#beatdatrice

Sounds like a good plan

No matter how many cute pictures I take.... I believe I'm ugly. People only reinforce it. I want to be attractive, but maybe I'm just trying too hard. I am an untouchable it seems. I could be booty butt nekkid and still be unattractive AF. How I feel rn. I'm hurt.

In that time: My pops almost died All my friends except one graduated Spent quality time with family Had breakdowns regularly Got Tinder Got me a f buddy I like as a person so far Deleted Tinder (one guy kind of gal) Failing at school Volunteering with adolescents and small children Have no real friends around ..... That's the most of it all

My dad at 63 years old broke his leg and almost died a few weeks ago. He had four surgeries so far and is finally home. Had the worst semester of my life and my GPA dropped from a low 3.8 to a disgusting 3.7. However, by .02 pts I am still in the honors program and I already joined the honor society for people in the top 15% of my UF graduating class. I knew this was my last chance LOL Hopefully I can still get Summa. ---God was with me this semester! I got three As, one A minus and a C plus... I didn't deserve all my As. It was God. I was going through it in the Spring!! I gave up months ago, but dead shell kept going. I felt my soul die every morning. I lost basically two hundred dollars, but my parents gave me more than that soooo God is good despite all these blows financially and academically. My UF transcripts all show As and A minuses and then that one C plus.... Disgusting.

Last week partying has taught me that I have the juice.