#azuranotes

Theme: What does it mean to fall in love for someone like Vanitas, and what does it mean to fall with a man like him? How does he react when you fall for him too?

✦ Vanitas knows what love is, he's no stranger to it (though that doesn't mean he's fond of the idea of falling in love himself).

✦ He's well aware that everybody falls in love at some point in their life. Usually.

✦ So when he sees you and he almost spits out his drink, he doesn't necessarily.. like it.

✦ You don't even look at him as you walk by, and he's absolutely entranced. You've piqued his interest.

✦ However, it takes more than that for Vanitas to fall in love because he's not one to fall in love at first sight. He needs to know you first.

✦ He manages to catch you before you're too far away and invites you over for a friendly discussion of controversial matters that are occurring in Paris just to get to know you.

✦ You're more than happy to oblige, and you stay with him for a while, partaking in the friendly debate the two of you begin.

✦ When you finally leave, Vanitas only flashes you his usual, confident smirk, telling you he's free anytime, almost as if inviting you to meet again.

✦ You then take your leave, the image of the doctor stuck in your head as you sigh, smiling to yourself. You think he makes good conversation, and a decent friend.

✦ Vanitas, on the other hand, has had his heart running for the entire conversation you've had. He's enthralled, enraptured, enamored, you name it.

✦ He's interested, he wants to know your secrets, for you to provide him the solace and companionship he's so longed for in his life of solitude.

✦ Yet at the same time, he can't help but suppress what he feels; he doesn't deserve someone like you, he thinks. Nobody would love someone like him.

✦ And so, he keeps strengthening the bond the two of you share, your friendship growing to be strong and firm. He watches that he won't cross the line, even as a flirt.

✦ Yet the moment he notices a hint that you are starting to fall for him too, his heart.. sinks. And it's not that he doesn't love you. He truly does, but, the man you've fallen for is nothing short of a monster, in his perspective.

✦ You couldn't truly love him, he thinks. And if you do, it's not going to work out. Vanitas is afraid. All his life he has been alone, betrayed, forsaken, lied to. He's been experimented on, he lost early on who he loved, and he no longer knows who he should trust or not.

✦ His heart is being slowly ripped into two, and he doesn't know what to do about it. It hurts him, and he knows that if you knew, it would hurt you as much (or even more) than it hurts him. This fear of being hurt again is chipping away at the thread of sanity he's been hanging from for a long time.

✦ The next time you knock on his door, there is no response, and you start to worry just what has happened. In a desperate attempt to find out what's wrong, you barge into the room, only to find a written note from the vampire doctor, obviously meant for you.

✦ Vanitas has stated to you his rather unusual.. love crisis, but is now gone, and far from your reach. It'd be impossible to find just one particular man in Paris who excels at hiding and running away from that which he wants.

✦ You've lost him, he's lost you, and it's infuriated you to no end. You just wish you'd had time to talk about this, maybe then it would've been easier to cope with.

✦ However, you decide to search anyways, because you think you've earned yourself an apology and an explanation from this renowned "vampire doctor."

✦ An alarming number of curse-bearing vampires have been appearing throughout the northeastern area of Paris, the cases being dealt with rapidly.