#beau talk

You guys are honest to god the most beautiful people I have had the chance of meeting. You guys are the light when the sun starts to rise. Those beautiful blues, orange, and purples casting across the sky and just pulling me in and then the light goes out and then you are the constellations and stars in the sky. The galaxy I can nearly reach but it just out of touch and your my fucking flowers. You are the joy in my heart. The ack I feel when something goes right. Lord you guys make me cry tears of joy and god thanks for being here. Thank you for taking that breath and waking up again. Thank you for not fucking ending it when all hope is lost. Because stars die but you are forever. You are more then meets the eyes and you can set things aflame with just your thoughts. You are important. You are everything. You are something. Stay beautiful and with me for a little longer.

Yes, wholeheartedly still into that stuff. I'm hyperfixating on Solo Leveling but I am still trying to work on the BEAU as well.

That moment in life where your so defeated that you don't know what to do with yourself anymore.

I always think back to the day I first met My lady. It was like I had seen her with a hundred different faces and called her by a hundred different names all at once. Like I had known her for thousands of years. It was like stepping into the Akashic Library and seeing every thing for the second time. A thosand lifetimes flashed before my eyes. It was that day that made me believe there is more out there, that there is more to life then what we are being told.

Paranoia: The idea that the whole world is working against you. Pronoia: The idea that the whole world is working for you.

The thing about the materialism is that, sure you have these nice things but when you die all those "nice things" you have will either be handed down or thrown out.. and even if you hand it down it will decay and have to be thrown out anyways. Objects don't bring happiness atleast not for me. I don't know how other people work though these are just my subjective thoughts on the matter.

Spent my last weekend in Pemberton BC Canada for a music festival. Such a great feeling meeting brand new people and connecting with them so deeply in such a short time. Had alot of fun in the mountains and now it's bitter sweet being back in the grind of things. While I was out at the festival I realized that the job I am working for is not working for me. I realized I want to do a job that is beneficial to people, the environment or animals. Anything that is a positive influence on the world. Life is to short to get wrapped up in the contemporary western way of life. There is so much beauty in this world I don't want to spend my days wasting ten hours out of each day at a job that is killing our earth and I'm barely able to scrape by from paycheck to paycheck.

So on Saturday I had my first Reiki session. The experience was phenomenal. It was something everyone should do atleast once in their lives. It was a surreal thing to feel. No words that I know can explain how I felt when it happened. Just another piece of proof that there is more to life then what is told to us on the television screen. Peace and love brothers and sisters.