#badmama

I tried to play with her to make up joyful. But tired baby was in a really bad mood today. Her little drum (that i won at @sweethomerpstore) was a subterfuge to make her look at my camera and take a nice picture of us. Well, again, miss Jean don’t like when things are going like mama wants them to go. She noticed I don’t know what on the wall, and was afraid of that. And this was our conversation : - Are you okay sweetheart ? - Buba - What ? What are you looking like that ? - ... - Tell mommy Jean. What is scaring you ? And then she started crying and ended up in my arms. As she was really tired, I take her with me in bed, and she’s now sleeping like a little angel next to me.

闆娘說我帽帽很可愛。

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 It CLEARLY states I am seeking advice on how to go about record keeping and portfolio options for my daughter because of her lack of ability at the current time to produce work on paper. I swear like 10 different bitches, yes, bitches! Came on there giving me advice on how to get therapy thru private care, in public school, thru private Pre k/head start programs, etc. The fuck. I know the laws, the options. Etc. I choose to home school because it is what’s right for MY CHILDREN. If someone else chooses to go with public school in some form, great. That’s what works for you and your children. Why do other parents feel like it’s their mission and goal in life to point out obvious steps, options, etc that we already know?! I have special needs children. I might not know everything but I guarantee I know more than a lot of parents on the home school subject. I know what resources are offered, therapies, how to go about evaluations and screenings. I have went thru this since my son was 4 months old and he is now 7. My daughter started showing signs of being delayed at 2 months and then we began documenting and such. I am not STUPID. I wish people would learn to read before they type so I didn’t have to be such a smart ass bitch. (On fb and in real life. I have no problem telling ANYONE when I know I am right.) People assume when we ask for advice they need to share every step and ounce of knowledge that they have collected since the day they graced the earth with their presence. IF I ask a question and outline information and ask specifically for info and advice on a specific portion of a post, then please, for the love of the internet, only answer that part of the damn post! We are all parents. We know our kids better than anyone else on this planet. I know what’s up. I know what they need, how to get it, how to find resources and make shit happen for them to help them be all they can be…But annoying judgey ass parents that think I know nothing because I ask for advice are really turning me ugly quick. And I am far from fucking ugly 99% of the time. I guess next time I make a post I will have to include a disclaimer at the bottom saying I am not responsible for being a bitch if you take it upon yourself to try to teach me how to be a mother to my own children. Get your nose from up your ass and parent your own kids before trying to tell others how to do shit. I know ya’ll have had this happen probably and it probably annoys the hell out of you too but guess what? You can totally tell them bitches to STFU and move on from your post! I even blocked a chick for getting rude with me because I pointed out the fact that what she said had nothing to do with what I asked. I told her what I thought of her unwanted comments and bullshit advice that was not even related to the actual question that was asked in the first damn place! *Sigh* It’s just fucked that you can’t even ask a question without those perfect know it all bitches raping your post to look better to other people on social media. I love knowing my shit and how to shut them up quick. I am very intelligent and have no use for people who think less of me. Rant over!

There is no way to express how tired I am from the past few days. I feel like I haven’t slept in a year. My sons old bed broke and I have been sharing a bed with him and my daughter that I normally co-sleep with and it was horrible. I was hot, had no room on the bed and ended up tossing and turning almost the entire time. Went and bought him a bed, set it up and was thinking that last night was gonna be smooth and easy. Nope. My daughter wouldn’t lay down til about midnight and as soon as she was asleep my son woke up. He didn’t go back to sleep until the sun was up…Which means I also didn’t go back to sleep until the sun came up. I have horrible insomnia some nights but this was exhausting. I’ve literally went almost a week with no sleep now. I am walking into walls, tripping over my own feet and forgetting and dropping everything. Tonight, I don’t give a fuck, I will sleep! On top of all that today the kids have been hell. Anything and everything they know they are not suppose to do they’ve made sure they did it! A box full of lucky charms all over the bedroom, toys thrown (literally) all over the house, food dropped here and there...Horrible. I have yelled, sighed, debated crying in a corner and then ignored them all together just to grasp a little sanity until bedtime. I refused to let them have outside time today. The way my son was acting I was terrified he would demolish the house from the outside without me knowing. Instead I turned on movie after movie while I attempted to upload 600 plus photos of my sons schoolwork from the entire year. (We home school.) Now, in preparation for his yearly evaluation I have to organize all the photos and daily logs and sort through everything to get samples from the beginning, middle and end of the term. Fun...Yay me. I didn’t even cook dinner the past two nights. Last night it was subway and tonight it was chicken nuggets and sandwiches. As tired as I am they are lucky I managed that much. I did grab a shower earlier so I could at least feel human again. Now, my ass is planted on the couch watching Orange Is The New Black and I refuse to get up unless I have to take a piss or need a drink. I am officially off duty. *Sighs*

So, I over slept today. A lot. My mom had my son on the living room with her and I snoozed for a good portion of the day. I woke up around 1130am. My daughter was in the bedroom with me and decided to basically redecorate the entire thing. My sons bed is completely naked, my night stand draw is bare and I have no clue whats under the pile of blankets and pillows on the floor. I’ll clean it up before their bedtime but right now I really don’t give a fuck because I actually got to sleep past 830am! That is a very rare thing for this mama. Not because of the kids per say tho. I usually wake about the time they do every morning, but lately I haven’t been sleeping to well. Lots of trips to pee in the middle of the night, making sure my son doesn’t sound like hes getting croup again, changing the baby’s diaper, etc. I am always so exhausted by the time they are in bed that I feel like I can’t move. Then there is the cleaning, etc. I have no time for me it seems unless I stay up at night after they’ve went to bed. If I do that then I don’t wake up early enough to get what needs to be done accomplished for that day. It is a loosing battle no matter what. Plus, I have horrible insomnia some nights. I can’t take sleeping aids because if I do and my son gets croup I may not hear it and that could be very very bad for him. I’d rather be tired than him end up admitted in the hospital or worse! I know ya’ll relate. If you are a well rested mama then I applaud you because I haven’t managed to find a good balance for it yet. Plus I am a single, stay at home mom that home schools. I literally never get a break. Some days I wanna just run away but then I look at my brats and know I would die without them. No matter how sucky of a day it is, it’s a perfect day as long as I am with them! There’s so much to remember when you have kids tho! I’ll cover some of that in my next post. For now I am gonna go have a lazy day with my whining monster and my tornado of a daughter! <3

Most non parents or (gulp don’t shoot!) men probably think us moms talk about kids, cleaning , etc when we chat. Hell no. That shit does come up but the majority is sex, men and what happened before and after said sex and men. For example, a friend and I were chatting not long ago and it consisted of picking out a suitable fuck buddy. Yup. Even moms have them. Hell we even have BOBs. Battery Operated Boyfriends. We also talking about drinking and drugs. Not that we hate them either. Pot lover here and proud! I’m talking we really get into some weird convos. Sometimes they are light and funny. Sometimes dark and twisted. Depends on our moods. Topics change randomly and unexpectedly and that’s one of the best things. We talk about dick a lot. The size, shape, feel. What it really looks like. Cut and uncut. We talk about our boobs and vaginas. Sally has a mind of her own, you just don’t even know! Yes, we name our vaginas so that we can talk about them anywhere without getting dirty looks or sexually harassed. We talk about hair and nails and what our periods are like. Lord, it gets detailed! When you find friends you can really talk to on those levels though, you keep them. You really cherish the talks and time you have with them because those weird fuckers are your soulmates. Not a damn man. That’s just a clit tickler. A soulmate is someone you can send a boob or sally pic to in the middle of the night and ask “what the fuck is that?!” and, of course, they reply almost instantly with humor but let you know they care. Those are the kinds of friends I want in the nursing home with me when i’m 80, pushing a walker with tennis balls on the legs and checking out which old men are healthy enough for Viagra still. Those ladies are more than friends. Those women are my sisters and I am lucky to have the ones I do have in my life. Find your soulmates while you still can and plan the rest of your lives out and make sure they are who you include. <3