#bandslash

Mclennon tribute

And now it’s been over a dozen years since we’ve all scattered, gone back to our real lives. It’s been years since I’ve listened to an AFI song. Even the places where we used to gather — afislash.com and LJ — are long gone.

The band recently played a live show, their first in 3 years. I didn’t even know about it except my husband works with a family member of one of the band members and that person mentioned to hubby that they were going the show. I watched the fan recordings from the show on YouTube and that just triggered this whole avalanche of memories and feelings.

I googled the old handles of my fellow AFI slashers but found nothing, just LiveJournal accounts abandoned over a decade ago. No Tumblr accounts with the same handles, no AO3 accounts, not even Twitter. It’s like we all melted back into reality.

It’s funny because it’s been a while since I’ve felt lonely, but trying to find your old friends and coming up empty will do that to you. I didn’t miss them a month ago, before these memories came up, but I miss them now. I wonder where they are, what their lives are like, did they find what they were looking for. Do they still remember the old days, chatting on the forums, trading snippets of fics like friendship bracelets, posting a new fic and waiting eagerly for the person you wrote it for to scream with you in the comments. It was about the band, yes, but it was more than the band.

I think about how back then I would’ve screamed internally if I met anyone even distantly connected to the band (“omg you were in Adam Carson’s second grade class?”) Now my husband works with one of their family members on a daily basis and I can’t find someone to scream about it with.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Blur Rating: Not Rated Relationships: Graham/Alex  Characters: Graham/Alex  Summary: Graham has an obsessed admirer at Goldsmiths college that he can't seem to get rid of. Thankfully Alex knows of a way he can help get him out of an awkward situation. OTP prompt challenge.

Notes: I wrote this fairly quickly, so I apologize for anything and everything except the fluff. Written for the ever-lovely @gralexx​ who picked #2 on this OTP prompt list. <3

After seven years of putting it off, my Gramon fic There Is a Light That Never Goes Out is finally done. Damn. If that’s not the definition of procrastination I don’t know what is. 67,213 words is more than I’ve ever written in my life, ever. And if you got through that too, all I can say is thank you for your patience, haha.

That said, I just wanted to say that I love you guys, and thank you so much for being so incredibly welcoming and warm. Btw if you see @achtung​ follow you back that is my main blog, I have no idea how tumblr works with side blogs but I wanted to mention that. I started this blog just as a way to post updates when I started writing this again to distract myself while I was recovering from a really difficult time in my life, and I had no idea that I’d get the positive reaction that I did. 

Thank you so much, especially for all the kind messages about my fic and TIALTNGO. I can honestly say that without your comments and encouragement I doubt I would have finished There Is a Light, especially since I started it 7 years ago, and never ever thought I would go back to it. I have been blown away by how nice everyone has been (there have been many of you on AO3 and here) and also a special thanks to @glowinginahuddle​ and @howling--fantods​ who have kept me in check with all their amazing and very suggestive Gramon gifs and videos I didn’t know about (seriously, damn).