#be transparent

Prayerful poetry

So I recently learned the difference between being honest and being transparent. Honesty is telling the truth when asked. Transparency is when you tell the truth without being asked. Honestly, that’s mind blowing to me. And honestly, I need to be more transparent.

Sometimes I fear being misunderstood. Maybe because I felt that most of my life it was the vibe I got from people. But exactly why did I feel that way or why do I sill feel that way on certain occasions? I got in trouble when I shouldn’t have gotten in trouble. I got punished for not being respectful. I got silent treatment when all I wanted was communication. And now I can’t help but think maybe I overwrite because my speech isn’t enough. Maybe I go into detail so much because I’ve learned that I can explain myself better when I don’t talk. Maybe my thoughts are more valuable than what I actually have to say. Maybe I’ve finally learned to really think before I speak and blogging is just how I prefer to communicate what really matters to me. Maybe God speaks through me best when my words are read. But since transparency is what I’m striving for, I’ve got to really work hard on it in real life. My moods. Ugh. I’m deep within myself again. God’s got this.

I hate my nature. I don’t always behave like how I sound here, I don’t always say the most encouraging words….especially towards my family. I don’t always have the most humble, cleanest, and purest thoughts. I preach to myself and I end up realizing it might probably help someone. I’m just like anyone, I have my own battles, I just happen to find healing as I write/type and if anything I post here encourages anyone I thank the Lord for inspiring me too. At the end of the day it’s by God’s grace I’m still walking, apart from Him I am nothing. 

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