#balec

Oh, a rare one. Thanks, E! ^^

Who said “I love you” first: Definitely Bat. Alec just stared at him a little dumbly, trying to process. Bat thought it was cute

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background: Alec has a super cute picture of Bat as a wolf as his background! For Bat, it’s a group-picture, squeezing Jace, Simon and Maia in there too

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror: Bat, it’s always something cheesy that never fails to make Magnus smile

Who buys the other cheesy gifts: Again Bat! He thinks the office should look more like Alec, so he always buys little trinkets and figurines and stuff. Especially wolves and angels

Who initiated the first kiss: Bat, after being stared at in wonder for long enough, he decided to try a different approach. This kickstarted Alec’s brain again ;D

Who kisses the other awake in the morning: Alec kisses Bat awake when he gets ready to work, Bat gets up a bit slower and goes on a run before he has to go to work too

Who starts tickle fights: Surprisingly, Alec. But only with wolf!Bat. Listen, if you had a 400 pounds fluff-wolf at your disposal you too would tickle his fluffy belly

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower: Bat does, sadly in the mornings he’s being denied because Alec actually has to get ready for work ùû

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch: Bat, who brings take-out from the Jade Wolf and then just gets comfortable in Alec’s office

Who was nervous and shy on the first date: Alec was a nervous wreck. He needed the mental strength of his sister and his parabatai to not chicken out and run off

Who kills/takes out the spiders: Neither, they don’t really mind them

Quand j’ai lu le titre de ce reportage diffusé à la télévision, j’en ai eu gros (Karadoc, Perceval si vous me lisez … )

Une fois de plus, les hypersensibles sont catalogués, comme des malades. Pour les avoir pratiquement tous essayés, je peux vous garantir que tous les antidépresseurs et autres anxiolytiques de la terre entière n’y pourront rien changer puisque, l’hypersensibilité n’est pas une maladie. Et à tous ceux qui disent aux hypersensibles « tu devrais aller voir quelqu’un », j’ai envie de leur répondre « bande toi les yeux et cours très vite dans une forêt » (punchline de tout le monde s’en fout épisode 3 sur les émotions, va voir c’est sympa).

Les qualificatifs des hypersensibles sont légions : susceptible, colérique, mélancolique, prenant les choses trop à cœur, à fleur de peau, émotive et j’en passe.  Et alors ? Pourquoi devrais-je me remettre en question pour me conformer une fois de plus aux diktats d’une société désensibilisée où vivre ses émotions c’est être faible (tu sens l’apnée de la colère dans cette phrase ???)

Car voilà le problème : être sensible c’est être fragile. Combien de fois j’ai entendu des « tu ne devrais pas montrer que tu es vulnérable, « tu ne devrais pas montrer que tu es émotive » « on sent que tu es une personne fragile, on a envie de te protéger »... Crois-moi si tu savais ce qui se passe dans ma tête à ce moment précis, c’est toi qui devrais te protéger. 

Toutes ces réflexions à la c***, répétées à longueur de journées, ça m’épuise.  Le summum de la petite phrase qui t’abonnes à 10 ans de psychothérapie, a  été prononcée par ma mère “ma fille est folle, ce n’est pas normale de se mettre dans des états pareils”. Ah ces doux petits mots à l’air de rien qui alimentent mes maux aux yeux de tous.

Normale ? Non je ne suis pas normale. Je suis unique.

Je peux passer d’une crise de larmes à un fou rire en 1/10ème de seconde, et ça, peu de gens en sont capables.

Je vis mes émotions à fonds et alors ?

Sans émotions pas de créations.

J’ai la passion de la vie, la passion de l’amour. Je me sens vivante uniquement lorsque je ressens. Je suis une addict de la sensiblerie, j’ai la passion des émotions, bref

That’s a good law XD Better than Clave’s “Dura lex sed lex” for sure.

Who said “I love you” first

Alec. Like, way too fast and he was flustered and adorable and Bat kissed him silly before telling him it’s okay to take your time, and say it after more than a month. But Bat also likes Alec a lot so that’s fine.

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background

Bat. It’s sleeping Alec, that one time he collapsed on top of the covers, hair a mess and shirt riding up. And Alec doesn’t know this picture exists. Neither he will ever find out.

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror

Again, Bat does. Alec rolls his eyes and cleans the mirror.

Who buys the other cheesy gifts

Alec does, actually. He thinks he is hilarious when he finds slightly wolf themed ones. Also stuff that can protect Bat when he cannot.

Jace counts as stuff like that too.

Who initiated the first kiss

Surprisingly, it was Alec, who had no idea what to do, actually asked, prompting Bat to laugh and the kiss to get postponed. But then Bat calmed down and they found out Alec is a very fast learner.

Who kisses the other awake in the morning

Bat licks Alec’s face awake instead of the alarm clock. And then Alec has to go be Mr. Head of the Institute while Bat goes back to sleep to the sound of his boyfriend grumbling.

Who starts tickle fights

Bat often tickles Alec accidentally with his wolfy silly self when sprawling all over his boyfriend.

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower

Not particularly a thing that happens, to Bat’s disappointment. Alec insists that showers should actually end up with getting clean.

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch

Bat brings takeout from Jade Wolf but he also occasionally cooks. He sometimes makes use of the Institute kitchen, together with Jace or alone.

Who was nervous and shy on the first date

Alec was a mess but it’s fine because Bat was also a mess, except Bat ended up rambling and Alec ended up getting drunk and in the end, the second date was perfect so that’s fine.

Who kills/takes out the spiders

Bat has to growl them away despite Alec’s insistance, in an unusually high-pitched voice, that he is not afraid of them.

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk

Advent Calendar: Day 1

Alec was trying to work. Upcoming Christmas was not an excuse to slack off and it seemed that attacks kept piling up even more than usual. Like demons didn’t want Alec to have Christmas. There was just one thing keeping him from actually making progress on his work.

“I’m trying to work here, babe, do you mind…?”, grunted Alec a little frustrated.

“You work too much”, groaned Bat where he was sprawled out on the couch, earning a pointed look from Alec. “Fine, just do what you have to…”

“Can you stop being so freaking cute so I can concentrate?”, requested Alec.

“I think you’re asking too much of your boyfriend there.”

Rolling his eyes, Alec turned to look at Jace, who was leaning against the doorway with a broad smirk on his lips. Alec wasn’t entirely used to the friendship between his boyfriend and his parabatai yet. When they had first met Bat, got introduced to him by Maia and Simon during the war, Alec would have never expected to end up with the wolf. He had still been a little bitter about how his relationship with Magnus had fallen apart – less so because he wanted it back, but more so because he was aware where his mistakes in that had laid. The lying, the half-truths, not trusting each other or being willing to open up to each other. Those were the mistakes they both had made. And when the lie about the Soul Sword and Magnus choosing the Seelie Queen’s side during the war had pushed them to a definite end, somewhere deep down, Alec had known it was for the best.

That breakup had been well over a year ago by now though.

In the aftermath, Jace had died and gotten possessed and they had to save him. Saved, Jace was sent to the Silent Brothers to heal, both physically and mentally, while Alec had been left to pick up the pieces and try to put them together again. Luke, Bat and Simon had been great helps during that. Trying to find Clary and save her, after they realized she was still alive. Magnus too had helped. He had helped by breaking the possession on Jace already, by sending Alec and Isabelle into Jace’s mind to try and bring him back. But over the following weeks of trying to track Jonathan and Clary, Alec and Magnus had finally gotten the chance to actually talk. They had been purely business during the Owl incident, but afterward? Searching for Clary, while Jace was with the Silent Brothers? For the first time, Alec and Magnus just talked, as… friends. The first step to friendship.

Magnus had come to care a great deal about Jace while Jace had been living with him at the loft. They talked about all that had gone wrong in their relationship and came to the agreement that they had both messed up and that they had a better dynamic now than when they were still dating,

Over the following months, Alec found himself falling in love with Bat, who had helped a lot during the time Jace was gone. They had started dating half a year ago and Alec was just genuinely happy. Bat was kind and gentle and soft – and Alec had learned from his past relationship. He tried being more open, being honest about everything with his lover.

“Fine. What is it you wanted, Bat?”, asked Alec with a sigh and put his work down.

“Magnus wants to go to a Christmas market… somewhere in Europe… with me and when I told Bat about it, he decided that’d be a good double-date”, replied Jace with a grin. “You coming?”

After Jace returned from the Silent Brothers, mentally more stable and overall better than before, he felt a little disconnected from the changes at first. But he adapted scarily quickly to Alec’s new relationship status. Jace and Bat hit it off great after a first night of drinking at the Hunter’s Moon. And only weeks after his return, Jace and Magnus tentatively grew closer. It took them getting Alec’s very explicit vocal blessing to actually go out – but Alec was happy and in love, why would he deny his ex the same thing out of spite? After all, he and Magnus managed to keep a friendship.

“No’s not an answer, mh?”, grunted Alec as he looked at the identical puppy-dog eyes offered to him by his parabatai and his boyfriend. “Okay, fine. I can… finish this later.”

“You’re the best, babe”, grinned Bat and leaned in to kiss his cheek.

Alec blushed, just the faintest bit, before he allowed himself to be pulled along by Bat. Honestly, he knew this was for the best. Bat tended to do this, to distract him whenever he got too lost in work. He could spend a whole day working if he wasn’t pulled away from his work every now and again. Bat would come with food, or simply just… flop down on Alec’s desk. A large, fluffy wolf, taking up all of the space, sprawling out and rolling onto his back so Alec would have to give him a belly-rub. It usually ended with Alec taking a nap cuddled up to his boyfriend and that was exactly what he needed at that time. Bat knew how to nudge him into what he needed when he overworked himself and maybe right now, a date-night and some fresh air were exactly what he needed.

“Ah, so you did manage to pry Alexander off his work. Wonderful”, observed Magnus pleased.

He was waiting for them already. With a smile on his lips did Magnus welcome Jace into a hug and a kiss, having the blonde practically melt into him. Bat tugged on Alec’s hand to gain his attention so when Alec turned toward him, he could kiss the dark-haired Shadowhunter.

“Thanks for making time, Alec”, whispered Bat softly.

“For you? Always”, grumbled Alec and pulled Bat closer, wrapping an arm around Bat’s waist.

“So whipped”, commented Jace with a teasing smirk.

“Don’t tease them, puppy”, chided Magnus and smacked Jace’s ass, making him yelped.

“So literally whipped”, commented Bat with a shit-eating grin.

Jace’s cheeks darkened as he glared pointedly at the wolf and shoved him lightly while Magnus opened up a portal. The warlock exchanged an amused look with Alec as they walked through. When they came out the other side, it took Alec’s breath away. Everything was covered in snow, the little huts and stands and booths were all decorated with sparkling lights and Christmas decorations, Christmas carols were being sung in a foreign language. He looked around in awe.

“I want to try absolutely every food there is, angelito”, declared Bat with sparkling eyes.

“Of course you do”, huffed Alec softly and kissed Bat’s temple. “Though… I’m hungry too.”

“Of course you are. You haven’t eaten all day. Stupid Shadowhunter who can’t watch out for himself”, grumbled Bat and nudged Alec. “I swear, you’d be lost without me.”

“I would”, agreed Alec honestly without missing a beat.

It gave Bat some pause and made the wolf look at him flustered. Smiling, Alec leaned down to properly kiss Bat before the two got pushed along by Magnus and Jace to explore the market.

*laughs* That ain’t even close to a competition. There’s way too much wrong with canon!Ma/ec I really dislike it overall, even though I make it work for the sake of Malace, but yeah no if you remove the Jace? Nope. Balec all the way!

Well. *blinks slowly* Interesting question.

When you write Jagnus, the matter of Alec is very prominently there, because he’s Jace’s parabatai. I’ve been writing a lot of Jagnus.

And while it’s really easy to make Magnus and Jace fall in love, there is this tall, awkward, sad puppy in the corner. And it makes me feel bad for Alec, because with the internalized homophobia he has been battling and the fact that he’s been in love with Jace for years, it must hurt a lot to see his parabatai happy with another man who isn’t Alec.

So. A love-interest needed to be found.

And @kimmycup and I had a bit of an... audition for the part, you could say.

I mean, it’s not like there is a ton of male characters, when you exclude Magnus, Alec and Jace, really.

Simon is a very clear and hard no for me, Alec at best tolerates him and in general doesn’t give a damn. I have a hard time picturing those two as friends and even that only semi-works if Simon is dating either Jace or Izzy and Alec is forced to accept him. But on his own... there is just absolutely nothing that brings those two characters in any way or shape close.

Luke is too old and just no, generally, no.

Aldertree is a fucker and just also definitely no.

Raphael... I also don’t see that. At all.

I continuously keep forgetting that Meliorn is A Character That Exists - but hey, the show has the same problem so there is that.

Sebastian is too complicated to easily get back into a canon compliant story, also getting them together is a more tricky feat and when looking for a side-pairing I kinda don’t want to plot a more complicated thing that I am doing for the main couple. Though I do ship those two.

Raj is a dick and I don’t like him and think Alec would deserve better than that.

Valentine, Hodge, Robert, Max are all such clear obvious hard nos and that literally rounds up all the male characters we have had in the show so far.

That... literally only left Bat.

That’s how we first came to Bat and figured we could, you know, try and see if we can make it work. Granted, the Bat we write is more our own creation at this point than canon compliant because canon continuously fails to actually give us Bat, but we based him on what little we had to go by.

And Bat’s a cute, gentle, friendly and supportive guy.

Which. Definitely what Alec deserves.

So the idea of Alec, actually getting the time to come to terms with his own homosexuality instead of being publically forced out of the closed (I hated it I absolutely hated that plotline and how rushed it was and how it was written and uuurgh) and instead gets to slowly come to terms, tell his siblings and parabatai in private, in his own time, start dating when he is ready.

And writing it for the first time showed me that it actually works. It was good, soft and Alec was not left alone and bitter, because he deserves to be happy too.