s time to say goodbye The cool breeze blows as we’ve come to the end  without even realizing 

On a night that resembles today The words you said to me I don’t think I’ll ever forget them And all the unnamed days when we loved so passionately

Goodbye, my long summer Don’t look back Let me send you off far away  without any complicated words on a night that has trailed behind us as we ran, just like the summer days  that began without notice

With a sunburnt face, with an ardent voice, (I’m closing down this season of us) With a scented smile, with a rumbling voice,

Farewell, my long summer Don’t hesitate  I’m closing down this season of us, which I thought would last forever 

picking at grout as I softly grieve

I'm just Michael who you don't know

Michael flying solo

Michael in the bathroom by himself

Everything felt fine

When I was half of a pair

And through no fault of mine

There's no other half there

I half regret

As I choke back the tears

I'll wait as long as I need

'Til my face is dry

My big mistake was showing up

Splash, splash, splash, splash

I throw some water in my face

And I am in a better place

I go to open up the door

But I can't hear knocking anymore

And I can't help but yearn

For a different time

And then I look in the mirror

And the present is clearer

And there's no denying, I'm just

This is a heinous night

I wish I stayed at home instead

Watching anime porn

Or wish I offed myself instead

Wish I was never born

all you know about me is my name

Awesome

Come to me. I beg you, come to me. Touch upon my eyes the dust of sleep.

This stupid period cycle is making me sooooo not okay in my circadian rhythm.

I am now on night 2 of not being able to sleep when I want to so I eat or watch my c-drama.

The only good thing so far is that I’m not suffering from it yet. Still productive in the morning and in a generally good mood.

Aiyaaaaa. I still want to fall asleep when I want to. Please Hypnos. Pleaaaaseeeee.

Anyway, here is satgotloco for tonite.

Tilting a little. But I'm sure to bounce back in the morning, all good and green.

For now, Quinnie still sounds!

Just all of the sickness and you were supposed to see me through And you're lucky as shit, the things I omit 'Cause you stole more of me than I'd care to admit

It's late at night when the sprinklers turn on as I'm leaving And I don't know why every time I'm with you I lose feelings I was already sick when you called me your fix Then I pushed mine aside to make room for your shit I've spent life holding other peoples aches in safe-keeping

Man Man Man Man Man Man

fuck all your gold stars, the cherries in the backyard No amount of sugar could sweeten such a bitter heart

And won't you please give me some decency?

And won't you please call it if our time is through?

I wanna be touched Be loved I wanna heal Be hugged It's just the two of us Or that's what we swore And if I've lost my charm Apologies due, no harm' Cause you've got a hold of my heart And I know it's worn

Nothing is new.