#beeawolf

hello! thank you so so much for your message. messages like this mean a lot to me. & sure thing!! it’s here

lady grey:favourite outfit? my pajamas lmao which are an oversized graphic sweatshirt, oversized graphic t-shirt, and uniqlo’s 3/4 relaco “shorts” which i just discovered this summer and i am never going back

irish breakfast:what country do you want to visit? i’d love for my mom to show me around germany where she grew up, where we still apparently have relatives. she used to live above a bakery! how cool is that!

turkish tea: where have you travelled? oh boy i can already tell this will be a long boy so forgive me. most notable trips: florida x a million? (orlando in particular bc 1) my grandparents used to live there and 2) my mom is obsessed with disney world; also went to the keys one time), california (lake tahoe, san francisco, sacramento [near where my sister used to live], also saw SEQUOIA TREES--bucket list item), arizona (sedona, the grand canyon), nevada (las vegas, hoover dam)... the big notable cities: new orleans, atlanta (georgia aquarium for WHALE SHARKS), philadelphia (saw sebastian stan and chris evans here hahaaa), chicago (2x), nyc (2x - saw chris evans on broadwayyy for my birthdayyy), toronto (2x @ TIFF--got to see seb on the red carpet here ahhh) and last but not least: japan. which was my big bucket list dream trip. mostly spent time in kyoto and osaka but also went to tokyo for a weekend. also nara for the deer obvs. and a few smaller towns in shiga prefecture where i stayed with a very generous friend for an entire month. whew okay that felt like a lot of bragging fff i love all my travels tho and i’ve been very lucky to go to so many places before i got old and developed near crippling anxiety lmaooooo

peppermint:what’s your favourite holiday and why? can i say i like the lead up to halloween? does that count? just all the cute fall decorations and changing leaves/cooler weather and pumpkin spice lattes with cider donuts fff. it’s such a low pressure holiday too, in terms of like. mandatory family gatherings or mandatory gift buying... you can go all out dressing up to the nines or just wear orange and exist with the trees. pick your own adventure it’s all good. but i also sort of see the leadup to christmas as a distraction that keeps me from wanting to off myself in the winter time LMAO. i'm prone to depression in wintertime ok and i need shiny distractions. also i kind of like some christmas movies.

green tea:where do you feel most at peace? alone... home in bed, reading fanfics on my phone. hahaaa. (i have anxiety about leaving my house ok like i can do it but i hate it every single time)

oh this is cute!

playing skyward sword

hanging out with my friends

making art for me

being really immersed in a story

sewing

📖 oh man this answer is pretty unoriginal and underwhelming but harry potter, books 5 through 7 I CAN’T CHOOSE A FAVORITE CHILD OKAY

✅ seeing/hugging a sequoia tree!!! they actually have a tiny bit of give to them and thus are quite hugable a total 10/10 i think everyone should go be in awe of these unbelievable trees at least once in their lifetime even if you are not a nature-y person (i for sure am not), they made me, like, actually believe in dinosaurs for some reason. just. they are such big boys!!! nature is fucking wild!!!

waxing: what is your proudest accomplishment?

This is a hard one… I feel like the answer should be “graduating from college” but that’s something I’ve become ashamed of the longer I work a job that doesn’t require a degree. I feel like all of my accomplishments are just things I’m ashamed to admit to anyone else… Sorry, this is a crap answer, but it’s actually a genuinely interesting revelation for me. Huh.

contemplation: if you could wake up one morning and everything in your life was perfect, what would that look like?

My first instinct is to come up with a fun fake answer: “I’d wake up next to Chris Evans in our lovely but modest Boston home and we’d wear matching knit sweaters and take Dodger and Oliver for a walk–because the cat we’d get for me would of course be named Oliver.”

All I can think of for the real answer is that I would wake up knowing exactly what I wanted out of life and I would be working towards getting it and that work would feel gratifying. I would also like to find someone to share my life with who cares about me and I could feel secure in them being there through thick and thin.

night light: who/what makes you feel safe?

My mom lol. And I’ve been trying out various apps for anxiety and there’s one playlist where some guy in a calming voice reassures you that you’re safe over and over and it doesn’t necessarily make me feel safe but it has gotten me to a place where I can fall asleep. It doesn’t always work though.

ponder: what do you want to do with your life?

I mean I would just like to get my shit together but I have no idea what that would look like. Getting a new job that pays a respectable wage that I could live comfortably on is a start and the step I seem to forever be stuck on. I’d also like to try yoga and therapy and volunteer somewhere. All things I can realistically do except I let money or anxiety hold me back.

earth: where do you feel most at home?

HIBISCUS:Did you ever play an instrument? If so what? I played piano when I was 10 or so, I desperately wish I’d been better encouraged. I hated practicing (now I have an inkling as to why it was so difficult to keep up) and my teacher wasn’t great. i’ve been thinking of learning again but I don’t have a piano

PEONY:What’s your favorite hot beverage? a vanilla latte from one of the good coffee places, or hot cocoa. i love hot cocoa.