#barryallen reader

And how she felt there was no other reason to go on because of that and Barry gets really sad because she felt like she could die and nobody would care and he try’s to comfort her more and she cuts him off by saying something like ‘I’m supposed to be your enemy, Flash. You’re supposed to hate my every-loving guts! Just piss off already...’ and she turns back around on the floor and lays down on her back on the cell floor and silently lets a few tears slip before she jumps up to her feet (Barry’s still here, keep in mind) and starts punching the walls and kicking them and hitting her head against the walls and the glass and doing shit to hurt herself in the cell before Barry quickly opens the door and pulls her away and she tries to fight to get out of his grip and he slowly lowers them to the ground and she stops struggling and he just holds her in his arms and tries to calm her down before eventually he realizes she fell asleep and he picks her up and carries her to a bed in the med bay and skip forward a few months (he let her stay in his guest room at his apartment) and they’re at his house on his couch eating ice cream (he came to realize it was her favorite food) and she asks him ‘why did you choose me? What made you think I’m special enough to single me out and take me into your home and family?’

And he says something like ‘I never thought you seemed to like being a villain very much, and whenever we fought you always tried to make conversation to distract from the main point. I didn’t seem to think you deserved to be hated’ and a few more back and forth a between them later and she says ‘one thing heroes always forget to think about is that maybe villains aren’t always that. Villains aren’t always just bad people who want to kill you, sometimes villains are just regular, average people like you and bad things made them the way they are, sometimes villains are just like heroes but with different experiences, different opportunities. Villains have families, villains love and villains can hate, villains have hearts that are just locked up more than a heroes and just like heroes, villains can change.’ Barry, who’s arm was around her to begin with, pulls her closer and kisses her forehead while Y/n continues in a lower, sadder, voice saying ‘so many heroes blame villains for their choices and get mad at them when they should be getting mad at who made them that way instead...’ and he just takes her pint of ice cream away and moves her over into his lap, her legs hanging off the side of the couch or curled up underneath her, and he pulls her in and kisses her softly before pulling her back into his chest and throwing the blanket atop the two of them sit together in comfortable silence for a few minutes before

Barry asks her ‘was I one of those heroes who forgot to think that?’ And she answers almost immediately, looking up at him and pressing a soft open-mouthed kiss to his jaw before saying, ‘darling you were one of the heroes who decided to use his heart and open his home to to someone who others had decided to abandon, you were one of those heroes who made life better when I was at a lowest point... you definitely were the hero who decided to think about that’ and like fast forward to maybe a year or more or a few months or smth when Barry and Y/n are getting married at star labs and another time skip later to when Caitlin is cradling a baby girl with small wisps of h/c hair and Cisco is yelling through the coms and helping Barry and y/n get rid of another villain and then a minute or so later Barry zooms up, already having put the villain up, where he’s now just standing in the cortex holding Y/n bridal style and they’re both still in costume and Y/n (still in Barry’s arms) asks for the baby and Caitlin brings the baby up to her and she smiles gently while Barry looks down at his two beautiful girls and cut to when Cisco snaps a photo of the scene of perfection

Anyone up for the challenge of writing this extremely specific fic that I might write eventually, I most likely won’t get around to writing it, but is anyone up for the challenge?

I am very much wanting to see something like this written but I also realize it is really specific and stuff-

Anywho, it was just a thought.

However, if anyone decides to write it,