#bad everything else

Last night I actually did end up hanging out with Ryan, which was a surprise to me. He had forgotten about it and I didn't text him until way late. We met up at sonic and decided that we would park his car at his mom's and walk to the green way. There is this sidewalk that leads from a neighborhood, right to the green way, and I'm sure it's pretty during the day but at night it is sketchy as fuck. We started there and walked down to where the cars go over the road and we just talked and I gave cuddling with him a go but I'm just not touchy so that lasted about 5 minutes and I was like nope. And he kept pulling me towards him and I wanted to hit him for touching me so much but I knew what I would get with him. And at one point he fucking smacked me right in the back of the head and it fucking hurt and I kept threatening to punch him and he kept asking me to so it wouldnt be an empty threat but I would barely hit him. We sat under there for a while talking and then I was ready to go back and so we said we were gonna jog back since it was raining so hard and we get out from under the bridge and it was barely raining but we still ran for like 4 minutes and I did so barefoot because my shoes hurt and now my feet are mad at me. Anyways, after we got back, we went to waffle house and that was pleasant and then I went home because it was close to 3am. Also, he told me he moves to Florida in about a month so that is sad. I make a new friend and then lose him in less than a year. I also told him about my stepdad maybe getting a new job and us moving somewhere, but that I had no idea if that would happen or not.  I am really glad that last night happened because I was desperately trying to find someone to hang out with and he was there and I don't know if I would have just moped around last night if he hadn't been but I still feel like not doing anything ever again and I need to get out of this rut.