why am I crying just because you hung out with someone else? Gods, I feel like a narcissist. I don't even care if you have multiple best friends. I myself use the term loosely. But sometimes it doesn't even feel like I make acquaintance status. I've been begging you to hang out, trying to get you interested in my hyperfixations. But you keep coming up with excuses not to see me. And now you are on vacation for the summer and I won't see you till August. And not only that, but now you are hanging out with your other best friend (who you've known longer than me) and doing all the shit that I tried to do with you. And damn, that kinda stings. I woke up today and saw your story; you and your bestie watching the movie I've been planning to take you to for a year, talking about the comics I've been yapping to you about, and just looking like you're having the time of your life without me. I don't care that you hang out with other people, I don't even care if you view them higher than me. But seeing you do what I wanted to do with you kinda makes me feel like maybe you were just making excuses instead of legitimately not being able to hang out. Anyways, I just made me have a shit morning.
