#bear talk

YES I would LOVE to discuss this!! Strap in everyone I have so many thoughts, and I totally invite ppl to agree or disagree :D

Firstly you’re so right… tbh I never gave that scene much thought but I love this take for many reasons. Like, carmy is a VIRGIN. he’s NEVER had a girlfriend. I think he’s barely had friends. He’s not good at relationships. While I do LOVE writing him as a pussy devourer and soft dom it would take a while for him to get to that point… putting this in a read more bc it got lengthy btw

Carmy is a very repressed person by nature. With that being said, I think he’s also very lonely. He definitely has sexual desires and fantasies, but has never let him act on them, nor has given himself the opportunity. After never having sex for 30 years, I think he’s built up a lot of pressure towards it.

He also has so much trouble allowing himself joy of any kind. He has this logic where if he lets himself be happy, tragedy will come. Foreboding joy and all that. That extends to every part of his life, including sex, ESPECIALLY sex, relationships of any kind. But deep down, he truly wants connection, physical intimacy, emotional intimacy.

so..... that last ask was 18 pages in google docs.

and I know some of that space is formatting but still.

so like, if you send in questions, and you ask for a thing for ALL the dudes, and you don't see the answer for a good long while--

that's why.

there's 22 dudes at this point. that's a lot of dudes. even if I just write 5 sentences worth of response per-dude, that's about a paragraph per dude, which would be 22 paragraphs witch is like---- well over the length of about 3 college essays. (poorly written essays mind, but that's also the only kind I've ever written so----)

And I'm down! I'm very down! I will always ALWAYS answer those questions! ....eventually.

The spirit is willing, but the brain is full of adhd.

(also even more disclosure some of the dudes I don't know what to write OOPS!)

so like yeah--- if you want a thing for all the boys, I will get to it eventually! 10000%!

but do expect it to sit in my ask box for a little hot potato second.

Hi all. I guess it was inevitable for this to happen, as it seems so common with most users. 

I do consider my tumblr dead. I no longer check it on my phone. I’ll keep my blog up for memories and the only time I’ll check it is on my main computer. 

There has been a lot of ups and down on this platform! 

If you ever need to contact me whether it’s just to keep in check or to ask about an rp feel free to use my email- [email protected] OR check me out on twitter under speckeh1 

Thanks for the wild ride and those who still use this site daily, man, you are stronger than me! 

Over and out!