4th of July, 2023
Nag-flashback sa akin yung usapan namin ng mga baby girls ko sa church about them praying for their future husbands e students palang sila. Makes me wonder ngayon kung bakit nga ba hindi ko pa sinisimulan ipag-pray everyday ang future husband ko? My prayers always includes my parents, siblings, friends, church and non-believers as well as guidance sa akin everyday. Pero hindi ko consistently napapanalangin ang mapapang-asawa ko. After all the failed ligawan stage na nagkaroon ako, parang hindi na ako nag e-expect masyado sa mga kalalakihan lalo na sa panahon ngayon. Pero napaisip nga rin naman ako, very loving akong tao, my greatest dream is to become a 'mom' nga eh. So how come na nawalan na ako ng pag-asa? Just because of one heartbreaking experience and silly guys who tried to pursue me? Don't get me wrong. Sobrang na-enjoy ko ang single season, like the flowers, hatid-sundo, random dates and such pero nandito na ako sa point ngayon na gusto ko na mag-start ng family. Pero I am gonna pray that it will be with someone na mas love ang Lord before anything else, love ang family ko, soft-spoken, a good cook and understanding. Syempre, ako rin I have to be a woman of God. I pray that if we are praying for each other ay maging mabuti kaming partner for each other and that it is God-given. I pray that I won't let my emotions rule over me and that he will always assure me, I pray that we will always surrender everything to God. Today, I will religiously pray for my future husband. I pray that we serve God together, I pray that we both will always have God in our hearts. Dito lang me, waiting for you! :)
