#basag

Why did it suddenly stop? How do I reply to the last message you sent? Or to the last words that you said?

I keep on looking at your picture and wondering how your day/night has been. I have sooo much kwento to tell you—about the Discaya hearing, Arjo Atayde, and other stuff—but I don’t know how to tell you or where to start. You know how much I love to discuss Philippine politics and I know you love it too.

So I’m dumping all of these here, hoping that by some twist of fate you’ll see this. If not, that’s fine. Just another one of my unsent letters to you.

Hello mybabe, kumusta kana? Literal na hindi na tayo naka uwi pabalik sa isat isa noh. I've been thinking a lot of you lately. Letting you go is the hardest part of my life. I never love someone like you. If the start aligned and the time is right, sa tamang panahon, sa plano ni Lord, kahit walang kasiguraduhan I'll be here for you. I will always wish you the best. If we're meant to be, time will find a way to bring us back. But if not, I hope you find the happiness you truly deserve. Just be happy and chase your dreams, alam kong kaya mo and always cheer for you from a far. Gusto kitang makita sa rurok nang tagumpay na abot ang lahat ng pangarap mo sa buhay. Your success will always make me proud, even if I'm no longer part of your journey.

at isa iyon marahil sa pinakamalungkot na maaari nating danasin. ang hindi na masabi sa taong madalas nating pagkuwentuhan noon ang nangyari sa buong araw natin. mga sumbong na wala nang makikinig; paghikbi na wala nang tatapik sa ating likod; pagod na wala nang papawi.

“minsan, gusto kong magsumbong sa’yo…”

~pero hindi na maaari.