#barbae

I love you

Rafael opened the door slowly, and sighed deeply. The house was already dark, as it had been lately on account of his coming home deep into the night. This case was heavy, as his work usually was, and he tried his best to leave it in the office. However, that meant he was in his office longer than he should’ve. Not bringing work home with him was his condition, but he missed her. She was either at work or asleep when he finally made it back. This was draining.

Rafael left his dinner in the fridge, not hungry. He opened their bedroom door and found her asleep, hugging his pillow. A small smile spread across his face, and he got ready for bed as quietly as he could. 

“Rafi?” Her small, sleepy voice called to him. The bed weighed down from where he crawled to her and he planted a kiss on her cheek.

“I didn’t mean to wake you. Go back to sleep.” His voice was gentle and almost lulled her back to sleep, but she fought it. Her hands reached up to cup his face and she kissed him. 

“Not until you come to bed with me.”

"I’m right here.” She wiggled over and Rafael got into bed. Immediately, he took her in his arms and she rested her head on his chest. “Warm enough?” He felt her fuzzy socks, sweats, and sweater. She shook her head.

“You’re gonna have to keep me warm.” She was already dozing off again. Rafael kissed her forehead, and held her close. “Tell me about your day?”

“You know I don’t like bringing home work with me.”

“I wanna hear about your day, not the case.” She kissed his chin and found stubble. It must be a heavy case if he wasn’t shaving.

“I woke up, admired you while you got ready for you shift in the hospital. You were wearing those cute scrubs.”

“Rafi, you. Not me.” Her voice was getting softer. She was drifting off.

“I went to work. Worked until lunch. Carmen got me those tacos at that place you know. God, Sonny came and wanted some.”

“And you shared, right?” She opened an eye, and Raf smiled down at her. “Right?”

“Yeah, I got him his, don’t worry. We had a good lunch, talked about guy stuff.”

“Guy stuff? Sounds serious.” She teased. “About girls and such? Did I make an appearance?”

“Yes, babe, we talked about you all day. Then we braided each other’s hair and did face masks.”

“One time.” She laughed. “I made you do it once, and don’t pretend you didn’t like it.”

“I loved it.” 

“Then what happened?”

👀 more asks omg bless i am Living

1. Favorite Barbie film?

lISTEN YOU CANT JUST ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE I GOTTA HAVE EM ALLLL

that being said 12 dancing princesses is definitely one that has a Lot of sentimental value for me even though i never had a 12dp doll i rewatched the movie Loads of times and tbh i think it was the roots of my fanficking career like i would imagine fanon plotlines to continue after the events of the movie and everything

diamond castle probably has the same level of Sentiment (this time i actually had a doll) like i would play the adobe flash player game on the website forever when i was younger and i had all the songs memorized and it was just a movie that really stuck with me and gosh was alexa my first fictional crush?? she could have very well been-- also the “bread and jam and jam and bread” is Still an inside joke between me and my sister i love it

3 musketeers is one that i wasnt such an integral experience so much as i obsessed over it?? i lived in the middle of nowhere when it came out and scholastic was selling those steps to learning books so i just had that (gorgeously illustrated) book and the trailer to watch over and over a thousand times till we Finally went to some family friends house in another province and Watched it and omg we have pictures of me watching the movie i was the literal definition of 🤩🤩😍😍 it was amazing

2. Favorite heroine/main character? 

hhhhhhh okay honestly speaking its probably Mariposa cause gosh a book-worm?? finally someone to Project onto?? and she was so pretty too i stanned her so hard ahhh

buttttt curveball here i lowkey Live for barbie as scrooge in the Christmas Carol adaptation like i Lived for her redemption and her entire arc hit me right in the feels and tbh i gotta stan that okay i loved how they literally made barbie scrooge its iconic

3. Favorite Barbie film song? 

SHINE

omg i know its not exactly sung By Barbie and theres a bunch of songs like the ones in diamond castle that absolutely Slap but shine?? shine i literally downloaded onto my Main Playlist of music i listen to cause its That Good

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Rafael glared at the pair, struting around the hall towards his office. Sonny lingered closely, whispering something in her ear, making her laugh. God. Rafael felt a growl rumble from his chest. Sunlight streamed diagonally from the windows, but her smile was brighter. It made his heart halt in his chest. 

But he wasn’t the one causing it.

“Barba!” Carisi grinned, all toothy like he did when he was excited. “It’s good to see you looking like a civilian.” Sonny gestured to his outfit. A nice botton up shirt and slacks. He’d only decided to stop by his office to pick something up when (Y/N) said she was out of the hospital early. He would see her tonight anyway, but more time with her was a treat he couldn’t ignore. “You guys have a good time. Take care of the pretty lady, Counselor.” (Y/N) gave Sonny a hug. Too long for Rafael’s liking. “You’re a lucky man.” Sonny pat him on the shoulder and disappeared. (Y/N) watched him go with a smile that reached her eyes. Again, Rafael growled.

This caught her attention. “Woah. What was that?” She questioned, but he put his arm around her waist and pulled her in close. Still glaring, he kissed her quickly, looked over his shoulder at Carisi’s retreating figure, and walked the opposite direction.

“Raf? What’s going on?”(Y/N) was taken aback from his kiss, but allowed it. She cast a queer look between him and Sonny before realization dawned on her. “Tell me you’re not jealous of Sonny.”

“Nooo.” Rafael’s tone dripped with sarcasm. “What could I possibly be jealous of?”

“Ok. Good.” (Y/N) nestled close to Raf. The scent of spice, expense cologne, and Rafael calmed her. It was the smell of home. “So, I’m thinking we watch a show? Get some dinner?”

“Yes, mi vida. Whatever you want.” Just looking at her made his heart expand, and he kissed her once more.

....

“That was beautiful.” (Y/N) melted into his couch. Dinner made them full and sleepy. Her head leaned against his chest and they were watching some mind numbing TV. “Hey, do you want to see this show that Sonny recommended? He says it’s hilarious.” A pause. “You did it again!” She pushed off him. “You growled, Rafi.” 

“I- I didn’t.” Rafael tried, but couldn’t lie. A blush rushed to his cheeks and warmed his face. For being a laywer, he was a terrible liar when it came to her. “Ok, yes! Fine! I did!”

“Rafi!”

“Yes, yes I lied earlier. I am jealous! Does that make you feel better?” Embarrassment colored his face and his tone. (Y/N) sat up to face him, but he couldn’t meet her eyes. 

“Of Sonny?!”

“Yes! Ok! Yes!” Rafael finally looked into her big eyes and knew he was being unreasonable. But looking down at the person he treasured most, Raf groaned. He was acting like a love struck fool. “He’s- he’s more your type!” He spat out.

“Excuse me?”

“Yes! He’s taller and- and younger. You have more in common.” Rafael stood, needing to pace. “Don’t tell me you haven’t noticed it! We don’t watch the same TV, we don’t have the same hobbies.” Rafael kept listing. They didn’t like the same food. They didn’t like the same things. They were so different whereas her and Sonny could talk about anything and everything and, he confessed, he was often times confused as to what the conversation was about. “I feel... old. Inadequant.” Rafael confessed.There was probably a hole in the rug by now, and she was probably looking at him like a crazy person, but he didn’t care. It had been two years and he felt this way? Maybe they shouldn’t be together. Maybe she deserved to be with someone who didn’t overthink their relationhip. Maybe she deserved better. His work hours were terrible, his job was high stress, and dates were scattered, inconsistent, and rare.

“Are you done?” (Y/N) cocked a brow and rose to join him on the floor. She stood before him, stopping his pacing by taking his hands gingerly. 

“What are we doing?” Rafael sighed. 

“We’re dating, and we’re in love.” Pause. “Or, at least I thought we were.”

“I am.” Rafael’s voice was strong. “I love you, (Y/N). I’m sorry for getting jealous. There’s nothing going on between you and Carisi, rationally, I know that. But emotionally?” He sighed and she took him in her arms.

"I love you too, Rafael.” (Y/N) smiled that blazing smile that reached her eyes and made his heart glow. And he was causing it. That reassured him and he realized how foolish he was being. (Y/N) kissed him deeply and Rafael held her close. Speaking against his lips, she said, “You’re the best man I’ve ever met, Rafael. You’re handsome, intelligent, out of my league, and I love you insanely. I don’t want you to ever feel like you need to worry about where I am in this relationship. I’m here. With you.”

Rafael swallowed the lump in his throat. “How you love this jealous, old man will always escape me.” Rafael kissed her and then just held her. Enjoying the feel of her in his arms.

“Maybe that’s my type.”