Buried Underneath the Snow
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x F!Reader
Summary: Bucky tries desperately to hide his feelings from you but one mission fucks him over for good.
Content Warnings/tags: Explicit sexual content, 18+ mdni, fem!reader, piv, dom! bucky, mean! Bucky, rough sex, bucky’s a eater!, hurt with comfort, misunderstandings, angst, happy ending!
Notes: Can you tell I lost motivation halfway through..
You’ve never been on good terms with Bucky Barnes. You weren’t sure why. Always in the dark on why he disliked you so much. Aside from the few weird glares you get from him, he was constantly ignoring you. Never greeting you back, never going out of his way to say at least one word to you, not even sparing you a glance during team meetings. You understood he wasn’t a very talkative person in general but he didn’t treat the other members of the New Avengers nearly as cold as he did you.
So why? Why did he despise you so much to the point where he’s arguing against going on a mission with you.
“Not going with her.” Bucky’s cold voice cut through the air but Yelena didn’t even flinch.
“Everyone else is busy and I’m about to go on a mission myself-“
“So let me go alone. I’m more than capable to finish this mission solo.” He cut her off before she could finish her sentence. Yelena frowned and stared at him for a moment and then glanced at you.
Bucky scoffed as if her answer was the most stupid thing she has ever asked him. “She’s reckless, slow, and incompetent. All she would do is slow. me. down. Even being near her pisses me off.”
Your body flushed with humiliation and anger as you clenched your fists. Bucky didn’t even bother to turn around to say it to your face properly. You looked down biting your lip to prevent yourself from cursing him off. But you knew nothing good would come out of it so you sucked it up and let Yelena finish arguing with Bucky.
“She’s coming with you it’s final.”
Yelena walked off leaving the two of you in silence. You slowly glanced up to see his tense back. Your mouth opened before you could stop it. “Next time you have shit to say, tell me in private you coward.”
Bucky immediately turned around to meet your eyes. You glared back tenfold and kept going. “I don’t know what I did to you but after this mission I’ll make sure to never even be in your vicinity again. Don’t wanna piss you off.”
You repeated his past words as his jaw clenched, blue eyes flashing with immediate regret. Before he could say anything you turned and walked away leaving him alone. Just one mission and you don’t have to deal with him again.
Other than the awkward silence for basically the whole mission, it went well. The task was simple, collect some missing data from an old Hydra base and leave. Finding and entering the snowy base didn’t prove itself to be difficult at all.
“Found something.” You said while scanning the practically ancient computer. Bucky nodded and slowly made his way over.
“That’s it. Use the flash drive and let’s get out of here.” He muttered quietly.
You plugged the drive into the computer sucking out all the data. More awkward silence followed as you saw Bucky not so discreetly move an inch or two away from you. You bit back a scoff. After the drive was finished you both reached to take it out at the same time. Accidentally, your fingers brushed against his which made him jerk back like you shocked him. Your eyes widened slightly as you turned your body towards him. His whole body was tense and he looked mildly uncomfortable. His audacity truly shocked you. You angrily took out the drive and shoved a finger to his chest.
“Do I disgust you that much to the point where you can’t be within a foot of me? How about my touch? I’m touching you right now, are you going to burn your shirt just because I was on it!?”
His mouth opened to say something but then a very small click was heard thanks to his enhanced hearing from the serum. Without thinking, Bucky grabbed your body and ran out the door. You didn’t even have time to protest before heat engulfed your surroundings and a new ringing developed in your ears. Bucky’s body landed on top of yours with a groan. The snow softening both your falls as he immediately lifted up his head.
You opened your eyes trying to say something but your voice was stolen away when he cupped you face with such tenderness you didn’t know even existed from him. Your eyes glanced behind him to see the small base you were just in engulfed in flames. An explosion.
His voice was raw with panic and concern. It was odd seeing him this…worried.
Bucky’s wide eyes softened immediately as he let out a relieved sigh and dropped his head against your shoulder. You froze not sure what the hell was even going on. A few more moments of silence between you two passed before you finally noticed the piece of metal stuck in his shoulder.
“You’re hurt.” You whispered before sitting up.
Whatever moment you guys had was gone as he looked away like he did something he should be ashamed of. You reached out towards him gently touching his shoulder. His body tensed as his eyes snapped back to you.
“We need to fix that up now.” You told him while standing up. He didn’t protest as you dragged him up. A gush of wind sent snow and painfully cold air into your face. Bucky took that into account instantly and guided you guys to start moving towards the direction of the car.
“It’s cold we need to start moving now-“
“The car’s way too far away, there’s a nearby cave we can stop at and wait until this snowstorm stops.”
Your arm gripped him and started moving to the opposite direction and to the cave. Slowly, he let himself get dragged around by you.
The cold lessened inside the small cave but it was still freezing. Your hands shook as you winced at the sight of the metal scrap inside him.
“I don’t have any bandages on me..” You helplessly whispered and touched his shoulder.
“It’s fine. I heal fast thanks to the serum.” he told you dryly and yanked it out immediately. Your face contorted in a look of concern as your fingers hovered over the open wound.
Unconsciously, you leaned in to observe it properly. Bucky’s breath hitched at the proximity. His eyes closed slowly as your gentle touch examined his wound. He leaned involuntarily closer to you letting himself enjoy your presence. After a few moments you realized your mistake and instantly pulled away from him thinking he was uncomfortable with you feeling him up. Instant disappointment filled him as you apologized.
“Nothing to be sorry about.” He said quietly looking back at you with soft eyes that you mistaken to be tiredness.
“You should get some rest I’ll be on lookout.” You stood up but his voice stopped you.
“Stay.” his voice sounded a bit desperate. “Please.”
Your eyes widened at his tone but you slowly retreated back in front of him. He didn’t bother saying anything after that. Just more awkward silence. You slowly zoned out while looking outside. The snow was still falling pretty fast to get to the car now. At any moment-
“Your cold.” He finally spoke.
You turned towards him “I’ll live.”
He frowned shaking his head before standing up. Your eyes followed him as he slowly unzipped his jacket.
“Bucky I don’t need your jacket.”
“Not giving you my jacket. We will both freeze in the next few hours if we don’t warm up now.”
He said plainly before sliding off his shirt next. Your eyes widened as you immediately turned the other way. He let out a small chuckle and through his shirt onto the ground next to you.
“Strip.” He demanded quietly.
“What?” You glanced back in surprise. He raised an eyebrow at the implication and unbuckled his belt.
“Body heat from both of us will keep each other warm. Come on.”
Mindlessly you stared at his naked body before he leaned down and unzipped your jacket
Your head nodded before you could actually think what you agreed to. His hand slid up your body while yanking off your shirt. You gasped and covered your chest as his lips quirked up slightly. His fingers moved to your pants and took them off next leaving you both naked. Bucky laid down next to you before carefully dragging you down with him. His strong arms wrapped around your body from behind as you froze. Warmth spread all over your body and you were almost positive it wasn’t from his body heat.
More silence passed by as he just held you in his arms. To clear up some tension you slowly spoke up.
“Thought you would’ve just left me for dead inside the base since you hate me so much.”
Your dry sarcastic comment made him frown against your head. Evidently from the more silence that passed that he didn’t find you funny in the slightest. Your heart shrunk a little at the realization that he didn’t even bother denying what you said. You didn’t say anything after that. But then he quietly told you,
That made your head turn slightly. “What?”
You let out a small breath before speaking again. “You don’t have to lie for my benefit.”
“I’m serious.” He told you firmly. You stayed silent for a moment.
“Then why do you treat me like a burden..? Why do you treat me so differently from the others, those things you said..” Your small voice faded off.
The truth? Bucky was hopelessly in love with you. Since the moment he saw you on the team. He was worried how easy it was to fall in love after everything that happened to him. But thinking about you was like a breath of fresh air, sun on a rainy day, he just couldn’t stop himself.
“I don’t want to get more attached to you than I already am..” He whispered against your head, grip tightening slightly. “I care about you so much words can’t even describe it.”
Your breath hitched as he kept going. “Thought if I ignored you my feelings would go away and that’ll be the end of it. But oh god I can’t stop staring at you whenever you’re nearby….even being near you shuts my whole goddamn body down…”
Suddenly all those weird glares and refusals to be near you made sense. Your breath picked up as his fingers slid down your stomach.
“Thought I could’ve lost you earlier. I was so scared..” Bucky whispered quietly as you gasped. His fingers lazily pressed against your clit and rubbed it.
Your hand grabbed his wrist but made no attempt to stop him.
“I know I was mean…I’m sorry and I promise I didn’t mean any of the things I said.”
He sighed while you squirmed against his body. “You don’t know how many nights I stayed up jerking off alone in bed thinking about you…I’ve imagined how you would taste, what positions you would like, how you would feel when you came around my cock..”
Bucky was past the point of shame. Your face blushed at his dirty confession. he rubbed your clit harder as he whispered into your ear.
“Can I make it up to you? Please let me apologize..”
Without hesitation you nodded eager to get your back blown out by him. He pulled away leaving you momentarily cold and disappointed from the lack of his body heat. But the feeling left quickly as he pulled your legs apart and dove in with no hesitation. You moaned as his tongue worked aggressively against your wet pussy and throbbing clit. His hand held your leg apart before his free one came up to finger you.
“God can’t help you now baby..”
His fingers curled in deeper as the sound of his shameless slurping filled the cave. You helplessly squirmed against his face as he groaned. His dick pressed painfully against the floor as he fought himself from finishing just from eating you out. Bucky’s lips wrapped around your clit and sucked hard. You let out a choked moan which encouraged him to keep moving.
Your hips grinded against his face before cumming on him. His fingers struggled to speed up due to your pussy violently clenching. Your eyes were blown wide from the pleasure. He pulled out his fingers and immediately positioned himself against you.
“Please let me fuck you baby.” He begged pathetically.
You nodded tugging him down to kiss you. He moaned forcing his tongue into your mouth. He kissed like he was waiting for this very moments for years. Like he was absolutely starved for you. His hand jerked off his dick a few times before rubbing it against your wet slit.
“Stop teasing..” You complained as he let out a small laugh.
He slammed into you immediately making your back arch off the floor. His hips moved with a concerning amount of stamina you didn’t even was possible. Bucky gave you no time to adjust around his huge cock as he fucked you to oblivion. Your loud cries and moans kept spurring him to dick you down harder and harder. He groaned in pleasure as your nails raked down his back hard enough to leave marks. He silently prayed they wouldn’t heal at all so he could stare at them in the mirror after all of this was over.
“You feel so fucking good. Can’t believe I deprived myself of your pussy for this long.”
Your eyes squeezed shut so overwhelmed with pleasure and him. You blindly wrapped your arms his neck. He slightly winced at your touch pressing against his wound but he was too far gone to actually care. He was just focused on making you cum now.
“Say you’re mine baby..say you belong to me now.. I promise to treat you so good…”
“Yes! Yes! Yes!” You agreed to whatever he was saying.
Bucky felt his orgasm approaching as he fucked you faster and harder to make sure you came first. With a loud cry your pussy clenched around his dick milking every last drop from him. His eyes squeezed shut as he let out a shaky groan. The two of you panted hard staying like that for several more moments. Carefully, he pulled out and collapsed next to you. His arms pulled you into him body as he kissed your head gently.
“I’m sorry. I’ll spend every day making it up to you but please, please tell me you’ll be mine.”
His voice asked with pure desperation and honesty. You lazily cuddled into him and nodded.
“Would’ve been a lot easier to do this from the start.”
He smiled and hugged you harder.
