Bdubs has schizophrenia. He probably should talk to his friends a bit more about it, to prevent Situations occurring. But he keeps putting it off.

That may in fact mean situations occur. (Written in collaboration with someone who has schizophrenia)

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990 words | ao3

Bdubs could not sleep. Etho was off working in the jungle, and Ren was usy out working on Giga Corp. On most nights like this where he can not sleep, he would either go to the basement to bug Etho or would go upstairs to bug Ren before they moved out. Tonight however, Bdubs could not sleep and did not have anyone at the monolith to hang out with.

Not wanting to just stay in the quiet of the monolith, Bdubs got out of his bed, grabbed his moss cloak, and left his room. He could not remember the last time he just sat outside by himself at night, usually he did it with Etho or Ren. It is not like it is unheard of for Bdubs to not sleep the night away, but it kind of is unheard of for him to be up and alone.

The night was warm with the moon being full and big up in the black abyss above him. Bdubs had to stop and remind himself that the moon was not going to come crashing down on him again as he was leaving the monolith. Xisuma himself had found him one day while he was working to personally reassure Bdubs that the moon would not crash down again. He had known that Xisuma had sought him out that day because Bdubs had a panic attack the night before when walking out with Etho. Despite this fact though, it was nice to have the server admin personally reassure him that he would never have to deal with that trauma again. It was going to take some time, but he was slowly getting more and more okay with seeing the moon in the night sky.

The firepit in front of the tower had a decent stack of wood in it from the last time that Bdubs had planned on having a fire but did not. Bdubs walked over to the chest next to the sitting logs and pulled out his flint and steel, taking it to the firepit and started his fire. Returning the fire starter, he grabbed out one of his outdoor blankets and made himself comfortable on one of the sitting logs. He had the blanket laying over his lap and his cloak wrapping around his shoulders, making him feel comfy and cozy in front of the fire. Bdubs was watching the night sky, admiring the soft twinkling of the stars when he saw a shooting star.

Now a shooting star was not something new to Bdubs, he had seen plenty of them before. What he had not seen when it came to shooting stars, was them shooting and falling right out of the sky. He had watched it soar right into the forest right by where his base was set up. Bdubs had debated just ignoring what he had seen and staying at the fire where he was comfortable. He knew that he was not going to do that though because Bdubs was not known for his ability to ignore his curiosity, especially when he is bored. 

Getting up to put out the fire and put the blanket away, Bdubs went into the monolith to grab his lantern before going on his scavenger hunt for the fallen star. He did not even know what he was going to do if he found the star. Was he just going to leave it in the forest? Was he going to take it to Xisuma and find out why it fell out of the night sky? Was he just going to keep it for himself? Bdubs had a feeling he was going to do just that, keep the star and probably use it for decoration in his base somewhere.

After spending what felt like well over an hour of searching, Bdubs was ready to just call off the search and write off the falling star as seeing things. He was ready to head back to the tower and hopefully be able to go to sleep in his bed once he was back. Just when he was about to turn back, there was a slight twinkling that caught his eye just ahead of Bdubs. Deciding not to give up, he strolled up to where the twinkling was coming from.

As Bdubs approached the source of the soft twinkling light, he found the star in a small divot in the ground where it had landed. The small glowing orb had a beautifully warm yellow glow that illuminated the ground around it. Bduubs hesitantly knelt down to pick up the star, finding it surprisingly cool in his hands despite the warm glow. Even though Bdubs knew that wishing on a shooting star was meant for one in the sky, he still found himself cupping the star in his hands and closing his eyes to make a wish.

After a few minutes of basking in the silence of the night, Bdubs opened his eyes and carefully placed the small star into his pocket and started heading back to his bed. Bdubs felt a nice comforting sense of peace with the star in his pocket as he made his way back. Once he was back in his room, he carefully placed the star on the table next to his bed before getting himself comfortable in his bed and had the best sleep he had had in a while.